Bipolar Check-In #38

Had a really rough time last night





I'm struggling with my ED lately. Made plans to hang out with a friend next week. My therapist wrote the letter I need for my college so I'll be getting that when I see her next


Hope everyone is doing well and has a good weekend

Threw up my meds again last night. Tossed and turned until I gave up and watched tv, in the middle of dirk gently's detective agency felt sleepy. So around 6:30-7am went back to bed. Mum, I and my cat were at a hotel and my cat was sliding down balconies. Then I went off to watch a sport that the college was having. The contestants ran, swam and threw javelins. I was near the end where the last thing they did was throw the javelin. They were making holes in the Tarmac the javelins were so sharp. I was very close and edged to the cut off line so I could see them fly over my head. Then I realized it was getting late and I needed to get back cause mum needed super. I was panicking cause I had a long way to go and it was 7:30 already, way past her supper time. I hitched a ride by holding on to a big passing truck, it went faster and faster though a hyway maze until I went flying over the top of the cars. I was so scared but managed to reach down and bed down on a truck carrying foam mattress pads. Was still scared when I woke up breathing hard. Not one of my better dreams.

Season 1 was great! I'm glad you're enjoying it.


So sorry to hear you're feeling worse again. We need to get you off this roller coaster!

I slept in. Im going to coffee with a friend in an hour. I feel better than last night for sure. I need a shower. Dont want one though. Its been days. I still feel like dozing in bed but I probably shouldnt.

I got so furious this morning, that I went a little nutty. I did finally calm down. I got what I really wanted done, plus I enjoyed one of my enjoyable pastimes, which is submitting recipes for contests and online/print magazines. I must confess that I got so excited about a Christmas cookie contest that I neglected to read all of the requirements for submission. Apparently the cookies had to contain a lot of butter. LOL! Neither of the cookie recipes I submitted even have any butter in them. I guess they'll be deleted quickly! Oh well!


Somebody may recall that I mentioned that my husband's tooth cracked. He's been in pain. We don't have the money (or at least desire to spend it) for a new tooth implant. We decided that he'd just get the sucka removed. It's not one that would be noticeable. Well he finally got an appointment with the "surgeon" and the first appointment is a "consultation". Consultation about what?!?! He just wants to stupid thing pulled. Nowadays they make up yet another excuse to charge you money. Hubby and I were almost joking that perhaps we should just put a wire around his tooth and attach it to a door handle (like you do with kids' teeth) and I would slam it shut and yank the bugger out. Just kidding, but this is ridiculous! We're also going to put off the plumbing issue. It's sort of workable, in a less than ideal way. Who has $5,000 for a tooth and $5,000 for a plumbing issue? Last Christmas we had to pay $3,000 for my two root canals. They were totally unavoidable because they were for my two front teeth. I'm gap toothed to begin with. Without them, I'd have a 6-lane highway showing.

I’m sorry your have such a tough struggle with just awful bullshyt

Can you practice self grounding ?? As often as you need too.

Please stay safe

Thank you!


I prayed with my rosary last night and that always helps relax me and keep me grounded, I've also been keeping myself busy with reading books. I have a worry stone too, mindfulness is very helpful


How are you?

I’m so glad your doing better today... yes all those things your doing is fantastic

I’m just sick , I’m so bummed to catch this crud. My lungs are just junk and so over it.

Well Fooey Fooey Fooey !!

Yes I am absolute sick.. cough, wheeze, sniffle , snort , blasting headache and sinus pain. But hey no fever , yet....

Well Fooey Fooey Fooey !!

Yes I am absolute sick.. cough, wheeze, sniffle , snort , blasting headache and sinus pain. But hey no fever , yet....

Well Fooey Fooey Fooey !!

Yes I am absolute sick.. cough, wheeze, sniffle , snort , blasting headache and sinus pain. But hey no fever , yet....

Hi Jennifer. That's lovely that you'll get to see your daughter soon. I think it is also wonderful that you've helped her "take flight". You know, there are many parents nowadays that seem to shelter and over protect. I know from my own experience, being taught about risks and challenges in life is important, but also is having confidence and the knowledge to be independent and free. That definitely also applies to women! I traveled abroad all by myself for the first time between my sophomore and junior years at college. I was with a group and had a support, though, but I had a certain independence there, as well. That trip was one of the most wonderful experiences of my life. I made my own money there, but I couldn't have taken the trip without the go-ahead (and plane tickets) from my mother. She said "Do it!" and I did.

My husband gets a lot of back and neck pain. Have you ever tried arnica cream or gel? My husband has sold half of his office mates on it. They sell it in the pharmacies near me, but he gets it even cheaper online.

Threw up my meds again last night. Tossed and turned until I gave up and watched tv, in the middle of dirk gently's detective agency felt sleepy. So around 6:30-7am went back to bed. Mum, I and my cat were at a hotel and my cat was sliding down balconies. Then I went off to watch a sport that the college was having. The contestants ran, swam and threw javelins. I was near the end where the last thing they did was throw the javelin. They were making holes in the Tarmac the javelins were so sharp. I was very close and edged to the cut off line so I could see them fly over my head. Then I realized it was getting late and I needed to get back cause mum needed super. I was panicking cause I had a long way to go and it was 7:30 already, way past her supper time. I hitched a ride by holding on to a big passing truck, it went faster and faster though a hyway maze until I went flying over the top of the cars. I was so scared but managed to reach down and bed down on a truck carrying foam mattress pads. Was still scared when I woke up breathing hard. Not one of my better dreams.

Thank you for the comforting message. It helped alleviate my fears to read that you had done it successfully and that it made such an impression on you.


I have not tried arnica cream or gel but will certainly be getting some in the morning as what I’m trying is not working.


Many thanks.

Very creative!!! You'd ended up in a truck which was carrying mattress pads! Wow!I am sorry you were frightened; I don't mean to make light of that fact.

Checking in...I feel pretty much the same - low but not so low that it was a bad day. It was actually a good day because I got to work from home.

I also helped find some information about patient records that didn't make it into another system. I feel good when I help in some way in improving patient care.

I picked up my meds today so I'm set for the month.

I'm traveling to the u.s. tomorrow. It's just for a day and I'll be driving for about 5 hours each way, including the border crossing. I'm visiting a well known temple. Of course we have temples here but this one is special in it's own way. Lots of Canadians go there.

I'll stop by Niagara falls on the way there or back and check them out. I try to visit the falls once each season. Winters at the falls are amazing but you have to be prepared, otherwise it can be very unpleasant with all the ice, snow, and mist that freezes on anything on contact.

The last time I saw my sister we made a trip to the falls during winter. She wasn't prepared and her hair froze because of the mist. We took some nice pictures that day and had some good conversations. She ended up passing away 6 months later. I go back to the spot where we stood to take photos next to the falls and think of her. I actually think of her pretty often still.

s all that need them and many good vibes to all.

Went to new t to me 2nd meeting today... I booked another. She remind me that I am resilient and that it's ok to be anxious as I am ,... I am annoyed with my anxiety any more and am growing tired.

Had a "very strange thought" that I shared with my friend.

I am still leery.. as I am with anyone.

I've been annoyed today a little bit up beat too .. sigh. Agitated with a few people actually if I am honest.

T didn't go over paper work with me, so I suspect if I find a brain mapping provider I'll go over it then with them.

In other news, raspberry vinaigrette I found out I like

I took some pictures today of the leaves.. that was fun to me.
I hope it's safe to share ... even if for a moment

s all that need them and many good vibes to all.

Went to new t to me 2nd meeting today... I booked another. She remind me that I am resilient and that it's ok to be anxious as I am ,... I am annoyed with my anxiety any more and am growing tired.

Had a "very strange thought" that I shared with my friend.

I am still leery.. as I am with anyone.

I've been annoyed today a little bit up beat too .. sigh. Agitated with a few people actually if I am honest.

T didn't go over paper work with me, so I suspect if I find a brain mapping provider I'll go over it then with them.

In other news, raspberry vinaigrette I found out I like

I took some pictures today of the leaves.. that was fun to me.
I hope it's safe to share ... even if for a moment