[~Christina]

Well we are leaving in a few.

My husbands back is still out so I’ll be doing the drive down, I just wish it wasn’t going to be rain the whole way.

Zooom Zooom Zooom

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well we are leaving in a few.

My husbands back is still out so I’ll be doing the drive down, I just wish it wasn’t going to be rain the whole way.

Zooom Zooom Zooom

Safe and swift and uneventful travels

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Innerzone-thoughts and prayers for your very difficult situation.

Christina-travel safely and hope the rain stops.

Originally Posted by whatever2013

My news is good. I broke into the 1400s in ratings in Scrabble for the first time! It's funny: now that i've abandoned studying and just play by my wits i am doing BETTER. I am the top-rated player in my division! Other than that i have been enjoying spending long quiet days with my dog in our cozy home. Had a stomach ache and headache today but it's not the end of the world.

Excellent! It's cool to have such talents. My husband once said something similar about his mother's chess playing.

[jmariah001]

Feel okay at the moment. Kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have 3 kittens I am supposed to find homes for but I got attached to them. So now I am rethinking the rehoming thing. I already have 3 other cats so that would make 6 all together. The problem is I live in a small mobile home. My husband is all for keeping them. Everyone else is against it. By everyone else I mean the whole rest of the family. Thank god they don't live with us. I see it as being my home so my choice. The family is afraid they will start peeing all over. I am not worried about that. If you keep the litter clean there shouldn't be a problem. I was raised with around 21 cats. So I've always had a lot. The thing that bothers me is the people telling me to rehome my kittens have 7 cats of their own. Now mind you they are my parents. But still. I did rehome one of the kittens. But I know where he went. I know the person that adopted him. So that makes a difference. I don't want the kittens to go to strangers. I am very protective. So I think I will keep them. Two of the others are still kittens themselves. They are 8 months old or so. I have the mother cat. The other two are her first litter. She is feral. Only one of the cats is male. So he will get fixed first. No more kittens. They are all indoor cats now. Sorry this got so long. Anyways that is what is going on right now. Night all.

I am overwhelmed by the kindness here. Thank you all so much for your thoughts. They mean the world. In a note of relief, I did get a text tonight (well, a picture, point is, a transmission). I worry so much about him.

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I am overwhelmed by the kindness here. Thank you all so much for your thoughts. They mean the world. In a note of relief, I did get a text tonight (well, a picture, point is, a transmission). I worry so much about him.

I’m glad you got a text... I can only imagine how awful this is for you. My Bipolar daughter scared the hell out of me last week.

You and your son are in my thoughts, I hope he keeps in contact with you and things start to improve for him and I’ll continue to hope he reaches out for help.

During all this make sure your taking good care of yourself too.. we Mom’s throw ourselves fully into are children when they are not okay.

Thoughts and soothing love to you both

[~Christina]

Well to sum up our drive so far I am shocked we are still alive. It’s raining and practically all the interstates have so much construction there’s no traffic lines to see, one area threw half my car off the road as the pavement just vanished in half the lane. I still don’t know how I got back on the road. Must have been a truly “ Jesus take the wheel” moment

I have never ever been so scared driving in my life !

We finally got on 75 in Atlanta and same thing literally impossible to see traffic lines.. Huge holes in the road that almost wrecked use I can’t tell you how many times.

Then a horrible accident had the entire southbound lanes closed , took over an hour to have to drive on the shoulder of the road only half on pavement , we were I. The dirt , had no idea how to get back to 75 so we decided to follow the truckers figured they would know how to get back, Thankfully they did ,

I drove to the next exit got off , pulled into a gas station. Put it in park literally jumped out of the car almost ran to the bathroom and just lost it.

It was 8 horrifying hours !!!

Our normal at most 13 hour trip is looking like a 16 to maybe 18

It’s finally gotten light out ! The rain has it pretty dark tho , but at least can see the roads easier.

I just hope we make it in one piece ... while typing this we have passed 4 accidents.. in one a semi truck , the whole cab broke loose and flip right onto its roof, there was a huge fire as the tires were melted. I pray the driver survived

We have made this trip probably 50 times and never have we gone through such hell !

Steve and I aren’t sure if I should drive any of the rest of the way. Maybe I’ll settle down , but omg the cars just flying by us. People I swear have a death wish.

Hugs to all in case I die, seriously ugh

Originally Posted by jmariah001

Feel okay at the moment. Kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have 3 kittens I am supposed to find homes for but I got attached to them. So now I am rethinking the rehoming thing. I already have 3 other cats so that would make 6 all together. The problem is I live in a small mobile home. My husband is all for keeping them. Everyone else is against it. By everyone else I mean the whole rest of the family. Thank god they don't live with us. I see it as being my home so my choice. The family is afraid they will start peeing all over. I am not worried about that. If you keep the litter clean there shouldn't be a problem. I was raised with around 21 cats. So I've always had a lot. The thing that bothers me is the people telling me to rehome my kittens have 7 cats of their own. Now mind you they are my parents. But still. I did rehome one of the kittens. But I know where he went. I know the person that adopted him. So that makes a difference. I don't want the kittens to go to strangers. I am very protective. So I think I will keep them. Two of the others are still kittens themselves. They are 8 months old or so. I have the mother cat. The other two are her first litter. She is feral. Only one of the cats is male. So he will get fixed first. No more kittens. They are all indoor cats now. Sorry this got so long. Anyways that is what is going on right now. Night all.

I wish I could take a kitten, but my husband doesn't want a cat. I love cats. I also love birds.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well to sum up our drive so far I am shocked we are still alive. It’s raining and practically all the interstates have so much construction there’s no traffic lines to see, one area threw half my car off the road as the pavement just vanished in half the lane. I still don’t know how I got back on the road. Must have been a truly “ Jesus take the wheel” moment

I have never ever been so scared driving in my life !

We finally got on 75 in Atlanta and same thing literally impossible to see traffic lines.. Huge holes in the road that almost wrecked use I can’t tell you how many times.

Then a horrible accident had the entire southbound lanes closed , took over an hour to have to drive on the shoulder of the road only half on pavement , we were I. The dirt , had no idea how to get back to 75 so we decided to follow the truckers figured they would know how to get back, Thankfully they did ,

I drove to the next exit got off , pulled into a gas station. Put it in park literally jumped out of the car almost ran to the bathroom and just lost it.

It was 8 horrifying hours !!!

Our normal at most 13 hour trip is looking like a 16 to maybe 18

It’s finally gotten light out ! The rain has it pretty dark tho , but at least can see the roads easier.

I just hope we make it in one piece ... while typing this we have passed 4 accidents.. in one a semi truck , the whole cab broke loose and flip right onto its roof, there was a huge fire as the tires were melted. I pray the driver survived

We have made this trip probably 50 times and never have we gone through such hell !

Steve and I aren’t sure if I should drive any of the rest of the way. Maybe I’ll settle down , but omg the cars just flying by us. People I swear have a death wish.

Hugs to all in case I die, seriously ugh

Oh, you can't do anything except make it to your destination, you hear?

It has sounded like a truly frightening time!
So glad you, Steve and the dogs are all okay!!!

take it easy as you continue your trip.
Thinking of you!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I am overwhelmed by the kindness here. Thank you all so much for your thoughts. They mean the world. In a note of relief, I did get a text tonight (well, a picture, point is, a transmission). I worry so much about him.

Great! It's a good sign he has been in touch!
Of course you're very concerned, rightfully so!

Situations like this make me thankful for technology so people can stay in touch.
Might you see him today?

It's such a sad, grief-filled and a very scary challenge for people when those around them take their lives. It has to be incredibly painful and likely quite demoralizing and confusing?

It has to be scary for you, too, IZ.

Thinking of you and your son.
Many thoughts and prayers.

May you both feel supported and surrounded by Love!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

Are there any community dinners you could attend?
Any friends you might share time with?

If unable to spend time with people IRL, are there internet sites where you can find friends with whom to chat?

There might even be a few people here on PC, I wonder?

My heart goes out to you.

Merry Christmas to you, too!

[Fuzzybear]

Merry Christmas to all

Holidays are rough, no matter what state of mind you're in. This one will be just a little harder than others for me. It's the first one where I am truly going to be alone at the end of the day.


These verses of this song sum it up for me.

"Cause I don't know you anymore,
I don't recognize this place,
the picture frames have changed and so has your name,
We don't talk much anymore,
we keep running from the pain,
but what I wouldn't give to see your face again..."


Why is the hardest thing to do is to let go? ugh... anyway.

I am generally feeling low. I feel stuck in a lot of senses. The world is moving all around me but nothing ever changes with me. It's a dull and dreary experience.

This is my life, I suppose. I have to learn to deal with it.



Marcus

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well to sum up our drive so far I am shocked we are still alive. It’s raining and practically all the interstates have so much construction there’s no traffic lines to see, one area threw half my car off the road as the pavement just vanished in half the lane. I still don’t know how I got back on the road. Must have been a truly “ Jesus take the wheel” moment

I have never ever been so scared driving in my life !

We finally got on 75 in Atlanta and same thing literally impossible to see traffic lines.. Huge holes in the road that almost wrecked use I can’t tell you how many times.

Then a horrible accident had the entire southbound lanes closed , took over an hour to have to drive on the shoulder of the road only half on pavement , we were I. The dirt , had no idea how to get back to 75 so we decided to follow the truckers figured they would know how to get back, Thankfully they did ,

I drove to the next exit got off , pulled into a gas station. Put it in park literally jumped out of the car almost ran to the bathroom and just lost it.

It was 8 horrifying hours !!!

Our normal at most 13 hour trip is looking like a 16 to maybe 18

It’s finally gotten light out ! The rain has it pretty dark tho , but at least can see the roads easier.

I just hope we make it in one piece ... while typing this we have passed 4 accidents.. in one a semi truck , the whole cab broke loose and flip right onto its roof, there was a huge fire as the tires were melted. I pray the driver survived

We have made this trip probably 50 times and never have we gone through such hell !

Steve and I aren’t sure if I should drive any of the rest of the way. Maybe I’ll settle down , but omg the cars just flying by us. People I swear have a death wish.

Hugs to all in case I die, seriously ugh

I had one trip back to Texas that was horrible but never anything so bad. May the second half be much better. And may all those speeders get tickets.

[wildflowerchild25]

I have a cold and with so much to do!!! I have to make cookies, fudge, and Christmas crackle. I have to wrap gifts. Still need to get a frame for my sons picture and get a card for my nana. I didn’t realize her aide was sending out Christmas cards on her behalf.

I slept until 11:30 today and I feel a little better. I woke up in the middle of the night and my throat hurt so bad I feared I might have strep throat. But I didn’t have a fever so I think it was just post nasal drip. I drank some emergen-c (a vitamin c drink that’s helped me in the past. I’m just hoping with rest that I can kick this cold in the *** before Christmas. I can’t go up to my grandparents house with a cold, my elderly grandfather will be there. A cold could easily turn into bronchitis or pneumonia for him.

So, that’s my story. Still struggling with smoking. I’ve got to come up with a battle plan. Basically I think I’m going to have to accept that I’m going to feel ****** for awhile. I usually push so hard against feeling bad. But accepting it might help me work through it.

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well to sum up our drive so far I am shocked we are still alive. It’s raining and practically all the interstates have so much construction there’s no traffic lines to see, one area threw half my car off the road as the pavement just vanished in half the lane. I still don’t know how I got back on the road. Must have been a truly “ Jesus take the wheel” moment

I have never ever been so scared driving in my life !

We finally got on 75 in Atlanta and same thing literally impossible to see traffic lines.. Huge holes in the road that almost wrecked use I can’t tell you how many times.

Then a horrible accident had the entire southbound lanes closed , took over an hour to have to drive on the shoulder of the road only half on pavement , we were I. The dirt , had no idea how to get back to 75 so we decided to follow the truckers figured they would know how to get back, Thankfully they did ,

I drove to the next exit got off , pulled into a gas station. Put it in park literally jumped out of the car almost ran to the bathroom and just lost it.

It was 8 horrifying hours !!!

Our normal at most 13 hour trip is looking like a 16 to maybe 18

It’s finally gotten light out ! The rain has it pretty dark tho , but at least can see the roads easier.

I just hope we make it in one piece ... while typing this we have passed 4 accidents.. in one a semi truck , the whole cab broke loose and flip right onto its roof, there was a huge fire as the tires were melted. I pray the driver survived

We have made this trip probably 50 times and never have we gone through such hell !

Steve and I aren’t sure if I should drive any of the rest of the way. Maybe I’ll settle down , but omg the cars just flying by us. People I swear have a death wish.

Hugs to all in case I die, seriously ugh

YIKES!! I hope the rest of your trip goes safely and smoothly. Lots of (And I'm so sorry your daughter scared the hell out of you last week! )

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Great! It's a good sign he has been in touch!
Of course you're very concerned, rightfully so!

Situations like this make me thankful for technology so people can stay in touch.
Might you see him today?

It's such a sad, grief-filled and a very scary challenge for people when those around them take their lives. It has to be incredibly painful and likely quite demoralizing and confusing?

It has to be scary for you, too, IZ.

Thinking of you and your son.
Many thoughts and prayers.

May you both feel supported and surrounded by Love!

Thanks so much, WC. No, I won't be able to see him -- we live 600 miles apart.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Still struggling with smoking. I’ve got to come up with a battle plan. Basically I think I’m going to have to accept that I’m going to feel ****** for awhile. I usually push so hard against feeling bad. But accepting it might help me work through it.

I think you are exactly right. Not easy perhaps, but accepting it is the way to go. Wishing you tons of luck.
Also, Emergen-C? I've been dutifully using it, been around numerous sick people and not gotten sick. It's good stuff! Hope it helps you quickly!

[bpforever1]

Happy Holidays to all! I am doing well and am helping with chores while taking care of myself. I am no longer on dating apps and curtailed my contact with strange men. I feel fine and stable. I think this year end will be fine and probably the last time I'll be with my family for the holiday season. I am glad I came home to my family. I cherish their existence and am grateful for their presence in my life. I feel blessed and am thankful for my stability and my situation. I have been stable for the past 10 months. I am doing well and am ready to move again. I hope next year I can work and volunteer. I am happy with what I have and hope that I remain stable. I wish those who are alone this holiday season- a blessed holiday season. I was alone about two years ago during the holiday season, and it was difficult. To be all alone during the holidays is extremely lonely. Thus, I returned home. But, this season is probably the last time that my family will be together. I will cherish these moments and remember them fondly for the rest of my life. I will forge forward with hope and determination. I also wish everybody the same and hope for the best for the upcoming year to all! This site has been a life savior for me. When I have problems, I write about them, read other people's responses, and gain insight to my issues. Thank you for this site and hopefully it will continue to help those like myself who are at times lost in the midst of their situation and problems. Thank you very much!

Just stopping by to say hello to everyone. I hope everyone has some relief for the holidays. Stay safe.

Today I am busy basically making an early Christmas dinner. On Christmas day, both of my siblings, my husband and I will go to my dad's assisted living place for a buffet lunch. Tonight, my brother is bringing my dad with him to my house. I'm roasting a standing beef rib roast and will serve it with a choice of herbed gravy or with horseradish sauce, rolls, mashed potatoes, rutabaga, green beans, and cucumber tomato peppers salad with herb vinaigrette. I made vanilla crescent cookies yesterday. My brother may also bring a dessert. Everything is prepped. I even managed to spiffy up my house, which was cleaned on Friday, and take a shower and change. Phew!

wildflowerchild, I hope you don't get too much sicker. I waited a bit too long to see my GP when I thought I had just a cold. It turned into bronchitis. If you feel really sick, I would see your GP sooner than later.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well to sum up our drive so far I am shocked we are still alive. It’s raining and practically all the interstates have so much construction there’s no traffic lines to see, one area threw half my car off the road as the pavement just vanished in half the lane. I still don’t know how I got back on the road. Must have been a truly “ Jesus take the wheel” moment

I have never ever been so scared driving in my life !

We finally got on 75 in Atlanta and same thing literally impossible to see traffic lines.. Huge holes in the road that almost wrecked use I can’t tell you how many times.

Then a horrible accident had the entire southbound lanes closed , took over an hour to have to drive on the shoulder of the road only half on pavement , we were I. The dirt , had no idea how to get back to 75 so we decided to follow the truckers figured they would know how to get back, Thankfully they did ,

I drove to the next exit got off , pulled into a gas station. Put it in park literally jumped out of the car almost ran to the bathroom and just lost it.

It was 8 horrifying hours !!!

Our normal at most 13 hour trip is looking like a 16 to maybe 18

It’s finally gotten light out ! The rain has it pretty dark tho , but at least can see the roads easier.

I just hope we make it in one piece ... while typing this we have passed 4 accidents.. in one a semi truck , the whole cab broke loose and flip right onto its roof, there was a huge fire as the tires were melted. I pray the driver survived

We have made this trip probably 50 times and never have we gone through such hell !

Steve and I aren’t sure if I should drive any of the rest of the way. Maybe I’ll settle down , but omg the cars just flying by us. People I swear have a death wish.

Hugs to all in case I die, seriously ugh

I am so thankful you are safe. What a trip. Your heart must have been in your mouth the whole time. Terrifying. Again, so glad you made it.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

I will be alone in hospital half of Christmas Day. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat. I'm in Australia so there is a big time difference so I might not reply very quickly.

[Wander]

This morning I was hoping to have leave to go to the beach with my parents and niece. Unfortunately, and annoyingly. my pdoc hasn't shown up or called to give me leave so I am stuck in hospital. It is only 7.30 am but the sea breeze is coming in at midday cooling the air and whipping up waves. Not fun for snorkelling.

I feel so isolated. I have been IP for three weeks now. It seems I had a paradoxical reaction to the injection so it made my PTSD worse. I have been a mess. I am trying to be strong, and think positively but I am still drowning. I sucks that I will be IP on Christmas Day, but hopefully I will be allowed out for a bit. Hopefully I will be discharged after Christmas too. My pdoc wants to monitor me over the Christmas period to make sure I am safe. I just don't want to spend NYE in here as well.

I think I am improving. I feel my biggest problem is my social isolation. I have few friends, and those I rarely catch up with. I have no job to go to and be around people, and am not currently studying. So, most of my time is spent alone. Too much time to think. I do have a wonderful family, but they are also my greatest trigger. However, some great therapeutic work has made it much easier to be around them. I am really looking forward to Christmas and seeing my family. I feel so alone in my hospital room for hours on end. My heart aches with grief from my past, but it is good grief. A healing kind of grief. Next year is the beginning of a new decade. I have hope it is the beginning of the best phase of my life. Even though I still have strong SI I am fighting to make that true.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Just stopping by to say hello to everyone. I hope everyone has some relief for the holidays. Stay safe.

Today I am busy basically making an early Christmas dinner. On Christmas day, both of my siblings, my husband and I will go to my dad's assisted living place for a buffet lunch. Tonight, my brother is bringing my dad with him to my house. I'm roasting a standing beef rib roast and will serve it with a choice of herbed gravy or with horseradish sauce, rolls, mashed potatoes, rutabaga, green beans, and cucumber tomato peppers salad with herb vinaigrette. I made vanilla crescent cookies yesterday. My brother may also bring a dessert. Everything is prepped. I even managed to spiffy up my house, which was cleaned on Friday, and take a shower and change. Phew!

That sounds like a fantastic meal. When you get time, which may be awhile, as you are clearly swamped, I was just wondering what kinds of peppers you put in that salad. I don't think I have ever heard of that combination in a salad before--it sounds interesting.