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What is something you would like to achieve?
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#852
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Good question. I'm not sure what I like doing that I have the ''ability'' to do ''well enough'' for the harsh inner critic and those other judgers inside (and outside)
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#853
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Picked up 100mg clozapine from the pharmacy, gonna take 150 until saturday, on saturday I will start to take 200.
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Very much with mood stability. Psychosis has never been nearly the problem that rapid cycling and severe mixed episodes were. Psychosis was manageable with med changes. No mood stabilizer ever really helped me much with the mixed episodes and I tried pretty much all of them; I think all but tegretol and that was because trileptal was a disaster. I went on a bunch of APs but some didn't work, some had EPS issues, some I was allergic to and that left Seroquel which I eventually was taking 1500 mg of XR. That wasn't working so that left clozapine and while I've had occasional psychosis that was easily handled and some small mood episodes I've had nothing like what I used to live with all the time. It's totally worth the blood tests to not have constant mixed episodes, and I'm pretty happy with the lack of psychosis too.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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Well, I have officially been out of hospital for six months (PTSD last year) and no Bipolar symptoms for 16 months. Mental stability is good. I had never known it for so long since I was a child. My body unfortunately is paying that toll with severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/Fibromyalgia. The last week has shown some small improvements. I have had a tiny bit more energy and capacity. Unfortunately, I woke up with a cold yesterday and have nearly lost my voice this morning from it. It is not a bad cold. Just a runny nose and mild sore throat, and it hasn't sent me to bed sleeping for hours either. I know it is a cold as my whole family has had it starting with my five year old nephew. Kids are such germ spreaders. It has been weeks since he got it and it slowly moved through my family. I don't know how I got it as I don't hug them often and always wash my hands when seeing them. I haven't even been to the shops in two weeks so I could not have gotten it from somewhere else. It's not Covid as the symptoms don't match.
Things are improving with my partner too. We had an amazing chat the other day about our relationship. He wants to take it more seriously and says he loves and adores me. This comforted me as I thought we were drifting apart. I still can't believe someone would love me so much while I am so limited. I am a lucky woman. He is limited by his Bipolar so we get each other more than anyone else would. We married nearly 17 years ago. Divorced seven years ago, and got back together about three years ago, but on a casual basis at first. No one knows me better than he does. This increase in his feelings and devotion to me scare me a little as I am afraid to get hurt by putting all my heart on the line again. I feel deep love for him too so I am going to dive right in and hope for the best. It will be difficult maintaining our relationship while I am so physically limited but I will do my best.
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I hear ya, Fuzzinator. What about setting a little goal or two and trying to make it happen? Maybe that might help.
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#858
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What about start with something that you like doing and not focus on the ability or wellness pieces yet? Maybe make a list of the things that you like doing most of all? And then we can go from there? ![]() |
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Thanks for the thoughtful questions. My doctors monitor me pretty well and have checked my thyroid and liver function. My regular doctor says I'm in good shape. I can't just go to a specialist like a neurologist, I have to get a referral through my family doctor so he has to suspect something to make the referral. I can ask him about it but I doubt I'd be able to get a referral. You used the term poverty of thought and poverty if speech which pretty much describe me. My pdoc says this is all related to my depression. She's increasing my Wellbutrin again. I say again because she stopped it completely when I had my sleep issues in November and December. She also suggested aerobic exercise of at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week. She acknowledged that doing so won't be easy since I'm feeling so bad. She said I should try it for a month to see how it goes.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#864
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Peer support!!!!!! GREAT job!
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schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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It was my city's weekly online Scrabble club tonight and i lost all my games. I feel down. This only happens about once a year. I don't know if i'll go in it next week. I'm the highest-rated player in my division and some of the players i get matched with are hundreds of rating points lower than me so it really hurts to lose to them. I try and tell myself just to participate, to be a part of something, to keep a toe-hold in the world. But it's so painful...
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I panicked last night after accidentally seeing the news on Reddit.
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If you don't know how unsubscribe to a sub or remove those subs from your home feed, go here and look at the righthand side: subreddits. I have unsubscribed from various subs because they either piss me off (so I guess they're triggering?) or I find them annoying because they make me anxious. While you're at it, maybe find some funny subs to join, like /r/funny, /r/jokes, /r/amitheasshole, /r/TIFU, etc.. I'm also a huge fan of /r/InterestingAsF_ck and /r/MildlyInteresting. (Just replace the underscore '_' with u.) |
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Slept well. Just getting going. Big day for me today. I am getting a little kitten!!!! Yay!!! I hope I do everything right. I don't really know what to do, but I have read everything. I can find and I am as ready as I am going to be.
Hopefully, he will be my little pal and we can do fund stuff together. I am so excited. Was pretty sad most of yesterday, so looking more at maybe making some med shifts. Maybe get rid of the depakote or something. For starters. We'll see. I am very tired of always having to change my meds. But I won't give up.
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#871
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Usually just 10 milligrams. Last night was 20 milligrams. 4 pills total.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jul 02, 2020 at 10:33 AM. |
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#872
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I’ll have to check out those subs you mentioned.
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#873
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#874
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![]() Good luck with whatever you and your doc do with your medications. I know that changes can seem anxiety-provoking, but change is often good. You never know until you try. I hope that if you slowly go off of Depakote that your depression will ease. If I recall correctly, I was taken off of it pretty quickly, and don't remember any major issues doing so. You seem to be on a pretty solid mix, even without Depakote. |
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A really cute one!! I don't think he is any fnacy breed or something.
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