[Moose72]

Today, I was talking with a friend via text. After a bit he said he had to go. I figured he wouldn't text me any more tonight but then when he should've bren driving, a text came through with what looked like a youtube link. My new phone popped up with a warning box when I clicked on it saying something about this may bee fishing or a scam and basically click at your own discretion. I clicked it. It opened up what looked like a youtube video of a plane landing horribly- like the person had no idea what they were doing. I saw the word "virus" in dark green letters and freaked out. I grabbed my keys and drove over to the store that I bought my new phone a week ago. Told the guy that I think there's a virus on my new phone and would he please check it. Well he looked at my phone for a couple minutes opening and closing various buttons then handed it back saying he couldn't find anything. I left, sure that a virus was still actually in my phone and the next time I log into my bank account someone was going to steal all my money. Am I going crazy from living alone and "thinking too much" or is someone really out to get me?

[yellow_fleurs]

I am really irritable. That is all I feel up to writing haha. Sending compassion

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Today, I was talking with a friend via text. After a bit he said he had to go. I figured he wouldn't text me any more tonight but then when he should've bren driving, a text came through with what looked like a youtube link. My new phone popped up with a warning box when I clicked on it saying something about this may bee fishing or a scam and basically click at your own discretion. I clicked it. It opened up what looked like a youtube video of a plane landing horribly- like the person had no idea what they were doing. I saw the word "virus" in dark green letters and freaked out. I grabbed my keys and drove over to the store that I bought my new phone a week ago. Told the guy that I think there's a virus on my new phone and would he please check it. Well he looked at my phone for a couple minutes opening and closing various buttons then handed it back saying he couldn't find anything. I left, sure that a virus was still actually in my phone and the next time I log into my bank account someone was going to steal all my money. Am I going crazy from living alone and "thinking too much" or is someone really out to get me?

Im sorry this happened.. You got it checked out so try to not stress. Is it possible you can go to the bank tomorrow and change your password? Might be reassuring.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

I am really irritable. That is all I feel up to writing haha. Sending compassion

I really hope tomorrow is a much better day

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Im sorry this happened.. You got it checked out so try to not stress. Is it possible you can go to the bank tomorrow and change your password? Might be reassuring.

That's an idea. My phone uses a finger print for the password. I can log in with a password on the laptop.

[Victoria'smom]

So I've been in a dark place. Meds haven't kicked in yet. I'm getting inpatient. My therapist made a comment on how long I've been in therapy and that made me feel extra ******. I'm suppose to find ways to pull myself out of this crap. Is 10+ years of therapy off and on to much. I'm thinking of stopping therapy. Shouldn't I be healthier then this. I think I'm going to start my 6 month timer on deciding to exit therapy.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So I've been in a dark place. Meds haven't kicked in yet. I'm getting inpatient. My therapist made a comment on how long I've been in therapy and that made me feel extra ******. I'm suppose to find ways to pull myself out of this crap. Is 10+ years of therapy off and on to much. I'm thinking of stopping therapy. Shouldn't I be healthier then this. I think I'm going to start my 6 month timer on deciding to exit therapy.

No. It's entirely possible that, given the rough time you're having right now, you took your therapist's words too personally. Please don't make any big decisions until you're stable. Sometimes when we're in an unstable place we want to make a change just for change's sake.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Today, I was talking with a friend via text. After a bit he said he had to go. I figured he wouldn't text me any more tonight but then when he should've bren driving, a text came through with what looked like a youtube link. My new phone popped up with a warning box when I clicked on it saying something about this may bee fishing or a scam and basically click at your own discretion. I clicked it. It opened up what looked like a youtube video of a plane landing horribly- like the person had no idea what they were doing. I saw the word "virus" in dark green letters and freaked out. I grabbed my keys and drove over to the store that I bought my new phone a week ago. Told the guy that I think there's a virus on my new phone and would he please check it. Well he looked at my phone for a couple minutes opening and closing various buttons then handed it back saying he couldn't find anything. I left, sure that a virus was still actually in my phone and the next time I log into my bank account someone was going to steal all my money. Am I going crazy from living alone and "thinking too much" or is someone really out to get me?

Based upon my own experience, I'll suggest that you should never click on a link that cautions you. If I were you, I'd change all passwords to sites you frequent.

[Soupe du jour]

I feel so intensely tired from yesterday's emotional rollercoaster. Today and tomorrow will be very stressful, too. The movers are supposed to finally come to load all of our stuff in the shipment container to be sent to Czech Republic. We then need to do final cleaning after they leave. Tomorrow is our closing day, unless something horrible happens. We will need to load up our car for our road trip.

I must admit that I am so stressed that I feel on the verge of tears. It's almost like standing in the ready for a first ever bungee jump or skydive. Or as Linus with his security blanket being pulled away. I told my husband this and he said "Well, that's not that bad. I feel like I am waiting for an execution."

Update: The movers AND the giant moving truck arrived. Of course the A (you know what) neighbor to our house's left side blocked an area and won't move. We feared that. So we had to ask two neighbors to our right to move their cars. Luckily those two neighbors are legitimately nice people. Gotta admit that I'm now hiding away in my room letting my husband oversee everything. I'll do some cleaning later.

Last night, I sat on the porch, breathed the air and listened to the rain. It was very nice. Very relaxing. So I found a long (10 hour) ad-free rain YouTube. Had been watching some Netflix and thought, "I'll just find one now, so I can just pop over to it when I'm ready to sleep, and not have to think about it ". But it was so relaxing, I never went back, lol!

I thought of everyone here, because so many of us have stress, anxiety, trouble sleeping...

Sometimes, things like that will be distracting when I first put them on. But I was texting for awhile with it in the background, so it was just easing itself into my mind. (I figured that might well be an issue for others, so I mention it as a tip). I was super relaxed. Sleep time came. I don't even remember waiting to sleep. Out like a light. Slept through the night. I'm up now and still playing it. Brain is loving this stuff, lol!

(Anyhow, the particular one I've been playing because I know it's ad-free is:

)

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Last night, I sat on the porch, breathed the air and listened to the rain. It was very nice. Very relaxing. So I found a long (10 hour) ad-free rain YouTube. Had been watching some Netflix and thought, "I'll just find one now, so I can just pop over to it when I'm ready to sleep, and not have to think about it ". But it was so relaxing, I never went back, lol!

I thought of everyone here, because so many of us have stress, anxiety, trouble sleeping...

Sometimes, things like that will be distracting when I first put them on. But I was texting for awhile with it in the background, so it was just easing itself into my mind. (I figured that might well be an issue for others, so I mention it as a tip). I was super relaxed. Sleep time came. I don't even remember waiting to sleep. Out like a light. Slept through the night. I'm up now and still playing it. Brain is loving this stuff, lol!

(Anyhow, the particular one I've been playing because I know it's ad-free is:

)

Thank you so much for the link! I will bookmark it.

[Nammu]

Totally forgot today was the change over. Just dug out my index card and signed in. I hope it’s that easy for everyone!

[*Beth*]

I'm good with the changeover. The forums look to be basically the same, sans Mood Tracker.


The only difference I notice is that the fonts on the entire forum look smaller. Anyone else notice that?

[Nammu]

Nope, haven’t noticed that. But have been wishing for a while it was bigger.

[lightly toasted]

I noticed. I had to enlarge the text in order to read it. But yes, otherwise seamless change for me - I changed my password yesterday to something I could remember. It's like driving on freshly paved road, it's nice to have something new and a little bit different. I like the new forum name and logo .

[Mountaindewed]

I thought the 21st was something but couldn’t figure it out. But then got on here and realized today was the day the forums were changing.

I’m doing good today. Group went well. No issues. There haven’t actually been any issues in the 1.5 weeks I’ve been there. When it’s virtual it’s hard for people to be assholes. At least to one specific person. I’m getting some kind of financial help for paying it. I just found out I have a $40 copay for each day and I already owe over $200. I don’t have the money to pay for at least a thousand dollar group. I swear sometimes therapists don’t care if your able to pay, or even if people will be nice to you when you are there, as long as you just go and get the “help” you need.

I’m just feeling kinda neutral today. No matter what I say I deeply miss those 1 on 1 times I had before. Things are just different now. I’m getting my shot in a bit. I hope it doesn’t make me sick or throw my moods off. But I can handle it if it does. I’m actually currently more concerned about the pain of the shot itself. It’s been very painful to get lately. I’m thinking of just doing it tomorrow but I’m not sure if I should just push myself to get it done today. Like it will be any less painful or the side effects be less tomorrow. At this point I’m probably just avoiding it and I should look at the positives of doing it today. And the positives in general of the shot.

[Mountaindewed]

I really hope my doctor doesn’t try to raise my meds or put me on anything new. One of my issues that brought me to group was the remeron and how it messed up my weight and therefore I was mostly taking the cough syrup and melatonin to sleep through the hunger. I’m just gonna tell him no and that other methods are working. And I hope he and my therapist don’t ***** at me about it.

Honestly I think I need to get a hysterectomy in order to see 100% progress because of my PMDD.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I thought the 21st was something but couldn’t figure it out. But then got on here and realized today was the day the forums were changing.

....

...

How long will your group last & after it ends will you go back to 1 on 1?

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by BethRags

How long will your group last & after it ends will you go back to 1 on 1?

It’s 3-4 weeks. And I started a week ago last Thursday. Hopefully I can be done in another 1.5 weeks or 2 weeks. Then I plan on going back to 1 on 1.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So I've been in a dark place. Meds haven't kicked in yet. I'm getting inpatient. My therapist made a comment on how long I've been in therapy and that made me feel extra ******. I'm suppose to find ways to pull myself out of this crap. Is 10+ years of therapy off and on to much. I'm thinking of stopping therapy. Shouldn't I be healthier then this. I think I'm going to start my 6 month timer on deciding to exit therapy.

There is no life long fix when it comes to Therapy and mental illness. Sure there are times someone could stop Therapy if they are doing well but then something happens or our mental illness's just reaches up and slap the snot out of us for no apparent reason.

What are you working on in Therapy ? Learning to accept you need medications to enjoy life and stay present

Learning new coping skills?

There literally is a million reasons that we can keep growing and understanding ourselves in Therapy?

My Advice is stop being worried that someone else needs the Therapist "more" than you. You have decided to go on the shot and I think over a few months its going to be something that you will start to feel better, which will allow you to progress in Therapy and find ways to improve life. Stop trying to talk yourself out of getting help.

[Soupe du jour]

BethRags, the fonts look smaller to me, too. Otherwise, everything seems just fine. I like the "My Support Forums" logo. It's nice! I wish someone had their arm around me, right now.

Well, our stuff is gone, hopefully safely on it's way to the port to make the overseas trip. Tomorrow is not our closing day. There was a major snafu in that regard. Our real estate lawyer told us to not listen to our realtor about that stuff anymore, and only talk to him. The realtor pissed us off. We wasted some time doing and then undoing stuff that wasn't ready to be done. When we finally do have the closing date, it will need to be done again. Regardless, we are leaving for our road trip tomorrow. Tonight we're going to my husband's lawyer friend's house to have some documents notarized and then sent to our lawyer. The closing will be handled remotely, when the day comes. Our real estate lawyer thinks that will be after Christmas, but before New Years. Or hopefully not many days after New Years. Either way, we'll still be in the US, but somewhere far from NJ.

I'm so tired and unwell feeling. My visit with my father was not pleasant. I won't go into that. I have "time of month" discomfort on top of everything else. Luckily, my husband is cleaning the rest of the house to prepare to leave it behind.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Last night, I sat on the porch, breathed the air and listened to the rain. It was very nice. Very relaxing. So I found a long (10 hour) ad-free rain YouTube. Had been watching some Netflix and thought, "I'll just find one now, so I can just pop over to it when I'm ready to sleep, and not have to think about it ". But it was so relaxing, I never went back, lol!

I thought of everyone here, because so many of us have stress, anxiety, trouble sleeping...

Sometimes, things like that will be distracting when I first put them on. But I was texting for awhile with it in the background, so it was just easing itself into my mind. (I figured that might well be an issue for others, so I mention it as a tip). I was super relaxed. Sleep time came. I don't even remember waiting to sleep. Out like a light. Slept through the night. I'm up now and still playing it. Brain is loving this stuff, lol!

(Anyhow, the particular one I've been playing because I know it's ad-free is:

)

Sounds so soothing

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Totally forgot today was the change over. Just dug out my index card and signed in. I hope it’s that easy for everyone!

I honestly was expecting to rip my hair out in clumps.. For once something was easy ! lol

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

BethRags, the fonts look smaller to me, too. Otherwise, everything seems just fine. I like the "My Support Forums" logo. It's nice! I wish someone had their arm around me, right now.

Well, our stuff is gone, hopefully safely on it's way to the port to make the overseas trip. Tomorrow is not our closing day. There was a major snafu in that regard. Our real estate lawyer told us to not listen to our realtor about that stuff anymore, and only talk to him. The realtor pissed us off. We wasted some time doing and then undoing stuff that wasn't ready to be done. When we finally do have the closing date, it will need to be done again. Regardless, we are leaving for our road trip tomorrow. Tonight we're going to my husband's lawyer friend's house to have some documents notarized and then sent to our lawyer. The closing will be handled remotely, when the day comes. Our real estate lawyer thinks that will be after Christmas, but before New Years. Or hopefully not many days after New Years. Either way, we'll still be in the US, but somewhere far from NJ.

I'm so tired and unwell feeling. My visit with my father was not pleasant. I won't go into that. I have "time of month" discomfort on top of everything else. Luckily, my husband is cleaning the rest of the house to prepare to leave it behind.

I'm liking everything too, except the smaller font. When I have time I'll nose around and see if there's a way to enlarge it.

I have to say again - I am just amazed at the work you're doing with your move. What you're doing is something so many people dream of, but never bring to fruition.

I'm so very sorry to learn that the visit with your father was unpleasant. You know I/we are here, should you feel like "talking."

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

BethRags, the fonts look smaller to me, too. Otherwise, everything seems just fine. I like the "My Support Forums" logo. It's nice! I wish someone had their arm around me, right now.

Well, our stuff is gone, hopefully safely on it's way to the port to make the overseas trip. Tomorrow is not our closing day. There was a major snafu in that regard. Our real estate lawyer told us to not listen to our realtor about that stuff anymore, and only talk to him. The realtor pissed us off. We wasted some time doing and then undoing stuff that wasn't ready to be done. When we finally do have the closing date, it will need to be done again. Regardless, we are leaving for our road trip tomorrow. Tonight we're going to my husband's lawyer friend's house to have some documents notarized and then sent to our lawyer. The closing will be handled remotely, when the day comes. Our real estate lawyer thinks that will be after Christmas, but before New Years. Or hopefully not many days after New Years. Either way, we'll still be in the US, but somewhere far from NJ.

I'm so tired and unwell feeling. My visit with my father was not pleasant. I won't go into that. I have "time of month" discomfort on top of everything else. Luckily, my husband is cleaning the rest of the house to prepare to leave it behind.

Im sorry things are just so damn hard right now.. Im sorry the relator is making things harder than need be, i hope the closing goes off without a hitch from now on and you can begin your trip and enjoy.

When we lived in Florida and all " that " happened" and we broke our lease and come home early at 8 months instead of 12 months. I mentally was able to think .. Ok I will be back home in X weeks. Idont know if that thinking could help you?

"In X weeks we will be over seas in our new home and I will be able to unpack and it not be a rush"

Do you feel up to posting pics of the places you visit before you leave the country??? I know I'd love to see them

Take a deep breath... You got this