[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Thats so FANTASTIC you found a T that you were able to click with so easily.. Ummmmm Bare feet ??? LOL I would have gotten a kick out of that.

I don't know if you have mentioned it and I've missed it??? How are the prices for things there vs the States?

I bet the berries would make some delicious tarts and breads. I made a cobbler out of the last black berries from the season we picked. Was wonderful.

Haha still laughing about the bare feet

Hi Christina. Overall, the cost of living in CZ is cheaper than in the US in most ways, though in a few not so much. We are renting, not homeowners anymore, but for the size house we rent, the cost is low. Plus, we no longer have HOA fees or the astronomically high New Jersey property taxes.

Food prices kind of vary here. For some things, they are about the same. Things like seafood are slightly pricier here. However, if you go to a pub restaurant, you could get roast duck with sauerkraut and dumplings for the equivalent of $7. Add a half liter of beer (17 oz) for only $2 more. And it's excellent beer! A really nice bottle of wine can easily be had for $8 to $10.

Gas is expensive in Europe. Much more so than in the US. The price right now is about 35 czk/liter. That is about $6.11 per gallon. The US has never seen those high prices. However, many Czechs use public transportation and it's very very available and inexpensive. Public transport in the US is a comparative joke.

Health insurance prices in Czech Republic are basically nothing compared to the US. Copays are often non existent, or so low that an American would be in disbelief. Every citizen is covered, no matter what.

Car insurance is a lot cheaper in CZ than in the US. Auto repairs are slightly cheaper.

Clothes and other product prices vary. Some are cheaper, some aren't.

Like in the US, home prices depend on where you buy. Perhaps they're slightly less expensive here, but not a lot. Sometimes more, if they are older or historic buildings. Keep in mind there is a construction difference. US homes are not necessarily built to last hundreds of years, like they were/are in CZ. Brick/concrete in CZ (sometimes Art Nouveau or quaint old village style) vs. often plywood and sheetrock in US, with no elaborate design and possibly vinyl siding. However, old communist block housing is cheap, but still concrete, in CZ.

If you like, see the comparison between costs of living in Nashville, TN vs. Brno, Czech Republic (CZ's second largest city). Cost of Living Comparison Between Nashville, TN, United States And Brno, Czech Republic Again, most things are a lot cheaper in CZ, but not all. The salaries are a lot lower in CZ, on average, but if you are collecting SSDI from the US, the amount goes further in the CZ. If you are an American and retire with a US 401K and US Social Security, that money goes much further in CZ. And yes, an American can still collect US Social Security in CZ. Such auto deposits can easily be transferred from a US-based bank account to a Czech (or almost any European country) bank account.

[Brentus]

I did something spontaneous today because I needed to, and I need a change. It's positive in some lights, and with time, and I'm sure some maintenance I won't hate it so bad lol. I went to get my haircut and the lady who does it is pretty laid back. She is willing to play around and is rather lax. I just told her "Look, I really liked what you did last time. But I want something a little different. I don't actually have anything in mind, just that I need it cut. Medium, short, whatever is fine. Any style is fine -- just help me feel it's a change.". She did. I can't say the way it's styled that I really like it. The cut is versatile and I have options with it, but I am not an instant fan thus far-- but feel about 1000lbs lighter lol. I'm not gonna gripe until I know the full effect of it (meaning a wash to get this product out and playing with it some, and giving it some weeks to maybe grow out some). My mom has thus far seen my hair in pics and says it looks really good. I'm not convinced.

Other than that, woke up in a weird place. Still having those insanely vivid dreams, that aren't nightmares -- but still equally insane lol. Last night I was in the African Serengeti in this dream, but it was rather irrelevant to what was happening. I don't remember quite well what that was at this moment, but like my dreams have been recently, people come out of the woodwork -- people I've not seen/heard of in a long time, dead relatives etc. It's interesting how dreams manifest, just saying. Just as a side note, and really not worth focusing on. Remember how my ex's new spouse reached out? I noticed his profile photo is now BOTH of them, and he's blocked me. So I can probably assume they reconciled (which I said I hoped that they could) and I guess he's trying to keep me out of their relationship-- which is how it should be. He reached out to me, not the other way around and honestly I've never played into their issues. I know I didn't do anything wrong in the things I said or did. I wished them both well from day one, and I simply told him I understood the issues and hope they can resolve them. I don't take it personal, but I kinda do at the same time. Either way, I hope it they last.

Nothing really planned for today, perhaps more language study, perhaps a game, perhaps some web development. I was in a hypomanic state and bought around $300 of courses on Udemy once upon a time. Might as well put them to use, right? One plan is to go walking in a few hours.


Antipsychotics and mood stabilizers are supposed to help with issues, and I just started meds after a long time off them, and the depression has been the issue for awhile.. I'm just a little curious if staving off the depression is pushing me to euthymia, which I've not experienced in years ... or into a hypomania. I don't think I'm to a point of concern, but I am markedly different than when I was very depressed. But being OK is not a concern, right? lol. I'm over thinking this.

I'll check in later. It's a nice day, I have a new lease on life, and a new haircut. Maybe I can just go walking, eat my dinner, take my meds, and keep on keepin' on ... I could do worse than that.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by WindsThatBlow

I did something spontaneous today because I needed to, and I need a change. It's positive in some lights, and with time, and I'm sure some maintenance I won't hate it so bad lol. I went to get my haircut and the lady who does it is pretty laid back. She is willing to play around and is rather lax. I just told her "Look, I really liked what you did last time. But I want something a little different. I don't actually have anything in mind, just that I need it cut. Medium, short, whatever is fine. Any style is fine -- just help me feel it's a change.". She did. I can't say the way it's styled that I really like it. The cut is versatile and I have options with it, but I am not an instant fan thus far-- but feel about 1000lbs lighter lol. I'm not gonna gripe until I know the full effect of it (meaning a wash to get this product out and playing with it some, and giving it some weeks to maybe grow out some). My mom has thus far seen my hair in pics and says it looks really good. I'm not convinced.

Other than that, woke up in a weird place. Still having those insanely vivid dreams, that aren't nightmares -- but still equally insane lol. Last night I was in the African Serengeti in this dream, but it was rather irrelevant to what was happening. I don't remember quite well what that was at this moment, but like my dreams have been recently, people come out of the woodwork -- people I've not seen/heard of in a long time, dead relatives etc. It's interesting how dreams manifest, just saying. Just as a side note, and really not worth focusing on. Remember how my ex's new spouse reached out? I noticed his profile photo is now BOTH of them, and he's blocked me. So I can probably assume they reconciled (which I said I hoped that they could) and I guess he's trying to keep me out of their relationship-- which is how it should be. He reached out to me, not the other way around and honestly I've never played into their issues. I know I didn't do anything wrong in the things I said or did. I wished them both well from day one, and I simply told him I understood the issues and hope they can resolve them. I don't take it personal, but I kinda do at the same time. Either way, I hope it they last.

Nothing really planned for today, perhaps more language study, perhaps a game, perhaps some web development. I was in a hypomanic state and bought around $300 of courses on Udemy once upon a time. Might as well put them to use, right? One plan is to go walking in a few hours.


Antipsychotics and mood stabilizers are supposed to help with issues, and I just started meds after a long time off them, and the depression has been the issue for awhile.. I'm just a little curious if staving off the depression is pushing me to euthymia, which I've not experienced in years ... or into a hypomania. I don't think I'm to a point of concern, but I am markedly different than when I was very depressed. But being OK is not a concern, right? lol. I'm over thinking this.

I'll check in later. It's a nice day, I have a new lease on life, and a new haircut. Maybe I can just go walking, eat my dinner, take my meds, and keep on keepin' on ... I could do worse than that.

Your hair is going to take a second to get used to. They always style your hair into something you couldn't possibly recreate without a ton of work, especially when going from your natural curly hair to drying it straight.

I know how it is to deal with an ex and their new spouse. One time, when they were picking up the kids, my ex and his new wife made some comment about how sex was better between them than it had been between me and him! Good for them, I guess. I've found other people who were a better fit for me sexually since then, too. I was just shocked that they both said that to me, in person, standing right in front of each other!

You should enjoy your new-found elation! A walk sounds very nice. I've heard of Udemy, but never bought any classes from them. Maybe a walk and then come back and look at one of the classes that you bought?

Speaking of dreams, a long-time friend of mine appeared in my dream last night. We were very close physically in the dream and I THINK we kissed! In real life, we never have kissed and only had sex once and it was very short; we tried one other time but he wigged out, so that was the end of that. Also in real life, he's married to someone who is perfect for him and also is very nice to me on Facebook. So I have no delusions that this will ever play out in reality.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Sorry everyone about the mix-up with my font color in my recent posts. I run in "Black Smart" mode as it's so much easier on the eyes and the cyan color of the text looked pretty to me on black. But for those of you running in default mode it was apparently hard to see, as two members have kindly let me know, so i've switched back to default color and hopefully you can all see this post easily again. Unfortunately, there is no way to adjust it for previous posts. Once HTML tags have been submitted here on this site, they're permanent. So adios to my recent posts but it wasn't anything too urgent anyways. Thanks to the two members who spoke up! Would hate to be ignored because of a mix-up with font color! Let me know how this post appears to you...

Your post appears fine - but I also use Black Smart. It's easy on my eyes. I gave you some tips on this subject on the Loneliness board.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by WindsThatBlow

I did something spontaneous today because I needed to, and I need a change. It's positive in some lights, and with time, and I'm sure some maintenance I won't hate it so bad lol. I went to get my haircut and the lady who does it is pretty laid back. She is willing to play around and is rather lax. I just told her "Look, I really liked what you did last time. But I want something a little different. I don't actually have anything in mind, just that I need it cut. Medium, short, whatever is fine. Any style is fine -- just help me feel it's a change.". She did. I can't say the way it's styled that I really like it. The cut is versatile and I have options with it, but I am not an instant fan thus far-- but feel about 1000lbs lighter lol. I'm not gonna gripe until I know the full effect of it (meaning a wash to get this product out and playing with it some, and giving it some weeks to maybe grow out some). My mom has thus far seen my hair in pics and says it looks really good. I'm not convinced.

Other than that, woke up in a weird place. Still having those insanely vivid dreams, that aren't nightmares -- but still equally insane lol. Last night I was in the African Serengeti in this dream, but it was rather irrelevant to what was happening. I don't remember quite well what that was at this moment, but like my dreams have been recently, people come out of the woodwork -- people I've not seen/heard of in a long time, dead relatives etc. It's interesting how dreams manifest, just saying. Just as a side note, and really not worth focusing on. Remember how my ex's new spouse reached out? I noticed his profile photo is now BOTH of them, and he's blocked me. So I can probably assume they reconciled (which I said I hoped that they could) and I guess he's trying to keep me out of their relationship-- which is how it should be. He reached out to me, not the other way around and honestly I've never played into their issues. I know I didn't do anything wrong in the things I said or did. I wished them both well from day one, and I simply told him I understood the issues and hope they can resolve them. I don't take it personal, but I kinda do at the same time. Either way, I hope it they last.

Nothing really planned for today, perhaps more language study, perhaps a game, perhaps some web development. I was in a hypomanic state and bought around $300 of courses on Udemy once upon a time. Might as well put them to use, right? One plan is to go walking in a few hours.

Antipsychotics and mood stabilizers are supposed to help with issues, and I just started meds after a long time off them, and the depression has been the issue for awhile.. I'm just a little curious if staving off the depression is pushing me to euthymia, which I've not experienced in years ... or into a hypomania. I don't think I'm to a point of concern, but I am markedly different than when I was very depressed. But being OK is not a concern, right? lol. I'm over thinking this.

I'll check in later. It's a nice day, I have a new lease on life, and a new haircut. Maybe I can just go walking, eat my dinner, take my meds, and keep on keepin' on ... I could do worse than that.

Good post, I like it. I find that with a new haircut it takes about 2 weeks to work it into what you want.


My son works for Udemy; he's been with it for several years. It's a terrific company (start-up).

[*Beth*]

I dreamt about my daughter (as usual) last night. In a way it's nice, because it's like spending time with her...but mostly, it just hurts. My husband finally, finally questioned her about her estrangement from me. She said she still "needs some time." I still have no clue as to what she needs time away from. Her lack of communication surprises me...we raised our kids to dialogue about whatever, whenever. Our son does, daughter doesn't so much.

I have an appointment with a neurologist tomorrow to check on my tremor (hands, jaw, body in general). I really don't know what to expect from the appointment.

Hugs all around~

[Mountaindewed]

I’m on my trip at my home state. We first went to a thrift store. The we went to Dicks sporting goods and I got a couple north face shirts. We went to a novelty soda shop and I got a birthday cake flavored soda. Then we went to a couple international grocery stores that I went to before we moved. I got a ton of the European chocolate I wanted. I also found a little bottle of European Pepsi that is still called Pepsi Max even though in the states it’s just called Pepsi zero sugar. Then we went to a restaurant I’ve been wanting to go to for 19 months. Then we drove to the hotel. We unpacked and then I went with my aunt and my mom to some kinda strange boutique. We are back at the hotel now and I was trying to avoid public restrooms all day so my idea was to not drink anything. I didn’t drink anything from 7 until 12:30. Then I had a Diet Coke. But we are at the hotel now and I was so thirsty I knew I needed a Gatorade to drink. The hotel has a little shop with snacks and soda. I’m going to my aunts for dinner.

Tomorrow we are going to the good grocery store that I went to all the time before I moved. We may go back to the thrift store. Then we will visit with my uncle on our way back home.

I’m doing good and not feeling much anxiety. I am having trouble with my teeth. Big surprise after neglecting them for 19 months. I hope it’s nothing serious but it sure hurts when Tylenol wears off. I’ve been taking Advil too even though I shouldn’t. I called a dentist and apparently I don’t have any dental insurance and this place doesn’t take care card. So I have an evaluation appointment Thursday morning which will cost $90. Anything after that that they find is just gonna have to go on my card and I won’t be able to keep completely paying them off each month the way I have been doing.

I couldn’t reach a hoodie at Dicks and a guy asked me if I needed help and I said “yeah” and he said “I’m short too.” And that made me feel good because I was passing as a guy. Then he asked what size I needed and I said “small” it felt good to say that. The hoodie was too big.

But I feel ok overall. I’m really distracted with my trip right now so I can’t think much about my teeth or my ultrasound both on Thursday. I do get these pangs every now and then about my transference T. But I think we drove by the office and I didn’t even notice. I don’t even care about my current T. But I should be hearing from the new one soon.

[Scooter9]

I was accepted into the ketamine clinic today. There was a 30 min assessment and after that the doctor accepted me into the clinic.

There's also good news about the cost - the infusions are covered under our provincial plan so it's free for me.

[Nammu]

Washed clothes, and took a shower and watched Star Trek the motion picture. Then checked the haircut place again and it was only a fifteen minute wait so I signed up and got there just as my name came up. Grabbed 2 single servings of lemon crumble from Culver’s on the way home. In an hour I have aqua Zumba tonight. The day dragged at first but went surprisingly quickly after while. I always have trouble filling my days but today was a good day.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I was accepted into the ketamine clinic today. There was a 30 min assessment and after that the doctor accepted me into the clinic.

There's also good news about the cost - the infusions are covered under our provincial plan so it's free for me.

That is terrific!!

[Brentus]

Today is hard to describe, I started out in a weird space, to a better one, back down, even lower – and not it’s mellowing out some. I don’t like it when my emotions take dips like that unexpectedly. Nothing has really happened but my whole day has been colored by negative pervasive thoughts and overwhelming amount of stress in doing everyday things (like driving) or even interactions with people have seemed abrasive and off. I feel almost paranoid the world knows I’m struggling today and are judging me. I won’t harp on the negative, I need to at least cherish the moments that weren’t so bad today. It’s been a weird day, the bad have definitely weighed heavy today… But I did do a few things today that I think were helpful:

1)I got my hair cut, and after a quick wash and combing I think I’m gonna be ok with it. I like it better now. Like everyone said, it’ll take a little bit of time to really get used to it and make it “my own” but it’ll be alright.

2)I went walking, which was nice until I had to run 5-6 errands all at once unexpectedly, but otherwise enjoyable.

3) I spent some time outside of my house – which is a big step, even if it was for errands and not that enjoyable. I gotta put that into the “positive column” due to the fact it means I’m getting crap done.

4) I’ve done a good job today about taking things in stride – lots of roadblocks and emotional issues reared their head today, but I have yet to fully succumb to the emotions, so that’s good. Being at home doesn’t make it much easier though.

5) I cleaned up a little bit around the house.

They are steps in the right directions. I don’t want to talk about the bad things here – I did some impulsive things today too, but no harm done. I hope tomorrow is a bit brighter and a little less heavy than today.

Now, I’m gonna eat my dark chocolate Ghiradelli square and relax, read the forum, watch TV, and maybe listen to some music. I took Udemy off the table for today (or language study) but maybe tonight when I’m up at 3am and nothing else to do :P We’ll see.

[Mountaindewed]

I forgot to pack my melatonin. I haven’t not taken melatonin since at least July 2020. I wonder how it will go tonight. I had been taking 20-30 mil a night for weeks. I have a Tylenol resistant headache from not enough caffeine. My mouth is ok. I’ve upped my water so I think I’m ok on that.

The apple cider Teavana tea I wanted that I couldn’t find last year was delayed when I tried ordering it from Walmart the other day. But I got an email saying it’s going to arrive tomorrow. It’s coming by FedEx which I find kinda strange. It must have really been hard to find at any store.

I couldn’t find any of the European chocolate smarties candy I wanted. But I found some on Amazon for a similar price. All my other candy I found. Except a few that I can find at that grocery store I’ll go to tomorrow. For less money then the international stores.

I wish I packed shorts. Ive been mainly sleeping in jeans since I was 6. Except for the short period when I was 8 and 9 when I slept without pants on. It’s a sensory thing. But sometimes I’ll sleep in basketball shorts. I’m pretty warm right now and I’m wearing heavy bootcut jeans.

I’ll need some kinda sweatpants or pajama pants anyways for those few weeks in October. Maybe I’ll find them at the thrift store tomorrow.

[Daonnachd]

I applied to be a postal carrier some of you will remember.

I was rejected.

I feel a bit down now in response. (That's to be expected though.)

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Sorry Daonnachd.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

smarties candy
.

SMARTIES! Oh, just the memory.

My son works at a market which carries them. I think I may get some when I go pick him up from work this evening.

[Brentus]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I applied to be a postal carrier some of you will remember.

I was rejected.

I feel a bit down now in response. (That's to be expected though.)

I'm sorry @Daonnachd. I know that must hurt. I remember a similar thing happened to me. After I had graduated from grad school, I was actually in an AT&T store getting a new phone and they were talking to me and talked me into applying online to work there -- they needed help, and I had a particular set of skills they thought would be very beneficial,but the process was entirely online, including an interview test.

I have a master's degree in a field that requires excellent communication skills and problem solving skills and working on your feet... I was rejected and told I didn't "have what they were looking for" based on my responses to the test. I to this day do not know what I answered "wrong", but they can be fickle for even jobs that seem relatively straightforward. I'm sorry they said no. I'm sure something better will come along.

Also, I have never been a fan of smarties -- I think they taste like chalk lol. Ironically, I always did love going to the bank for a safety pop OR a dumdum sucker. Guess I wasn't a Smartie and proved to be pretty much a big dumdum :P

[bizi]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

@Kelly68:

Welcome aboard!!! Jump in, the water is warm!!!!!

I think bipolar can change with age. I've noticed change since i entered menopause on Mother's Day, ironically. Change for the better, too, tho i also tapered off my benzo by 90% so it could be that too.

Whatever, the feelings are welcome, compassion, love, affection. Not hysteria and fear but what-are-you-gonna do. It's either comfortably numb and sedated or alive and WITH feelings. I choose the later and if i sink, well, better to burn out than to fade away, as Neil Young says.

I feel fine since i re-instated on the last amount of benzo i was comfortable on, 2mg of Valium. Today i feel stable, slept seven hours which doctors are now saying is the recommended number, not eight.

Wishing you lots of love and light!!!

Jane.

hi jane.
would you mind picking a darker color for you responces. I can hardly read them and it kinda hurts my eyes trying to read them.
maybe it is just me.
bizi

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Hi Christina. Overall, the cost of living in CZ is cheaper than in the US in most ways, though in a few not so much. We are renting, not homeowners anymore, but for the size house we rent, the cost is low. Plus, we no longer have HOA fees or the astronomically high New Jersey property taxes.

Food prices kind of vary here. For some things, they are about the same. Things like seafood are slightly pricier here. However, if you go to a pub restaurant, you could get roast duck with sauerkraut and dumplings for the equivalent of $7. Add a half liter of beer (17 oz) for only $2 more. And it's excellent beer! A really nice bottle of wine can easily be had for $8 to $10.

Gas is expensive in Europe. Much more so than in the US. The price right now is about 35 czk/liter. That is about $6.11 per gallon. The US has never seen those high prices. However, many Czechs use public transportation and it's very very available and inexpensive. Public transport in the US is a comparative joke.

Health insurance prices in Czech Republic are basically nothing compared to the US. Copays are often non existent, or so low that an American would be in disbelief. Every citizen is covered, no matter what.

Car insurance is a lot cheaper in CZ than in the US. Auto repairs are slightly cheaper.

Clothes and other product prices vary. Some are cheaper, some aren't.

Like in the US, home prices depend on where you buy. Perhaps they're slightly less expensive here, but not a lot. Sometimes more, if they are older or historic buildings. Keep in mind there is a construction difference. US homes are not necessarily built to last hundreds of years, like they were/are in CZ. Brick/concrete in CZ (sometimes Art Nouveau or quaint old village style) vs. often plywood and sheetrock in US, with no elaborate design and possibly vinyl siding. However, old communist block housing is cheap, but still concrete, in CZ.

If you like, see the comparison between costs of living in Nashville, TN vs. Brno, Czech Republic (CZ's second largest city). Cost of Living Comparison Between Nashville, TN, United States And Brno, Czech Republic Again, most things are a lot cheaper in CZ, but not all. The salaries are a lot lower in CZ, on average, but if you are collecting SSDI from the US, the amount goes further in the CZ. If you are an American and retire with a US 401K and US Social Security, that money goes much further in CZ. And yes, an American can still collect US Social Security in CZ. Such auto deposits can easily be transferred from a US-based bank account to a Czech (or almost any European country) bank account.

I see many things are different but some not so much.. I have saved that link to look at when my brain will cooperate. I am glad that your still able to collect SS, I have always wondered how that works.. Seems like the US looks for any reason to not have to pay someone.

I think everyone should have health care like you now have, something that actually works and your not waiting months to see a provider.

My Friend in Cape Town South Africa also has universal health care available but its terrible how long the wait is.

Oh Eeeekkkk the gas prices ! That is a fear Steve and I have that gas prices continue to rise, we already try not to make more trips into town that we really need to. In fact the trip to Florida that was cancelled we were dreading the cost of gas as we were going to take our truck instead of the car. Of course the car gets better gas mileage. But we were going to take some big items to Steves Middle son that no way could fit in the car.

Thank you for sharing what is different, very interesting

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I was accepted into the ketamine clinic today. There was a 30 min assessment and after that the doctor accepted me into the clinic.

There's also good news about the cost - the infusions are covered under our provincial plan so it's free for me.

Fantastic !!!!

[~Christina]

So Rexulti ? Needs a Pre Auth. Yeah apparently the new Psych nurse ( well started in June) doesn't seem to know how to do that, its September

No clue if she will do the pre auth. I asked her on the phone today and her answer made my brain twitch and I had to do a quick... "Oh okay thank you have a nice day" and hang up. I hope this isnt a sign that anytime there is medication thing that it will become a mess

My Daughter let me know that her Dad had to go to the ER last night, Hes had Covid a bit over a week and he could not stop coughing hard, he has Covid Pneumonia so he is now on Antibiotics. He did have the antibody therapy done the day before so that is good. So far Amanda has tested negative, thankfully. I hope her Father recovers quickly.

Hugs

[Sunflower123]

The pool closes Sunday. The weather will be beautiful from now until then thankfully. The water and air are getting cooler. It’s time to wrap it up. I’m looking forward to fall: pumpkin lattes, pumpkins in general and the changing colors plus burning my fall candles and big pots of chili. I’ll meet my daughter the weekend after it closes to visit so it won’t sting too much.

My brother got into the insulin in his disoriented state and we could not tell how much or little he had injected himself with. Just flat out dangerous. It made for a few harrowing hours but finally made mom realize that we’ve got to start moving towards a nursing home as soon as possible.

I hurt my arm rather badly trying to help my brother up from a fall. I can’t even lift my cell phone with it right now. I feel like a bird with a broken wing. Going to call the doctor this morning.

I hope everyone has a peaceful Wednesday.

I found out yesterday that a harry potter forum I used to be on closed at the end of august.

as sad as it is, (because it was very active), I really didn't like some of the staff- and we certainly had disagreements, so it's nice to know that hopefully we won't cross paths again

at the same moment, I got an email from a guy called anthony.. worried it was someone who I used to really dislike, but turns out it was only a close firned of mine who changed his name so all good!

I'm getting a little more functionality back each day, so that's good.

@Daonnachd:

Sorry you didn't get the postal carrier job. When stuff like that happens i try and think, "Well, maybe it was for the best, maybe my boss might have been a toxic person, maybe this is just fate." You seem really smart and caring and compassionate and sincere (i haven't forgotten how kind you were when i went thru that dating fiasco years ago) and if you persist, i'm sure something will work out soon, something way better!

@bizi:

Yes, sorry about the SNAFU with the font. I run in the "Black Smart" theme so on my screen the cyan color looked really pretty. But you are the fourth member to report a problem with it and i have switched back to the default, as the last thing i want is for people to have a reason to skip my posts, they are already so darn wordy, people are probably skipping them for that. @BethRags kindly gave me a tip for using my theme when people use fonts too DARK for me. Apparently, if someone uses a font you can't see, you just highlight the text and it appears readably. Thanks for your attention and concern and initiative, bizi!!!

I really have to put my halloween decorations up... I said I'd put them up friday, it's now wednesday

[lovableball]

Woah time flies by so fast!!!! It's almost Halloween!!! Oh god, I really need to get my life together.

On my side I really need to commit to business I'm thinking with a friend. I've put it on and off and I guess my friend is slowly getting irritated. He told me to read more about dropshipping (I've been staring at this article for days and have been ending the day with nothing), how dropshipping works in the US, starting an e-commerce dropshipping store, etc but I just couldn't wrap my head around it if it's really for us to build and if it's really what I want to do right now. But recently I've been getting back to the habit of reading and thinking of starting a podcast or something about book reviews or just talking about how I felt after reading that book, I even bought a mic that's on the way.

But before I jump into anything I think I need to tell my friend straight up if I still want to pursue this venture with him. I've been feeling distracted and seriously don't know what to prioritize.