Bipolar check-in #63

I’m probably showing my ignorance here but doesn’t period pain come from the uterus? I’m thinking of getting a hysterectomy and leaving ovaries in to avoid early menopause and was told I wouldn’t get periods.

@Miguel’smom

I’m so sorry you are suffering so. I don’t know what I’ll do if my son ever starts showing signs of serious mental illness. Honestly I live in fear of it now that he’s a preteen. I really hope something can be done for him and also your husband so you can all live more peacefully.

Thankfully the seroquel did put me to sleep and I slept another 8 hours. I woke up at six but I’m hoping I’ll be calmer today now that I’ve gotten two nights of good sleep. I spent about 45 minutes coloring last night waiting for the seroquel to work. It was nice. My work is a little disheveled, color wise. No real rhyme or reason. Obviously it doesn’t matter but I did the peacock in a nice sweeping rainbow and I liked it a lost better. I love coloring in rainbow colors.

Edit: no I am NOT calmer. I’m not really happy anymore either because I really feel so wired I’m about to burst. I’m going to go to the gym soon, that helped yesterday. And I do have my hair appointment at noon so at least I’ll be out of the house for awhile!

I haven't had pasta in a long time. But if I stop eating before 3PM that helps my moods.

The only food that truly boosts my mood is Starkist yellowfin lemon dill tuna in oil. Its probably unhealthy because of the oil but it has 28 grams of protein and I feel a lot better after eating a can of it.

I have no idea. I honestly thought it came from the ovaries but I may be wrong. I thought thats where your period came from.

no sleep, and hurt from the shower, so...

I had a good time with my bf yesterday. He did cook me up some yummy stir fry. I downloaded duolingo and I'm going to practice my French and Spanish. I've picked up some (Canadian) French just living near Quebec and I took Spanish in high school and remember some so it should be fun. We had a fun jam session too. I realize now I don't have to have to be constantly on the go to have fun, I have stuff to do even with a busted hip (which I am not taking as much Vicodin anymore so it's getting better).

Hubby and I got out today to get his Czech driver's license. Then we went out for lunch. When we got home, I got an email from the nephrologist that I need to take an antibiotic for 7 days. Apparently I have some E.Coli in my urine. It sounds a lot scarier than it really is, though. It's more just a type of urinary track infection. I think I've had this for quite a while. I had told her about a very odorous urine in the mornings for...months. She said that the E.Coli is likely the cause. I'm not sure how I got it. Perhaps some food or drink. I haven't felt unwell, other than little things that surely have no relation.

It seems that gas prices are starting to rise in Czech Republic now. I wrote before that they are always high in Europe, so they may really get to the point where we're happy to have a hybrid. I wondered if food prices would go up, since I've heard they are in the US. So far they don't seem to be here in CZ. I saw a lot of great deals in the grocery store today. A whole flat of fresh strawberries was only 99 czk (US $4.31). I instead bought raspberries that were also on sale. We've been eating strawberries for a few weeks now, so left them there. They've been cheap, but not quite 99 czk cheap.

I feel pretty good today. I lost an entire pound since yesterday which puts me at about a 3 pound loss since my doctor raised my topamax last week. I can now fit into my skinny pants pretty comfortably. I am eating but it can be tough with my anxiety and then I have the topamax and not being on the testosterone which often made me hungry. It reminds me of this reality TV show I watch and in one episode a judge asks a contestant how her hair is being held up and she says "hair spray and desperation" its like I'm losing weight from anxiety and medication. Although today my anxiety is not too bad but I did skip the Pepsi products and I just stuck with Coke and I slept much better then the other night. So maybe things are starting to look up. I don't feel too much from being off the hormones either today. Maybe my doctor is right and I won't have an issue. Although I'm not sure what was up with those 2 weeks in November unless it was somehow unrelated. I think that was around the time I had started topamax. I'm not sure. But the reaction doesn't seem to be happening this time

Edit: Well now the good mood has turned into anxiety. I guess its time for my second valium. I was hungry so I got a taco and nacho fries from Taco Bell. I was still hungry after but I just waited for it to pass and now I'm not hungry I'm just anxious. But I don't know about what. I normally take my 20mil geodon around this time too so it could be that. I think I'll turn on reality TV.

Edit again: now after the second valium and second topamax I got nauseated. So I took a zofran and noticed on the label that it says it may cause dizziness. So I'm wondering if thats part of my issue. So now I'm lightheaded and still kinda nauseated but my anxiety is ok for the most part. I did just take my 20mil geodon though. I am not drinking a ton of water because I feel like its contaminated. And no I swear I am not being paranoid. But my anxiety shoots up real bad whenever I drink a lot of it. And its only our own water from the fridge. Any other water is fine. So I have to hydrate with other stuff thats not the best and they told me when I was in the ER I was dehydrated. But if I tell them I'm dehydrated because I think our water is contaminated, that wont end well for me I don't think.

But if anyone has seen the movie Signs I am like that girl with the water issue. And I also leave glasses all over the place too. When I leave cupboard doors open my mom is all like "wtf is this The Sixth Sense?"

I have a question for the great people of this thread and that is what do you take as maybe a prn but something to help with mania? I would also be interest on what you take for prn depression medications. If this question is not allowed please feel free to delete.
I have been severely depressed since my wife died but I have noticed that I was also becoming manic. The depression I feel right now than the depression I have felt from bipolar. The mania is the same and I'm not going to lie but I actually like mania at least in the beginning of it cause to me itbis like a really good drug. The thing is when I crash it is not good at all and I would like to end this before I crash.
The seriquil. I just got put back is helping a little bit but it is only 100mg and to be taken once a night. I think I need more. I am trying to get back to my old psych doc because I don't want to start with a new one right now.

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My PRN is thorazine and its for mania and psychosis. It works great. I don't have a PRN for depression and don't typically get treated for it. You have plenty of room to go up on the Seroquel, I was on 900mg at one point (combo of XR and IR versions).

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I have no idea. I honestly thought it came from the ovaries but I may be wrong. I thought thats where your period came from.

No, periods are the result of the shedding of the uterine lining. Cramps come from the uterus.

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Originally Posted by Pinny I went to dog training class this eve and I think I gave the dog too many treats because it’s 5:30am and he had to get up to pee and poo then he stood in his poo which of course I had to clean up- the glamorous life I lead…. So now I’m wide awake but I have to be up in 2 hours to get packed and get the train for an overnight trip with one of my friends. It’s her sort of hen party (bachelorette), even though there’s just 4 of us (one of them being her mum). I’m just going to take a backpack with my things so I can go round some shops tomorrow while I’m waiting for her to finish work. I booked an earlier train because I like going to the city we’re going to because there are better shops than the city I live close to! I hope my anxiety levels are ok! I feel quite anxious about it just now because I’ve got about 6 hours by myself. And I hope I don’t fall asleep ridiculously early! but hopefully I’ll just get coffee, read and shop!! I hope you all have a lovely Friday sending lots of wishes, especially to those who are struggling with their sleep!

Your outing sounds divine. Enjoy! I loved visiting the shops in Dublin when I was there. They were small and so charming, like nothing we have here, for the most part. And the clerks were so friendly!

Hi otroo. I see nothing wrong with your questions at all.

My answer, nowadays and for a while now, is generic Seroquel XR (extended release). On occasion I also have regular instant release Seroquel. This helps with my mania, with anxiety/agitation, and sometimes even the depressive end of my disorder. Really, it is my Seroquel XR that is manipulated, up and down.

Though I rarely take it anymore, I do also have prn Ativan (lorazapam). When I do take it, it's mostly just for anxiety or the symptoms that cause things like racing heart. It can be a booster for my evening Seroquel XR to get me to sleep. I don't think it's so much a "sleeping pill" for me, as something that calms me physically and brain anxiety, which inevitably allows me to sleep. I try not to take this med unless it's very needed.

It's not a prn, but my psychiatrist just added Lyrica (pregabalin) to my mix. It's original purpose to was help calm agitation and irritability as a replacement for Ativan. Ativan is actually not prescribed in my new country. I'll eventually run out someday. I haven't taken Ativan since before I was prescribed pregabalin.

The 25mg. Seroquel did help me fall asleep more quickly. So far, I feel well-rested enough to do some stretches and yoga today, which my body desperately needs. I have had pain in the back of my neck for weeks, so I ordered a Tiger Balm patch from Amazon. It will arrive today. Yay!

Also arriving today is Sidney's new vial of insulin! It will be such a weight off my mind to be able to toss what's left of her old vial and start a new one. See what kind of numbers we get, if they change or not.

Btw, I purchased the insulin from a brick and mortar pharmacy in Vancouver (Canada) at a cost of $136. Less than HALF the price of the same vial of insulin here in the States

The weather is gorgeous, about 70 degrees. But where's that rain....

I found a detailed and well-researched blog all about the Tudors (King Henry VIII and company). I'm looking forward to reading through it. I also stumbled upon parts of a French film called "Le Roi Danse" ("The King Dance"). The film is about Louis XIV in the mid-1600's bringing ballet to the world. The parts I've seen, the king's dances, are stunning! The costuming and the dances themselves, which Louis XIV had written down, so we know just how the dances were performed. On top of all that I am going to start watching "War and Peace" tonight. Timely, in a way.

Ah, well. Back to reality. Time for a shower, sweeping the floors, putting fresh sheets on the bed....so on and so forth.

Beautiful, shimmering loving vibes to each of you ~**~**~****

@otroo

I’ve taken haldol for mania and agitation before. I can’t take it regularly but once in awhile or for short periods of time it’s ok.

Shows how much I know. Makes sense I suppose that I would be clueless.

My mom and I think it may be a dairy intolerance. She says the string cheese tastes fine. She told me to try going without dairy for a few days to see if that helps. If it is a dairy intolerance I'd kind of be at a loss. My whole diet revolves around dairy in some way. From my iced coffees to when I just have an extra few calories left so I grab a string cheese. Dairy free products look super expensive from what I can see online and I don't think they taste good. But not feeling good sucks too. But my brother in law has bad celiacs disease. Like he will get super super sick from just a crumb of gluten, and he can't drink caffeine either and he makes it work and never complains and hes in really good shape. So I'm sure I can make a dairy free life style work.

I still have not had much water and I have the dry mouth dry lips that come along with dehydration and I had to force myself to eat 2 eggs for dinner so I could be done with eating for the rest of the night. So I'll just have to force myself to drink the water as well.

Does anyone watch the show Love Is Blind? I love trashy reality TV and I've been told its just about as trashy as they can get. I am currently watching season 2 of Celebirty Big Brother. I watched season 3 first and then season 1 and man is season 2 the worst.

My transference T told me she watched the show Vanderpump Rules and I watched an episode and I was thinking "you should not be telling your clients you watch this kind of stuff."

Today was a glorious, sunny day with the Bradford Pears and the Forsythia blooming. I started out with a healthy smoothie and a nice 30 minute walk in the park. I decided I could be bitter or better after the break up and I chose better. I have a Reinvention playbook which has an Extreme Self Care chapter in it and my morning walk is part of that.

I’ve had a good day. Pedicure, brows, Olive Garden with friends. I’m trying to solve that Medicare problem for my brother now. He is going to have to be involuntarily admitted inpatient. The voices are too bad. I hate that.

I’ve made the decision to be friends with my ex. So far smooth sailing. Fingers crossed. It makes me very happy.

Hugs to all.

I got happy and laughing around mid-day for several hours. I was singing and standing on the balcony delighting in the view and fresh air. I was in fun hysterics over an incident with my online grocery order when the shopper couldn't get the flavor of instant oatmeal i wanted and i had such trouble deciding on a replacement that he just got the assorted variety. You know you're indecisive when that happens!

But then it started snowing again. Winter just won't let go. I had my ZOOM social hour and i told all my fun news before others showed up so there were just the facilitators to laugh with. That's okay, i really like one of them but i wished i could have shared my yuks with the others.

So it's been a very uneven day and i'm trying to be grateful for those pleasant hours mid-day. I felt good for part of the day at least, which is better than nothing.

Your ovaries grow follicles and inside each one is a developing egg. When one gets ripe it is expelled from the follicle as ovulation. The egg travels down the fallopian tube and if it does not find sperm waiting for it and therefore doesn't get fertilized the egg travels into the uterus and is shed with the lining of the uterus which had been growing to make a nice place for the fertilized egg to burrow into. Therefore, your period comes from the shedding of the lining of the uterus not directly from ovulation.

I spent the morning feverishly coloring for about an hour and a half. At 11:20 I finished and waited impatiently for my hair appointment. I couldn’t stand being in the house but I couldn’t go to the gym bc I couldn’t shake the seroquel hangover right away. Getting my hair done was awesome bc I got to talk to my stylist for like 3.5 hours, I’m calmer when I’m with someone. I used to be mad that people “stole my energy” but I’m cool with it right now bc I can CALM THE F DOWN.

Anyway I freaking love my blue ombré hair. It’s a denim blue, bright enough to be noticed but dark enough that I won’t get trouble at work when I eventually go back. I mean idc bc I know they won’t fire me right now anyway and if they do oh tf well. DON’T CARE.

I’ve been cool most of the evening bc I’m with RS so we are talking but we’re watching comedy specials right now and now I’m getting restless. Waiting until I can finally take my meds but it will take a bit to put me to sleep. I did remember to pick up my meds. Good for me.

I think I will end up coloring again, at least it’s helping.

Glad coloring is helping. I used to do that. Need to get back into it.

I'm struggling with working full time right now - going down to part time in 2 weeks which I think will help. Mostly it's my anxiety doing me in. I need to talk to my pdoc about meds for anxiety.

I never used to be an anxious person. I talked to my PCP about it yesterday and she ordered some Thyroid tests because I had a lot of symptoms but all the blood tests came back normal - YAY! I'm also going to take advantage of my work's counseling program they offer to see if that helps

I think it's a good idea to try the work counseling program and try going part time for a bit. I've had to take breaks before when depression and anxiety were getting the best of me. But I was able to return.