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I had my one week hematricrit blood test done today and I do not need another phelebotmy procedure. I figured with how I felt before the procedure vs how I feel now that I didn't need another one. I've been a lot less moody and irritated which the lady doing the procedure said was caused by the high hematrcrit level. She said I'd feel better after the procedure So I figured since I've been feeling pretty stable mood wise the level was fine. Physically today, its still annoying when I swallow but I didn't hear back from the doctors yet. I had therapy and it was pretty productive although its tough to know how much progress I'm making with her and how much progress I'm making with my other providers. She did seem to help me get my sleep under control with the stuff she suggested I buy. I haven't had a too bad of a night since Friday. Today is the one year anniversary of my move. I don't really feel one way or another about it. This is just my new life now. I swear they gave me a different generic of valium when I got it refilled a few days ago. This stuff seems to work way better then the stuff I had before. As RuPaul would say "the good stuff you get behind the alley."
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I had a wonderful birthday. Thank you for the birthday wishes.
My med provider said that my platelets were high enough that I need to take a baby aspirin and go to a doctor directly if I have any type of chest tightness or pain. The platelets were caused by the Lithium. I had a bad episode of chest pain last week and I’ve had dizziness and shortness of breath for three days now. I always think I can power through. A friend finally got through to me today how serious it could be and I have an appointment tomorrow to get checked out. It’s been one thing after another for 2-3 weeks now. I have another appointment tomorrow with my med provider for an alternative to Wellbutrin. Feeling good mentally right now. I hope everyone has a peaceful day tomorrow. Hugs to all! |
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Yes, I also have to spend sometimes stupid amounts of money to replace things I've thrown out due to a fear of "being like my mom." Moving your mom to a senior community would be excellent. That's what we did with my mom - also from a 4 bedroom house in a desirable neighborhood, ironically. The big positive about the senior apartment was that the management did keep an eye on maintenance and so on. That forced my mom to at least lessen her hoarding so we were able to walk through her apt. and sit on the couch. __________________ |
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I am so happy to hear that you had such a good birthday. Yay! Oh, boy. Lithium. *sigh* __________________ |
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#508
I'm just....so done. So done. Stupid crap happening all day. Yes, it could be much worse but, gee...there's always tomorrow for that. My attitude stinks right now. I feel very self-destructive, very angry, and I'm turning it inward on myself. I'm going to turn some music on, that always helps me to work out emotions that are stuck.
Triggers all over the place. I truly don't deserve what I'm getting. Seriously... I saw my med provider today, another hour long appointment. He's a sweetheart, really helpful, doesn't act rushed in the least bit. He works with me not over me, listens very well and is able to interpret what I'm feeling and what I want to do. He has diagnosed me with bipolar disorder, hands down. I really worked to withdraw the diagnosis, but he gently but firmly stuck with his diagnosis. Bipolar, CPTSD, and OCD. Same as always (with the exception of the former med provider, the lunatic woman who got everything all screwed around; she, who never once asked me about my history & ended up plastering me with a substance use disorder because I've been physically stuck on Klonopin for 20+ years. *eye roll*). I left the clinic feeling defeated. "That" feeling of being told i have a brain disorder that I'm stuck with for life. That I will likely always need medication. That going off medication won't make the disorder disappear. Smash, smash, smash. He very kindly and respectfully asked me to please go back on Lamictal. He offered the option of switching to Vraylar, but I thought about wfc's experience with Vraylar and decided against it. Lithium came up, but why take on the side effects when Lamictal is working without any problems. The problem is not the medication; the problem is me. Clonidine for sleep, but only .5 - has anyone here been on it? It sounds to me like a pretty mild sleep aid, and I feel like I need a sleep aid that will snow me under. I keep asking for a very low dose of Haldol and I wish one of them would listen to me about that. I'm sorry. When I go dark I go really dark, and this one has been prolonged. If my therapist would return...yes. And so on. And a few nights of good sleep would be ay-may-zing. Bear with me. (Fuzzy, bear with me - teehee ) Crystal-blue persuasion to each. (I hope Nammu is okay, hope she can check in soon.) Love, peace, health, happiness, stay golden all around. __________________ Last edited by FooZe; May 12, 2022 at 02:05 AM.. Reason: Administrative edit to bring within guidelines |
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Oh, Beth
I did check in, I’m at the bottom of the previous page. Thanks so much for thinking of me when things are so dark. Oddlles of warm fuzzy sand glittery purple vibes for you. __________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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These are supposedly my same exact diagnosis - diagnosed on the 5th of May. Clonidine was only used for akathisia for me. Didn’t really help with much of anything else. Last edited by FooZe; May 12, 2022 at 02:07 AM.. Reason: Administrative edit (to quote only) |
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#511
Miguel moved out.
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You want to know something that I find funny about myself? The heavier the music the calmer I feel. I mean throw on some slipknot or Pantera or heck even a little Slayer it actually calms me down if classical music is put on when I am already agitated it really pisses me off lol. Nope put on some metal and it calms me down lol.
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Wow I have been a member since July 2013 crazy. I have a few posts but most of them are since my wife passed away. I really miss her.
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Wow...thank you for those beeeeuuuutiifuulll vibes! I'm envisioning sparkling, purple sand and it's looking glorious! I feel better already. I'm going to find your post, I somehow missed it. __________________ Last edited by *Beth*; May 11, 2022 at 08:52 PM.. |
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There you are! Ohhh, I am SO glad they caught the macular degeneration early. Whew. That's huge. Sounds like it all went really smoothly. Being able to read the doctor's lips must have made everything easier for you - less stress = very good. Having an empathetic doctor and nursing staff makes all the difference in the world. Through all the years I cared for my mom most of her doctors were kind, and just good folks. Made it that much less strenuous for both me and my mom. btw- yes, I do deserve that free blanket after all the big hassle Amazon, then UPS have put me through. Sheesh. Phone calls, delivered to wrong address, grr. The blanket is finally due to arrive tomorrow! __________________ |
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Welcome to my club, then Thanks for the Clonidine info. I sure hope I'm wrong, but I don't expect much from it. I kept stressing to my med provider that I must have sleep. He didn't seem to focus too well on it. I wish psych med people would clue in that sleep is the major key to good mental health. __________________ |
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Breathe ….. you can do this. All children have the nerve to grow up and spread out there wings. Your seeing him soon so try not to fall into catastrophic thinking. Feel it in. Hugs Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I’m sorry. Just remember we can only control how we feel… nobody else
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ Last edited by FooZe; May 12, 2022 at 10:51 PM.. Reason: administrative edit (removed quote) |
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