Bipolar check-in #67

@moose Have you watched any YouTube videos on crocheting?

I watched one that my mom found of the very basics of how to hold the yarn and crochet hook and a basic stitch but I haven't looked up any more complicated stitches. My mom's been very patient with my slow brain learning and just taught me a more complicated stitch so that's what I'm practicing.

For those who enjoyed my sage of the cat who loved me too much and showed by showering me in dead things, I got a text this morning from my sister. The cat, who is small, killed a rabbit and dragged it home.



I am so glad I am home!!!!I told my sister that I am afraid her next kill will be a deer. She seems to be working her way up after all.

I just searched my entire house for my cat. I was getting really worried that she was dead because that's how my brain works. I checked all her hiding spots because we'd had a couple storms and she doesn't like them. She wasn't anywhere and wasn't coming for treats. Finally I came into my bedroom to be sure I didn't shut her in the closet and noticed a lump under my bedspread. She'd been sleeping under there the whole time. Now she's pouting because I touched her to be sure she was alive (I know this is abnormal thinking) and it work her up.


Cats!!!

Soupe.. I’m so sorry your sick.. I hope you get to feeling better fast ! Oh the heat.. you are stronger than me I would have cancelled or just told my husband to take over.

Jennifer ! I’m sorry your struggling I am always proud of you and your unwavering dedication to self care

Blue I’m so sorry your pdoc is leaving. I lost mine if 12 years. I cried a lot. Here’s hoping you get a great new one !

Nammu.. I’m sorry sleep isn’t all that great but I commend you for deciding you truly want to go medfree for sleep! I can’t believe you don’t have your car back yet. Like what in the hell ??! Is the loaner free or must uou pay something for it !

Beth. I’d be so sad and mad over losing that dishcloth. People piss me off. Whoever has it should return it.

Hallie Girl this heat ! We need to be sipping fruity drinks next to a pool !!

Moose. I started crocheting scarves a few years ago. It took me a while to figure it out. I never got fancy but that’s okay I had some fun. But I did get ridiculously bored with it lol gotta love BP

Wild ?? Just wanted to check on you since I’ve been gone. Hope your doing okay

Hugs to anyone I might have forgotten.

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My extreme sleep cycle came back to bite me. I crashed at the most inopportune time. I was supposed be someone's ride home and I nearly didn't show up. Luckily, I wasn't too late (about 15 minutes), but it was a wake call. I talked to my Psych NP about my troubles and he prescribed me Abilify. Odd choice to me for sleeplessness, but I'll defer.

I feel drowsy on it, but I don't necessarily go to sleep. Which kind of defeats the purpose. He did say to give it a few days and I only started it on Monday.

It’s so so so damn hot I wanna die

My dogs go out and Boom they are ready to come right back inside. Gus and Dexter are both shorter coats but Sirius had super thick long black hair. I have to really watch him when it’s hot out.

Plan to go to SS tomorrow to get info on $ limits for my working part time. I’m dreading actually looking. I’m not sure how to explain not working since 2012.

Oh well I’ll do most any job except Fast food or Hellmart !

Stay cool my friends

Gus’s sideways paws just crack me up

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow For those who enjoyed my sage of the cat who loved me too much and showed by showering me in dead things, I got a text this morning from my sister. The cat, who is small, killed a rabbit and dragged it home. I am so glad I am home!!!!I told my sister that I am afraid her next kill will be a deer. She seems to be working her way up after all.

Oh, good Lord. Yuckola. Geez, I don't know...that cat may just drag a human body home one of these fine days!

No, your thinking isn't abnormal. Or rather, so is mine. I'm always so afraid I'll find one of my precious kits dead.

It's so funny, how they like to sleep under the blankets sometimes. I always worry they'll smother, but they seem to know how to escape when it's time.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina It’s so so so damn hot I wanna die My dogs go out and Boom they are ready to come right back inside. Gus and Dexter are both shorter coats but Sirius had super thick long black hair. I have to really watch him when it’s hot out. Plan to go to SS tomorrow to get info on $ limits for my working part time. I’m dreading actually looking. I’m not sure how to explain not working since 2012. Oh well I’ll do most any job except Fast food or Hellmart ! Stay cool my friends Gus’s sideways paws just crack me up Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I want to kiss Gus' pink lip. So cute!

I'm so sorry you're suffering with this heat, too. It's downright freakish. We have another 104 tomorrow. Sometimes I feel like I'm coming unglued from it. Just stop, stop, stop already. Summer is hot enough without this BS.

I have received an abundance of love today from some magnificent people on our forum.

So far, no returned lemon kitchen towel. Oh, dear

I'm so tired. If I could just know I'll lie down and fall asleep instead of lying there for 90 minutes.

Wow! I either just felt a feather of a breeze or I'm at the point of hallucinating. If we somehow get lucky a lovely breeze will drift this way, coming from the beautiful ocean, which I wish I was lying next to right now. Even a night breeze would be sent by God Itself. The high tomorrow in San Francisco will be a stunning 68 degrees. I want to sob. And there are those who wonder why it's so expensive to live there. HA.

Oh, lovlies. I wish us all a good night and a happy morning. And sending special love to @wildflowerchild who is surely IP.

I've been there, too, and grieving the loss is normal and healthy. You will likely never find an exact replica of this pdoc, but there will be other good ones among maybe a few stinkers. But they will be a bit different, which will be good and even necessary.

Thanks, @~Christina, but unfortunately it was impossible to cancel as they came all the way from the US to see us (tickets purchased a long while back) and it was the only day they'd see us as Hubby did cancel accompanying them to other cities. We had to sit outside as Hubby and I have covid-19.

I hope you can find a pleasant part-time work opportunity. It's so nice that you're feeling well enough to do so. Hugs

You perhaps should be happy it was her and not a severed horse head, if you know what I mean.

[Warning: Dark humor]

Our landlady's real estate broker is starting to harass us slightly about when we'll be out of the house. It all happened so rapidly that it is a bit unfair to us. Being sick doesn't exactly help, either. I told Hubby to please just start looking into a moving company and a storage warehouse so we can at least remove all of our stuff on time and worry about where we'll live afterwards, if necessary. We could always stay in an Airbnb for a short bit if necessary. The deadline we were given for leaving the house is October 1st, but they'd likely wish we were out even sooner. So many things to do and sadly Hubby has to do most of them, given the language issue. We have tons of things, despite getting rid of tons recently and of course before our move to Europe. It's not like we could just pack a few suitcases and boxes and be out in a jiffy. Most of the stuff is Hubby's, anyway.

I'm feeling worried about my eldest nephew who is still in the hospital. He wants to leave AMA which makes me scarily imagine a repeat of my youngest nephew's last weeks. Luckily my sister and b-i-l are likely seeing this scary deja vu as well.

Well I’m up again but I did get 4 hrs of rough sleep. Dreaming of captain Picard and a bunch of strangers plus me, in a time loop and sometimes succeeding and sometimes failing to stop a bad guy. It was exhausting. By the last loop we managed to successfully exit the time loop.

Ugh have you no protection from them. Telling them you’ll be out in October and to leave you alone until then? It would be nice if they at least left you alone while you’re sick! Geez! 🙄

Thanks, Nammu! I know, though I don't believe Hubby has even told them we're sick.

So yesterday my computer stopped working as it should and my car overheated. I’ve went ahead and ordered. New laptop bc mine was four years old anyway and I have to have it for school! My car we put in more antifreeze and I’m
Hoping for the best

It’s been storming here each day and bringing the temp down so the heat has been bearable. I feel for all those who are broiling. It just got through with a gully washer of a storm.

We had the best meal from church last night. During summer, individuals make the meal at their homes. We had chicken Alfredo with penne pasta, homemade bread, homemade cole slaw with raisins and sunflower seeds, brownies and a fresh peach. Delicious! So grateful!

The guest speaker in my group last night was Rhonda Byrne, author of The Secret. I even got to ask her a question. Motivational and so inspirational.

I was irritable and agitated all day yesterday. Don’t know why. Feeling better but unmotivated today. Slowly getting stuff done. Going out to a movie “Where The Crawdads Sing” (is that title right?) and to Costco later with a Krispy Kreme run ($1 dozen glazed with any dozen) in between. Yay!

During Amazon Prime Day, I didn’t need any costly electronics but I did need some soft bamboo socks and a headband (gold and Diamond rhinestone). I LOVE my purchases. My hair is getting long so I needed a headband. Now, with my Diamond rhinestone flip flops, I feel like a princess. Lol!

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour Our landlady's real estate broker is starting to harass us slightly about when we'll be out of the house. It all happened so rapidly that it is a bit unfair to us. Being sick doesn't exactly help, either. I told Hubby to please just start looking into a moving company and a storage warehouse so we can at least remove all of our stuff on time and worry about where we'll live afterwards, if necessary. We could always stay in an Airbnb for a short bit if necessary. The deadline we were given for leaving the house is October 1st, but they'd likely wish we were out even sooner. So many things to do and sadly Hubby has to do most of them, given the language issue. We have tons of things, despite getting rid of tons recently and of course before our move to Europe. It's not like we could just pack a few suitcases and boxes and be out in a jiffy. Most of the stuff is Hubby's, anyway. I'm feeling worried about my eldest nephew who is still in the hospital. He wants to leave AMA which makes me scarily imagine a repeat of my youngest nephew's last weeks. Luckily my sister and b-i-l are likely seeing this scary deja vu as well.

What a sad situation with your nephew.

As for your landlady's broker...October 1st?? Sheesh! Over 2 months away hardly seems fair or reasonable.

I'm freaking out with worry about my cat London. I feel too sick to write about it, I've posted on the Pet board. I'm pretty sure he has asthma. I need to sleep. I'm falling apart.

I'm so sorry Beth. I'm sending you so much love

I'm very sorry Blue_Bird, that sounds incredibly hard. It's not stupid at all to cry when you got off the video call. (I would be the same)

Thank you everyone for the support, I really appreciate it. I cried more last night. But I seem to be doing okay today so far. I know I'll miss her and may not ever have one like her again. It just really hit me hard yesterday. I still have my therapist thankfully who I've been seeing for the exact same amount of time for 6 years and who works at the same clinic as my psychiatrist, they know eachother and worked together. So it will be good to still have my therapist. she is a really good therapist, who will understand what a big loss, and change this will be for me.

My stomach has been a mess all day from the pristiq. Last night was real bad. I needed Advil, zofran, and my stomach med my gastro doctor prescribed to get some relief so I could sleep. Both the prestiq and the gastro med are making me not hungry. I drank a protein drink for breakfast then my mom stopped at the store for me and got a bunch of apple sauce and ensures and some chips and Clif bars. I ate a Clif bar with my second dose of the pristq and it settled ok but I've been in bed all day with this nausea. Besides the nausea and loss of appetie I am so far not having any side effects from the pristiq and its probably too early to tell but my anxiety does seem better. It could just be that my med management is better. My mom and I are making plans on how to approach me going back to work. But all the documents and stuff have to be fixed first which will still be awhile. But I don't know.