Bipolar check-in #69

Sorry about your uncle @Nammu.
My grandma was just like your mom. Only thing to go downstairs for was the laundry and she just could not ask someone else to help.

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots I've been on the phone with someone from ACT all night/morning with her trying to help me get to sleep. Fell asleep and woke up maybe 10 or 15 minutes later She said she'll try to get someone from the actual team (she was just on-call) to call me and check in once they actually open up. Idk what they can do. Everything feels simultaneously intense and unreal. Edit: So idk when I should be expecting a call. She made it seem like they would call around 8am when they start doing official business but it's 8:42AM. Also it's 59dF, raining, and I'm loving it.

You should go to Japan, Boots! In Japan you can rent a person who will hold you while you fall asleep. A professional snuggler. Then you wouldn't have to keeping thinking about ACT.

Wood floors truly are lovely, aren't they? I grew up in a large house with all wood floors. But they have to be waxed and polished. Not an easy job!

Yeah, I grew up in a house with wood floors too. They look so nice.

@Nammu, I'm sorry to read about your uncle. Strength and hugs to you and your family.

My husband and I bought the new place yesterday. We will get the keys on our move day late next week, but it's not 100% ours until some bureaucratic stuff is over (maybe 4 or 5 weeks).

My stomach issues seemed gone yesterday, but I woke up with them again this morning. If it goes on to Monday, I'll contact my GP.

I've left my hair go so long that a lot of gray is showing at my roots. I've resisted going back to my usual place because of something that happened there last time. Since I have golden light brown hair, the gray actually helps a little to calm any contrast between my natural medium brown, but still my bangs are too long. I've been brushing them to the side so they don't cover my eyes. Doing this more fully exposes the wrinkles between my eyebrows. I'd mentioned a new one, but now there is yet another. Instead of the "I" present for years, it's now "III". Boo! Amazing/scary how they showed up virtually overnight! I've been massaging them with creams to no avail. I guess I should just embrace them. I'm no longer in my 40s and certainly no longer in my 30s. At least I don't...yet...have crow's feet.

Nammu I’m so sorry about your Uncle sending lots of love for you and your family during such a time. Maybe your Mum won’t fight you on the steps issue.

Soupe congratulations on your home! I hope all the paperwork is completed soon so the renovations can begin !

Sunflower hope your able to get the injection for your elbow

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I do not have anywhere near that kind of trust haha. But Japan is said to have the best skiing in the world so maybe I really should go

@Soupe du jour so happy for you that you were able to move ahead on your place. How exciting! I’m sorry to hear of your stomach issues. I hope you feel better soon.

I'm scared. I feel like the demons are starting to take control of my actions. I'll try to sit down and focus on something like writing or eating but somehow I abandon that and just end up pacing and I don't even remember what I was doing, I just know I was supposed to be doing something else. I'm worried they're going to take total control and make me really hurt myself or someone else.

My appointment is November 3rd for my elbow injection. November 3rd?!? The darn thing could fall off by then! I jest but the longer this injury goes on, the longer I have to stay away from weight lifting. It seems ENDLESS to me.

Yesterday, it felt like something was stabbing me in the stomach. ALL.DAY.LONG. That will wear you out and down for sure. Nothing helped. I was also in a really foul mood. I get in a bad mood only 2-3 times a year. I don’t exactly turn into a werewolf but I do hate the world and everybody disgusts me. I purposely keep to myself. Mucho attractive huh? It’s quite painful to me as I’m usually optimistic and sunny. SO happy to wake up back to normal today.

Going out with sister and family tomorrow to celebrate her birthday. I don’t quite understand but we’re going to a food truck that has the best lobster rolls around? I’m confused I admit. Apparently, you have to get there early to avoid the long lines. I’ll stick with the clam chowder. Lobster rolls, no thanks.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Hugs and love

@MuddyBoots I’m so sorry you are struggling so much. I’m thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon. Is there somebody you can call? Your pdoc or therapist. It sounds like you need help at this point.

I've been calling the on-call line (kinda like a crisis line but specifically for ACT clients) pretty much every day for the past three days. They sent someone out to check out what's going on yesterday. I don't have a therapist, and I don't think this is something meds could help so contacting my pdoc would be useless. I know everyone else thinks it's not the reality, but no one but me knows all the facts and connect the dots the way I do.

edit: someone from the on-call just called me back and I told her I had a rough night and she asked me what I did to get through it and said I had some good coping skills. But I did not tell her about the losing control bit. I literally had my mom "babysit" me doing laundry so I didn't **** up or leave in the middle.

@MuddyBoots I understand. I support you as you go through this difficult time.

I do feel very supported here and with ACT but there's only so much support can do.

[/MENTION]@Soupdejour; congratulations on the house. May the renovation go smoothly. Wow another 3-4 weeks! Boy! May that part go smoothly too.

Sorry about the stomach issues.

@MuddyBoots. I’m so sorry things are so hard right now, hang in there

Soupe, congrats on the new house! I hope you enjoy it

MuddyBoots, I’m sorry you’re struggling and I hope you’re able to find some help soon

Nammu: I’m really sorry to hear about your uncle. Prayers for you and your family

Sunflower: I’m glad you’re feeling better mood wise, I hope you’re elbow injection happens soon. That does seem like a long time to wait

Christina: It’s good to see you I hope you get some better sleep. Fall is here finally too, it feels really good

Aurelius: I hope your themed display table goes over well, that sounds fun

Mountaindewed: I hope your SAD doesn’t get worse and apple cider spice tea sounds good

Also hugs to Beth, raging vortex, WFC, and beyondtherainbow, and anyone else I missed

Sorry I don’t reply more often to people, this thread moves very fast and I sometimes am not sure where to start, but just wanted to let everyone know I support you all and am thinking about you and hope you have a peaceful weekend

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I slept a lot. Not sure what happened, set my alarm for 6am, woke up, fell right back asleep till 12 in the afternoon. Something about having the heat on makes me more tired and able to sleep more (it's been getting cold especially at night it goes into the low 40's recently) I woke up to both the cats in my bed next to me. I had a lot of plans I wanted to do today but now it's already 12:30pm and I'm not feeling very productive lol

I've been practicing ukulele and doing a lot of art lately, trying to stick with them for a long time and track my progress over time

I went to my 6 year old nephews soccor game this morning. It was kind of a waste of time. My nephews don't respond to me very well unless prompted by their parents or my mom. I asked my nephew if he wanted the rest of my popcorn. He said no. Then half an hour later my mom asked him if he wanted the rest of her popcorn and he said sure. They are coming over in a bit for the night. Today my stomach feels off and I have bad heartburn thats making me feel like I want to throw up and I just feel unsupported by everyone except my therapist right now. I'm either being a bigot, being unfriendly, being an asshole, not reading the room, promoting anorexia, or just not contributing to the conversation. Or people are just unsure what to say to me so they ignore me.

But when I talk about my med situation on here I get reported yet other people can talk about their meds and struggling with taking too much and its perfectly acceptable to the other members. Can someone please tell me what it is that I am doing wrong on here?

I just find really detailed posts overwhelming and hard to respond to tbh.

N3 came over tonight. He called just as I was about to get into bed . He wanted my leftover Aquaphor and scentless lotion because his gf got her tattoo touched up. His birthday is next week. His dad is taking him out to lunch tomorrow after choir rehearsal. I might take him out to a bar or a restaurant. Probably restaurant. We will see what he wants to do.

It’s ok, you don’t have to if you’re not up for it! We just want you to feel better, but if you are too overwhelmed don’t worry about it. If you can make it here just to mention you’re still ok we’d appreciate it.

My sister’s birthday is tomorrow and the family will be celebrating but I’ll be going to the ER. For two days, it’s felt like something was stabbing me in the abdomen below the belly button. The pain is bad. I can’t find relief unless I’m asleep. I hope they can get to the bottom of it. I view myself as basically healthy but I guess recent evidence would suggest otherwise. It’s one more thing to address. Address it I will to the best of my ability.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour My husband and I bought the new place yesterday.

Congratulations!

I never look for wrinkles. I don't think I have any. My mother never did.