Bipolar check-in #69

Ooo my poor poor guy. Sir wanted to go out and explore the garage last night. Then I forgot him and went to bed! This morning he didn’t greet me and I remembered! Poor guy. No bed, no water, no food. He’s been laying on me since.

I take Imitrex too but I think it's the generic. It does take over an hour to work. The one that really knocked my migraines out was Maxalt but my insurance would rather pay for sumatriptan so....

I slept better last night but I still woke up early. I woke up and the first thought I had was about my therapists suprise news. Then I focused on my sister. Then I remembered my mom tried waking me up for AGT last night but wasn't succesful. I listened to music and watched a youtube video and time went by fairly fast. I ate some chocolate sunflower butter. It was good but it was a mess. I put it in the fridge and I'm hoping it hardens up. I watched the last half hour of AGT the only part worth watching. I could have gone either way with who won where as last year the runner up for sure deserved to win. Then I went to Target to get 2 flavors of ice cream I'm hoping won't give me issues. I stopped at Starbucks after

I was feeling kinda blah but I feel better now after the caffeine. My therapist gave me some more crap about my weight yesterday and asked if I had lost anymore even though I haven't. She is the opposite of a doctor who fat shames their patients. I sent her an email yesterday explaining something about our session and then I said I went home and ate. She got back to me this morning and she was nice and then she said "I'm glad you went home and ate. Thats what you need to do" Then at the end of the email she said "have a good week, and keep eating!" Oh lord.

I do honestly like her a ton, but when someone harps on me so much about one particular issue it can become very tiresome.

I started eating mashed potatos last night. I ate some golden buttered ones for dinner. Then I got some of those little microwable cups and a bag of frozen Ore-Ida steam/mash potatoes today. I just hope my allergy test comes in by Monday so I can figure things out. But it may take longer then Monday. They said up to 4 weeks and Monday it will be 3 weeks.

So far today no episodes of rapid cycling. Hallelujah! Experiencing some anxiety but then one of my medications does make it more pronounced.

Having another good day. I’m very grateful. Catching up is coming along nicely. Had enough energy for aqua fitness this morning. Yay!

I was out early and didn’t have time for my healthy smoothie so I bought one out called The Daily Warrior with blueberries, bananas, almonds, dates, peanut butter and spinach. I added protein, fiber, a multi-vitamin and B-12. Good stuff.

I hope everyone is having a relaxing afternoon. Much love.

Oo sunflower aqua fitness and a daily warrior! Double bonus!

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Originally Posted by Moose72 ... Today is the anniversary of the day I went inpatient last year, as near as I can figure. The anniversary of the awfulness that sent me down that self-destructive path. While the intensity has faded of the memory, I still worry about that. I don't want to jinx myself so I'll stop here.

I can certainly empathize with you, Moose. I'm so sorry you have to have such an awful memory. I'm sending you a lot of love, especially today.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Ooo my poor poor guy. Sir wanted to go out and explore the garage last night. Then I forgot him and went to bed! This morning he didn’t greet me and I remembered! Poor guy. No bed, no water, no food. He’s been laying on me since.

Oh, no! Poor Sir. Aw, he'll totally forgive you by this evening....or next week...

Hi guys, I'm having atrocious internet connection issues. AND they had the chutzpah to call me this morning to ask for a payment next week! I'm checking into finding a different provider. Somehow, I'm able to be online right now, but if I'm not here later, I'll be back after a while.

Lots of love to all~

How are you @wildflowerchild25?

And @Blue_Bird?

As for @MuddyBoots, I'm very concerned at this point.

She's left the nest. I had to take GF to an appointment this morning, and to her orthopedist's this afternoon. Surprisingly he gave her the green light to drive. I hope her strength & reflexes have recovered enough, because she ran to Costco as soon as we got back. It was told, "It's her happy place." She was going through withdrawls. I didn't really mind driving her, but it's nice knowing she can drive to & from appointments (PT). Sitting in the parking lot can be a drag. BTW, I took her to Costco twice while she was down. I put her in one of those electric carts & went back to the car to listen to NPR. I'm not a shopper.

Hey Beth, I'm doing okay, had a rough couple days but today hasn't been so bad. I am feeling a little better. I spent some time drawing today, and I baked some brownies (not homemade)

How have you been? I've been spending a lot of time reading. I'm reading 3 books at the moment.

I’m feeling better about car shopping tomorrow. I have $5000 down payment, the title to my car, a good credit rating and I bought consumer reports online so I can check cars I’m interested in plus I have my daughter’s father in law with me,…why am I so nervous? I hate absolutely hate being poor and needing to buy a car right now with prices jacked up over supply issues. One thing for sure no fords!

I just payed $450 to fix my car. I was advised I better get looking at new vehicles as he’s afraid mine might die. Idk what to do. I just wanted her to last through May when I graduate. If it did go out on me I’d be unable to get to work and do internship. I have to have a car. Sigh

Yeah I swear cars know the most inopportune time to break down and die!

I really thought I checked in but now I’m thinking I did a short check in on a different thread by accident. It was just about how I’m sleeping well without seroquel now which I’m happy about.

But unfortunately the back pain is as bad as ever. I took off today, which I didn’t want to do in the second week of school. But my back was in such spasm I had to get my son to pick out a shirt for me to wear because they’re in the bottom drawer. I couldn’t bend or even sit down without extreme pain, and twice now I’ve woken up in the middle of the night in pain and had to move to the recliner to sleep.

So I went to the orthopedic urgent care this morning for an X-ray. The dr thinks since everything is ok there that I’m having muscle spasms from when I strained my back sleeping on those awful mattresses in IP. I believe that to be the case bc I wasn’t able to brace myself with extra blankets or pillows under my legs. And I was perfectly fine before IP stay #1. I also have slight scoliosis that I never knew about because it’s so slight the dr said nothing would have been done for it anyway. Not a serious problem but could explain why my hip hurts as well. I got naproxen, a specialist appt, and a script for PT.

I made an appt with a new pdoc but I’m not hopeful, she specializes more in anxiety and depression and I’m afraid my case might be too severe. But I’ll go and then check my insurance and schedule again with someone new if needed. I need to see someone before my meds run out so if I can at least get refills from this NP I’ll have more time to find someone else.

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Originally Posted by buddha1too She's left the nest. I had to take GF to an appointment this morning, and to her orthopedist's this afternoon. Surprisingly he gave her the green light to drive. I hope her strength & reflexes have recovered enough, because she ran to Costco as soon as we got back. It was told, "It's her happy place." She was going through withdrawls. I didn't really mind driving her, but it's nice knowing she can drive to & from appointments (PT). Sitting in the parking lot can be a drag. BTW, I took her to Costco twice while she was down. I put her in one of those electric carts & went back to the car to listen to NPR. I'm not a shopper.

Yay! She can drive - that's great. She's probably as glad as you are.

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird Hey Beth, I'm doing okay, had a rough couple days but today hasn't been so bad. I am feeling a little better. I spent some time drawing today, and I baked some brownies (not homemade) How have you been? I've been spending a lot of time reading. I'm reading 3 books at the moment.

It's wonderful, having 3 books to read at one time. I just finished East of Eden, which was astounding. I have a novel I will start reading soon.

I'm feeling MUCH better after decreasing that poison Luvox (SSRI, more or less). I was sick from it for many weeks, like really, really sick. I have it down to 1/3 of 100mg so hopefully I'll be off the stuff by next week.

Yikes, I'm so sorry about your back pain @wildflowerchild25. I have found Naproxen very helpful in the past.

But GREAT news on your sleep! That is truly a joy!

Thank you!

I'm in bed already. N3 and I went downtown and walked around- quite far actually! We got Thai food for dinner and looked in the newish place of the record store we like. (They moved 3 or 4 years ago.) We looked a lot but didn't buy anything. Some of their stuff is hella expensive! $50 for an LP- it was in new condition and a hot artist but still . Too rich for my blood! I looked through the drawer where all the records are marked $0.94! 🤣

Thanks again, Love!

Does anybody have info on how not to get ripped off by car dealers? I will have a support with me in the form of my daughter’s father in law and I bought consumer reports so I can look up any car I look at. I already looked up the trade in value of my car. Any good tips? I’m so nervous I usually don’t make a good bargain, I tend to ignore my inner voice and get sweet talked into a car my gut says no to

Glad he’s okay and not pouting.

I hope this gets straightened out for you.

Yay! Great news! I’m glad she is moving along. Hopefully it continues. That’s mom’s happy place too. Allergic to shopping here and I sit in the car as well. Listening to disco (that I’ll only admit to the folks here).

Glad you are feeling a bit better.

Wishing you all the luck in the world.