Bipolar check in #73

Ugh I’m ready for the bugs to stop !!!!!’n

I went shopping today and found some very nice perfume at tj maxx.

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Originally Posted by Samicat I'm going to try 5mg of time-release melatonin tonight. Good luck with your supplement.

Thank you. I hope we both get decent sleep tonight. btw, I take 10mg of melatonin.

I'm so sorry about your daughter @Nammu. Poor woman. Insurance companies are revolting.

What do you mean ozempuc king or queen??

Beth I struggle with regulating my temp. Psych meds make me so hot at times. It’s not hormonal I’m far past those days. I hope the new med provider is a good fit! You sure are do one

Oh Nammu I am so sorry. I’m glad she’s safe. Oh insurance companies being able to just stop covering a medication is crazy !! Maybe pdoc can request a exception since now it was working so well ?? It’s maddening. They did that with my previous PsA med.. like I can afford 4000.00 a month . The insurance in this country is pure trash !

Hallie .. I wish I could wave my magic wand and make the bugs go away forever. So glad you had a great church service.

Wild !!?!? Hope your home soon

Soupe are you feeling better ?

Sunflower sorry you had a relapse. Here’s hoping new meds work quickly. Glad you get to see M .

Muddy ?? How are you ?

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I think I’m having a weird rash it’s not SJS .. hard to explain but maybe the increase in Geodon ??? I dunno . Altho the increase seems to be helping I can’t deal with rash.. it’s just bumpy dry areas from head yesterday and now down my neck. I should be getting my new PsA med Skyrizi tomorrow or Tuesday. Bit concerned about starting it. Biologics are great yet there are risks

Wah wah wah im playing the little violin for myself

Hugs friends

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I woke up this morning and the depression felt like it had tripled overnight. I feel a little better tonight but it's still much worse than a few days ago. I had to force myself to do anything all day long.


I don't even know how to describe how this feels. Yucky is the best I've got.

I hope my therapist can help but realistically I think it will be this way until my patches arrive. I'm cutting 9mg patches to make 12 mg total but things keep happening like mis-calculating how much to cut or last night the smaller piece came off and stuck to my pajama pants. So I'm not getting the boosted dose any benefit. I need to eat something. I've not been very hungry today.

People who use Ozempic just because they want to lose weight fast instead of addressing their underlying emotional issues and their life style habits.

I was mainly talking about someone I know personally.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow I woke up this morning and the depression felt like it had tripled overnight. I feel a little better tonight but it's still much worse than a few days ago. I had to force myself to do anything all day long. I don't even know how to describe how this feels. Yucky is the best I've got. I hope my therapist can help but realistically I think it will be this way until my patches arrive. I'm cutting 9mg patches to make 12 mg total but things keep happening like mis-calculating how much to cut or last night the smaller piece came off and stuck to my pajama pants. So I'm not getting the boosted dose any benefit. I need to eat something. I've not been very hungry today.

Oh, Rainbow . I feel terrible for you. It's like the depression I went through during the fall/winter. Do you think there's a chance of your patches arriving by Friday?

I watched a well-done doc called Anyplace But Here. Probably about 1980, patients in Creedmoor psych hospital. I was looking, too, for the movie about the boy with (I think) schizophrenia...Walls? - I found it! Words on Bathroom Walls.

For years, I've been like a radiator on full blast. One bit of anxiety makes me start sweating, too. I debate how much of it is the meds and how much pre-menopause.

@~Christina, my cold is still present, but as of now it's easing, rather than worsening. I can't say that about my moods.

Yesterday, I finally called my brother after too long not. He is in agony, mostly because of the chemo side effects, he believes, more than even the cancer. Given how late stage his cancer is and his relatively young age (57), they have him on the highest dose chemo they give. He told me he ideally would have wanted to go to the ER yesterday, but didn't because he thought it would do little good and of course...the marvelous American medical bills. He started ranting about his view of the cause for them (a conspiracy theory). I didn't bother arguing against it so as not to distress him further. He also almost cried about his loneliness and how he feels neglected. It is heartbreaking to hear, and was a clear slap on my wrist, too, that I don't call enough. I vowed to call significantly more. Calls are hard, though. I wish he was also more open to texting.

I looked forward to visiting our place today, but we won't. Our friend, the renovations construction manager, asked us not to come until Friday so as to "surprise us". Instead of that exciting me, it drove me to catastrophize. My first thought was "Did a wall suddenly fall down and he has to rebuild and paint it without us knowing?"

After I called my brother, I planned to call my dad, but it didn't happen. Instead, Dad called me a while later. I felt sad he did it first. Made me feel neglectful with him, too. His words were positive, but his breathing didn't sound good. He has worsening COPD, and they want him on oxygen much of the time.

I chatted with Sis a little last week, but that was sad, too. It was what would have been my youngest nephew's 30th birthday, if we hadn't lost him 6 years before I was looking through old email exchanges with him. One was on his 20th birthday when he was super excited that my brother took him out for dinner. I forwarded that to my sister, then I wondered if I shouldn't have.

I confess to have taken my med management into my own hands, recently. I made a reduction that my Brno and American pdocs would never have made. At least the amount. Perhaps that's backfiring on me. My newest pdoc I only saw once, and her English isn't good. I haven't had a tdoc since Brno, six months ago. I realize I'm in a vulnerable position. I should surely go back to what I should be taking. I clearly have too little support, but when I think of what my brother doesn't have, I have a lot.

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time @Soupe du jour. Being sick certainly can't help your mood, but maybe you're correct about the med decrease backfiring.

Sad news to wake up to, one of my favorite guitarists, Gary Rossington (Lynyrd Skynyrd) has died. Only 71. His story about surviving the plane crash was profoundly spiritual, it's stayed with me since I heard him talk about it years ago.

Rainy morning. So done with the chilly weather, running ten degrees lower than normal. The time change should jump start spring, though.

My therapist moved my session to zoom for personal reasons. She sent an email around 6 this morning. I'm really bummed about it. I needed to see her in person today. I've also been up since right before 10 last night so I'm kinda groggy and anxious right now and my stomach is off. My niece is here and we have a roof repair guy coming in a bit to give us an estimate. But mainly its just therapy getting me down because I was feeling really good until I got the email. I guess maybe I should try taking a nap.

Now I've layed down for half an hour in my moms bed and I'm just like "blah." My stomach feels like I drank a gallon of water.

Why are saltine crackers the food version of a benzo...

The roof guy came here and accidently scared my niece and made her scream when he handed my mom his bussiness card. He said something like "is there a scary roof repair guy here?" In a baby voice. Lol.

I’m sorry.

I just couldn’t stay up this morning. The bed was so inviting. But did get up and threw all the bedding in the wash. I’m in my wash day pjs. All my things are in the wash. Have at least three loads. So it will be afternoon before I’m done.

Want to visit my daughter but. The landline phone is out and that’s the one with the captions for talking to people. Thinking much about her. Don’t know the visiting hours there. Even if I drove the 30 minute for a 10 minute visit it would be worth it.

2am I woke up.

I applied for the position of 8th grade coordinator at my school and I think the interview will be today. Nervous but I found some notes on my Mac that I will print at work to take with me. Usually we're given the set of questions for 10 minutes and have to draft up a response. I would love to get the position but didn't last time I interviewed because I wasn't the successful candidate. I got told I sucked at answering this questions (so I've had more time to think about it):

The bell rings at the end of recess and you have a class that's about to start. As you're leaving the office, reception rings to say there's an angry parent demanding to see you right now. At the same time, a teacher brings in 2 students who have just had a fight at recess. What do you do?

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Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch 2am I woke up. I applied for the position of 8th grade coordinator at my school and I think the interview will be today. Nervous but I found some notes on my Mac that I will print at work to take with me. Usually we're given the set of questions for 10 minutes and have to draft up a response. I would love to get the position but didn't last time I interviewed because I wasn't the successful candidate. I got told I sucked at answering this questions (so I've had more time to think about it): The bell rings at the end of recess and you have a class that's about to start. As you're leaving the office, reception rings to say there's an angry parent demanding to see you right now. At the same time, a teacher brings in 2 students who have just had a fight at recess. What do you do?

I'm sorry, Hitch. My sleep was pretty useless, too.

Good luck with getting the position!

Let's see...it seems the 2 students can be separated, then left to sit for a while and calm down. Bring them together later for a productive discussion.

But how can anyone be expected to teach a class, handle 2 fighting students, and talk with a parent, all at the same time? I mean, can't the coordinator call on others for assistance?

Blah, I'm sorry about your therapy session @Mountaindewed, especially when you especially wanted an in-person.

That's funny about the roofing guy, though

My response will be, after giving it some thought -

Send the injured student to sick bay, send the other one to well-being. Ask reception to see if an assistant principal is free - if not I’ll make a call to the parent when I’m next free / at lunch. Reconvene with students at lunch time for mediation / statements.

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Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch My response will be, after giving it some thought - Send the injured student to sick bay, send the other one to well-being. Ask reception to see if an assistant principal is free - if not I’ll make a call to the parent when I’m next free / at lunch. Reconvene with students at lunch time for mediation / statements.

That sounds perfect. Except was a student actually injured, or were they just fighting?

I got an A in my last elective. My gpa is 3.64! I’m
Gonna graduate college with honors!

And yes the bugs are still getting to me

Hallelujah! I slept through the night! First time in months. I took 5mg of time-release melatonin. E


Hope this continues.

The draft for my dads headstone came in and it looks amazing!! After 16 years my dads grave will finally be marked

I took a shower that i've been overdue for! Yay, Jane! Talked to my doctor today. It was mostly to check on a form for my disability insurance that he's been sitting on for six weeks or more. He hadn't done it! I guess he knew i was going to ask about it as he hastily said he had it right in front of him and he was going to do it today. It was kind of funny!

@Soupe du jour:

I'm sure your nephew's mom will appreciate the email you forwarded to her. She'll likely be comforted that her son is not forgotten. Glad your cold has peaked and is improving. Sorry to hear that your brother is in such bad shape. When i have difficult calls to make, i set myself a deadline and sometimes even an alarm on my phone. Sounds like you've had a tough day, talking to your dad as well. Eager to see what your reno surprise will be. It'll likely be something good. I doubt a contractor would build up suspense over something negative.

@HALLIEBETH87:

Congratulations on your excellent GPA! There a specific word for the sensation of bugs crawling on or under your skin: FORMICATION. If you ever say it out loud, be sure and step on the M really hard, otherwise people think you are saying something else!

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Originally Posted by JaneOnceMore ...Talked to my doctor today. It was mostly to check on a form for my disability insurance that he's been sitting on for six weeks or more. He hadn't done it! I guess he knew i was going to ask about it as he hastily said he had it right in front of him and he was going to do it today. It was kind of funny! ...

Six weeks!! Sheesh.