Bipolar check in #73

It's after 2 am where I am now. I fell asleep on the sofa at 7 pm and woke up 20 minutes ago with gum in my mouth. I almost never even chew gum, but did because of dry mouth associated with my bad cold. Glad I didn't choke on it in my sleep.

I've already gone through a whole box of tissues blowing my nose. I also have a cough because of my congestion. So miserable!

I had a nice time listening to music tonight. I used my noise-cancelling BOSE earpods that i bought last Summer and the sound was excellent. It was nice to listen to LOUD music. Otherwise, the day was not much. I hope the terrible weather has passed by now for those impacted.

@kala83:

It sounds like you have access to good health care options. I'm glad for you! Hope your car trouble gets sorted out promptly.

Things are ok. I’m worried about my mom

Soup- are you sure that this is not allergies?
the past 2 times that I thought I had covid it was decided it was allergies I had a bad cough and sneezing dry mouth etc. you have moved to a new location.
I hope you feel better asap suggest you use some sort of flonase and an anti histamine benadryl and a decongestant not an expectorant .
Be well,
bizi

The past couple of days have been good. I've ended what is possibly my last 5-day workweek for a while with good sales at a store my boss wants me to try and turn around. I still don't know how the coming weeks are going to work out schedule-wise, but I really hope I don't lose a day. I like the independence, the problem solving, the, if not living on the "dangerous edge of things," at least living on the exciting side.

I know the "dangerous edge of things" from my bipolar ups and downs. I can handle stress well enough, but boredom...? Not so much. This job is the biggest excitement I've had in a while and I'm already preemptively missing it.

Well, tomorrow will be Sunday service with my Mom and figuring out if I want to visit a family friend tomorrow or Monday.

As for tonight, it's an even roll of the dice between finishing a Netflix series or firing up my PlayStation.

I’ve been feeling bugs crawling in me. I’m not depressed or manic. What gives? Icky feeling

I know I got some nice comments and encouragement the other day and I didn't answer. I meant to but I just shutdown when I'm depressed and time got away from me and now I have no idea where the posts were. So thank you and I'm sorry.

@*Beth* I do remember reading the CtM starts the 19th! Can't wait.

Anyway, I will try to do better but no promises. I know you (or some of you at least) know what this feels like.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow ....I know you (or some of you at least) know what this feels like.

All too well.

Hi everybody

I think my Geodon increase is starting to work. I don’t have the full on Doom and Gloom hitting as hard. * grateful *

Hope everyone is having a good weekend

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Thanks, @bizi!

I've had seasonal sinusitis most of my life and I'm definitely not dealing with that, at the moment. It is a classic bad cold, I'm sure. The only difference from most of my past colds is that I've not had laryngitis yet.

The idea of covid crossed my mind, but I had covid, despite full vaccination and booster. This is not quite the same. Also, I haven't heard of anyone with covid in Czech Republic for a while, though I do guess most wouldn't be reporting it much anymore. Initially I wondered if it was going to be the flu, but it doesn't seem to be. I did get a flu shot a few months ago.

I couldn't agree more dear. Yes, I am hoping the car gets back to me in the next couple of days gonna be hard doing a walk-in assessment without it honestly.
even if I don't have a ton of positives going on I am trying to look more at the few positives I have and less at the negatives.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Hi everybody I think my Geodon increase is starting to work. I don’t have the full on Doom and Gloom hitting as hard. * grateful * Hope everyone is having a good weekend Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Yaaay! I'm so glad it's working. That depression has been a drag on you for months, Christina. Such good news!

Sometimes I become acutely aware of how much medication affects my mind and body. For example, oftentimes I can't determine my body temperature. When I woke up I could tell the heater was on too high because my breathing felt stuffy. I had a vague feeling of my upper arms being too warm. So I turned off the heat and opened the windows pretty wide. It's 7 a.m., 42 degrees. So I know it must be chilly in here, but I can't truly feel it.

I guess what I'm saying is that I have to feel extremely hot or extremely cold; anything moderate and my body feels so numbed-out that I can't gauge the temperature. I assume it's the AP (Zyprexa) that causes the numb feeling. Kind-of like being wrapped in cotton batting.

2 weeks left of work then I’m off on long service leave the week of my move. The big move.

I’ve woken up with bad asthma at 2:00am so made coffee which is a bronchiodilator. Now I’m awake but tired at 2 am.

Considering taking Wednesday off work this week. It’s still such a distance. Takes me 1 hour to get there and an hour and a half home. Problem is my son can’t go to childcare which is opposite my work if I take the day off.

Will see how I feel closer to Wednesday.

The air show was superb yesterday. I absolutely loved the fighter jets. The most amazing synchronised aerobatics display I ever did see. So loud!

Ugh the bugs kept
Crawling on during church. Maybe it’s Satan trying to distract but he didn’t! Church was awesome this morning!

My last day of my weekend off is today. So I need to spend some time cleaning this place up. I will start with the kitchen. I still use a walker, so lets see how this works out. I am just too lazy to do anything. I may instead hire a maid cleaning service.

So sick of sleep difficulties. Can't seem to sleep more than 3-4 hours at a time. Recently started taking Calcium, magnesium and Vit D... Waiting...

My chocolate cheese has shipped. Today I'm doing ok. I'm kinda crabby though but I think its just food related. I've lost about 7 pounds this week from switching up my diet and taking the vitamin D pills. At least thats why I think I'm losing weight. Today its pretty much just the same boring Sunday as always. I want one of those double down whatever they are called from KFC when they come out tommorow. I don't know how many calories they have, but since I never get stuff with mayonaise on them things always have way less calories then the nutrition info states since mayo is a calorie bomb. I'm sure I can fit it into my day somehow.

That’s great that you’ve lost weight. I’m going to start watching my calories intake this week. Most specifically, carbs.

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Originally Posted by Tucson My last day of my weekend off is today. So I need to spend some time cleaning this place up. I will start with the kitchen. I still use a walker, so lets see how this works out. I am just too lazy to do anything. I may instead hire a maid cleaning service.

I think hiring a service would be great!

Sending loving vibes to @wildflowerchild25, @MuddyBoots, @Brentus.

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Originally Posted by Samicat So sick of sleep difficulties. Can't seem to sleep more than 3-4 hours at a time. Recently started taking Calcium, magnesium and Vit D... Waiting...

I so feel for you. I'm having the same problem lately and it causes my energy level to fall almost flat. I have found melatonin can sometimes be helpful, but it hasn't done much lately. I just ordered a combination melatonin/valerian root/turmeric root supplement. 20$ - x fingers crossed x

Tired. Mood good, just so tired, achy, sleepy. I'm listening to Thelonius Monk and absolutely loving the music. There's going to be a thunderstorm, which scares my poor old cat Solomon. I have my first appointment with my new med prescriber on Tuesday. Kinda dreading it but- need refills. So.

Well blankety blank blank unmentionable insurance companies!!!! They put latuda on a different tier so my daughter can’t afford it. It would cost thousands per month. It was supposed to go generic a couple of years ago but the company paid off the generic companies to not make it. It was slated to come out this year but I’ve hears nothing yet.

So anyway my daughter was doing extremely well on it. Like me it’s her single miracle pill. They switched her and it’s been awful for weeks. This morning she called saying she wasn’t doing well. I went right over ( about 30 minutes away by interstate) the three of us talked. She wanted to go to the crisis center about an hour away but her insurance won’t cover that. So hubby and her went to ER.

ER at first said it might be days to get a bed, then 24hours. They said they had had someone in ER for 3 months waiting for a bed! But then they said, well she’s not violent!!!! We can get her a bed on the mood disorder unit! So she’s been admitted now.

By then it had started snowing. Huge wet horizontally blinding flakes. Most cars though had their lights on. And despite the speed demons on the road I made it home. But blankety blank blank insurance companies. This whole thing was so unnecessary. I hate to see my daughter suffering and so needless. I’m hoping they can get something worked out that she can go back on latuda. It’s been 10 years since she needed the hospital.

I'm going to try 5mg of time-release melatonin tonight. Good luck with your supplement.