Bipolar Check-in #75

Damn it's hot.

On the news tonight they said yesterday was record breaking global heat temperature. The experts expect that the recorded will be broken again and again in the coming years.

Yesterday morning, Hubby and I went to the police station to be interviewed about the criminal complaint we submitted. It took over two hours. It was hot in the station, because like most Czech buildings, there was no AC. It was cooler outside.

In the afternoon, I had an angry exchange with my sister, who lives in the US. She is the executrix of my father's will. She has been keeping many related things secret from me, most likely at the urging of her abusive husband. For example, she apparently accepted an offer for my father's house, but failed to tell me. I found out myself when casually browsing the online listing. When I asked her about it she refused to answer, and responded with a boohooing angry rant. I am certain her husband is basically harassing her 24/7. She has admitted to that in the past. Either way, she is a 58 year old, so is ultimately responsible for her own behavior. A couple weeks back she threatened to relinquish the executrix role, due to stress. I told her she can, if she needs to. She didn't. Truly, I think having a family member be an executor/trix of a will is a horrible idea. Too much stress and conflict for many!

Had my hernia repair surgery yesterday, and I'm not trying to be a big baby or anything, but the pain is excruciating!

I’ve had that surgery. It gets easier. Take your pain meds regularly and that will help.

My sister fortunately has her husband at her back. He’s helping her with all the parts of being executrix . I think that makes all the difference in the world. I’m sorry your sister’s husband is such an ***. He could make this easier on her. I hope it all works out for the best.

Thinking of you and hoping things smooth out for you.

I hope the pain eases up for you.

I reached my goal of getting back to the pool a day early. I’ve enjoyed floating on this sunny day with Polynesian punch (non-alcoholic) in hand. It sure is heating up today. Clear skies and sunshine.

I’m debating about whether to go rafting or on the pontoon boat or simply sitting in the rocking chair during the reunion. I don’t want to push it so I think rafting is out. I’m heat intolerant so I’m taking lots of cooling aids.

Disability followed up with all that paperwork with a one page form asking for dates of treatment back to February 2021. Boy, did I have dates galore plus my hospitalization. If that doesn’t convince them, nothing will. We’ll see. I mailed it off today.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day.

Sorry to hear that you broke two teeth! It is good that you are feeling better after the surgery, though! May the family party do you good!

I agree with you that to pick one in the family to be an executor of the will is not a good idea! Sorry to hear about all the stress this gives you!

@raspberrytorte Hope the healing goes quick!

I’m
Already stressing about school.
I have a hard year ahead of me. This time next year I will
Be finishing my masters of social work and preparing for the cSw exam.

My fiancé is doing his last few weeks of msw
Right now. I’m beyond proud! He was once homeless, mentally unwell and an
Alcoholic. Now he’s gonna be a social worker
Helping peers! He’s already been offered a position.

Our wedding planning has been paused bc we’re
Both so busy right now.

I overslept and felt very tired. Despite of that I was able to finish my morning routine. After that I was troubled by too many thoughts. You know when you want to stay focused and you are not able to get your mind back on track. After some failed trying I decided to go off my ordinary plan and to do my work (online). I was able to focus on that, but now, afterward I feel sad and very tired

I suppose it is some old hurt that is lying there and pressing my buttons. So it is, even the best plan cannot always be of help. To me it is the diabetes as well as other physical plagues that I have to handle as well. Diabetes can sometimes give an enormous tiredness together with problems to remember there and then. When it is that way, people who don't know me well, can get the idea that I have cognitive problems. In some way that is right, but only for the moment, not as a permanent state of being. Sometimes there is nothing else to do then to accept that it is the way it is ... That's my problem this evening (to accept). I am so tired of all these physical illnesses!

Wow @HALLIEBETH87 You have come far and there is much work for you to do in the next semester. I'm sure you will make it.

Sure you are proud of your fiancé! He has done well.

A boquet of flowers for both of you!

My gynecolgist won't get back to me. I've called twice. Both times the receptionist has been like "yeah I'll get ahold of her and call you back." I know I'm a dude with a vagina which may freak them out a bit, but I'm still a patient they should be treating with respect.

Anyways now all I can do is just watch what I eat, eat small meals, not eat before bed, and stay on top of my pain meds. Today I did pretty good.

I had a quiet day. I tried to go out but the heat was unbearable and i turned back. I picked up again with a ZOOM support group as i expect i will be hiding from the heat for a while. I had considered buying a bus pass this month as i went out so much last month, but now i'm glad i didn't. I haven't had any punishing boredom, so that's been nice.

Hope everyone is doing as well as possible under the circumstances.

My mom is making me power of attorney over her due to a surgery she is having. It feels weird not having my older sister in charge.

I'm writing a novel too and just passed the 40,000 mark so nearly halfway through. Whereabouts are you? I did have an outline but just rough. Let's support each other and check in. I have my goal on the nanowrimo site if you want to join - it's all free. It's Camp Nanowrimo right now, but my goal is to finish by early September

Good morning! I am sure I will have success with my six weeks program. Some days are really hard because of physical diseases, so I have no hope of becoming a problem free person, but to live much better with my depression and life in general.

I have been able before to free myself from depression by doing "things" in ways usually working well for me, step by step. To do so I need to be free of unnecessary distractions.

I will take a break from the forum from now on. I will probably come in and say "hello" from time to time.

I send my best wishes for the general health of everyone!

Sending hugs to everyone here. I'm sorry I can't respond to some posts individually right now. Hopefully in a couple days I'll be back on track, in that respect. I'm struggling.

Today I have my first therapy since September 2022. It is through an online therapy provider BetterHelp. In addition to once per week "live" therapy, they provide any day texting exchanges through the website portal. I like this feature, and so far my impression is good, but the "live" interaction will be more of a decider on whether we click. The session will be at 3 pm, CEST (Central European Summer Time).

A few days ago, our friend gave us about 1.5 kg of dark sweet cherries from his tree. Then yesterday, our neighbor coerced us into picking and taking about 1.5 kg of a slightly different variety from his. I've already made several things with them and froze some. Yet, I still have 1.5 kg left. I own a small pitter, but it only does four at a time. I'll make more things and freeze more, too.

Luckily in Czech Republic the weather has not been particularly hot, like in much of the US. However, we've had a bit of a drought. When it does rain, it's only briefly. This coming week will be hotter, though. Unlike most in CZ, we have air conditioning in our house. People scoffed at us having it installed, but we'll be the happier for it.

I hope your therapy goes well and is a good fit for you.

Best wishes to you.

I have therapy in a bit and I really don't want to do it. But if I quit therapy my medicare and SSI will be cut and I need that more for my medical stuff now instead of my mental health. So I'll just have to deal with it today.

I had to take Gary to the vet. I dropped him off this morning. He needs a lion cut since he refuses to let us groom him. He won't allow anyone to and it gets so bad he has to be put under sedation. He looks pretty ugly when hes done but hes not all clumpy and I'm sure he feels better. Justs adds on another $300 to my bills. Then I have to take my orange guy in on Tuesday for an annual checkup. Luckily I got the 3 year shots for them so it shouldn't be too much for him.

I feel a depression coming on. I compare this feeling to getting caught in undertow at the beach. I feel myself being sucked out to sea. I've got to use the tools I have to fight depression and get back on the beach. I know that if I don't find ways to keep going, I'll be dead in the water. Bipolar disorder sucks. Up until a week, or so ago I was riding high. I don't understand.

I hope all of you who are troubled at the moment can enjoy some joy soon.