Bipolar Check-in #75

It's a holiday here in Ontario and i hate holidays. I can't remember the last time i had a good time on a holiday. I tried to joyride our train and walk around the downtown area but the throngs of people made it unpleasant. I really tried. I got quite depressed and thought quite seriously about The day improved when i watched a movie called "Side Effects" on Netflix. It's about a medical insurance scam. It was pretty negative about mental illnesss -- not the greatest movie, but diverting.

I got approved for long term disability, so this is good news.

I'm having a rough day today, can't really pinpoint why. The stupid depression is messing with me again.

Feeling okay. Nervous about this CAT scan, I get claustrophobic very easily. Life is good though, I am making it through.

Eventful day! Had a liver ultrasound which went well, even though I got a bit lost going to a completely new location. Hopefully the results are much ado about nothing!

Parts of my incision opened back up, like a seam bursting. Drastic description notwithstanding, it's not 911 urgent at the moment. However, I have enough gunk draining to leave a mess on my clothes. The surgeon's office knows what's going on. I'm just waiting on their professional opinion.

Some good news: I finally have lamictal again after being out for a week! Didn't feel anything out of the ordinary mood wise, but it's nice to have all my meds.

This time next week, I'm back to work and not a moment too soon! I can't wait to actually get back out there! Cabin fever is no fun, especially after a month and a half!

A bit belated, but Happy Anniversary!

I just finished up at the hospital and am waiting for the shuttle back to the hotel. No real results yet but I do have to come back in 6 months for another mammogram and ultrasound. I don’t know about MRI yet. Enjoying a bench in the sun for now. So glad that’s over.

Man do I feel like crap. Its a bad cold on top of the gastro issues. I've been in bed all day drifting off for an hour and then waking up and coughing and blowing my nose. I feel really tired and congested. My bed is full of used kleenex and my nightstand has a bunch of empty water and Gatorade bottles.

I just feel kinda miserable today.

Just back from the gym. A difficult workout. I was getting a little stronger but not this week...I wasn't able to complete several exercises. Also I was very tired on the elliptical.

I think maybe it's related to tapering off gabapentin. My pdoc wants me to stop it because it's not really doing anything.

I hope you feel better soon!

@Scooter9 I hope the dose reduction goes ok!
I came off pregabalin a few years ago and felt like I had the flu for weeks.

@Mountaindewed I hope you feel better soon!

@BeyondtheRainbow I’m sorry you have to go through this every 6 months. Do you know when you get the results?

I’m struggling with my sleep, I’ve slept soo much the past 48 hours. I’ve probably slept 18-20 hours each day.
I’m going to try and get back into a routine and hope it was just having had 3 migraines.
But I’m concerned it’s my mental health. How can anyone sleep so much!

Well, we're getting near the end of the month and no hypomania. I am so grateful! This mild depression is hard but at least i am not collecting incidents of outrageous behavior to burn with shame about later.

@Pinny, thanks for asking. I have one result back tonight. It's from my mammogram and they've been following it for a long time. I'll get more answers tomorrow. So this is hopefully my last night of worrying about this for 6 months. Or the MRI wil force me into a biopsy. We'll see. If I get out without a biopsy being scheduled it will be my first time.

Now to sleep...

Ohh, I hope you don’t have to go though another biopsy!

@Nammu me too!

Hi bizi. I'm sorry. I don't understand. BF (Hugs)

Ah I’m so sorry, well I hope that you don’t need another biopsy. That’s so rough! Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way!
I hope you manage a peaceful sleep!

Thanks Scooter!

Thanks Pinny!

I’m feeling quite good right now. Wonder how long that will last..

So my pdoc is increasing the Seroquel. I'll be on the XR version and the target is 200mg but I'm increasing it by 50mg every few days.

I think there are some others on Seroquel too, if I remember properly, @Soupe du jour is on it.. Anyone else that can share their experience with it would be helpful.

My IOP program is going well. I'm learning a lot of coping skills. Bring with others in person that have similar issues is helpful. I'm making some acquaintances and maybe a friend or two. Most of my friends are family friends so it's nice having my own friends.

I
Count myself blessed. I have a great Pdoc and endocrinologist. I wasn’t sure how they’d be but I like
Them ok. My Pdoc takes what I want into
Account and lets me make the decisions about meds. Even when I was having psychotic symptoms a while
Ago he wasn’t too pushy. He didn’t over react.

I’m so grateful to have found him!

I'm still pretty sick and so is my mom. I took a covid test because I was paranoid and I was negative of course. I still have all the same symptoms I did yesterday except today I'm not as tired but I'm having a hard time breathing. So is my mom. My sister and brother in law thought it was a good idea to drop all 3 of the kids off for the day. They figured since they got us sick and now we're sick, that now all of us are good and no ones contagious anymore. I guess? Thats how it works. I'm not sure. Luckily the boys are just in my moms room watching TV and my niece has been fairly well behaved today. I've just been in my room all day trying to get comfortable and stuff. I'm making one of those instant Lipton soup packets. The day is going by so slow.

OMG they are adorable. Cat photos always melt my heart. I want to hug them!