Bipolar Check-in #75

I can't sleep. I give up!

I acknowledge that I'm growing quite unwell. I think the flight home exacerbated it.

I've been pushed to take an additional 200 mg Seroquel XR (to take in morning) in order to help free me from the clutches of hell and put me out of reach of the devil.

Depression can be cured, but it is not enough with medication and talking therapy. To have a good environment at school and other places can be important as well.

Please don't press her to talk to you as long as she has a therapist, but encourage her to continue therapy. Search for motivating books at Amazon that perhaps can help her to see hope for herself.

The most important is that she understands that depression is not unique for her, but common and that many people has healed from in and more will do so in the future.

Good luck!

Wish you well!

Thank you, rosi

We did buy her a kids anxiety workbook, that she's slowly been going through. Maybe we'll find her something about depression as well. She is, unfortunately, against the anxiety book, so I'm assuming she'd be even more against one about depression.

We're not putting her on any meds. My husband has a history of anxiety and panic attacks and was put on antidepressants in high school that only made him worse, and without an antipsychotic and mood stabilizer antidepressants make me manic. So we're doing meds as a very last resort.

Well the garage sale is over with and my sisters are gone.

But the house is a disaster zone. Nothing on the walls, boxes everywhere and all the nice furniture gone.

It’s depressing and unsettling.

I’m not sleeping well. Waking up a lot. Then too early in the morning and unable to get back to sleep.

I may be able to move in June but that too is not ideal. Tiny, very tiny, and no laundry. Have to park outside on a lower lot. But it is affordable.

I’m quite sad and discouraged about the future

I hope things start to improve for you and that you get help if you need it (which it sounds like possibly you could if things don't get better soon).

This is off topic, but did you used to go by another name here? Seems I remember someone posting often in the Czech Republic (my ancenstry is nearly pure Czech with a bit of German, hence the blond hair) but maybe by a different name? IDK, I've been away for awhile (since 2020, according to my log-in earlier this week, and God knows, I don't trust my memory on bipolar.

sorry for the mess.june is just around the corner. I hope your move is going to be easy for you.Glad it will be affordable.
sorry no laundry equipment.
perhaps take an advil PM or an allergy pill to help you sleep, for a few days.
Ask your pcp if that would be ok or even a pharmacist to see if that would be ok with your other meds.
(((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thankx bizi.

I painstakingly am trying to fix my face book page. I was hacked And it is a mess.
any body go thru this headache? I have been trying to change the password but I keep getting an error code.
so frustrating.I have to leave the browser up and open just minimizing it to save the logged in that I accomplished.
some how!
I am about ready to say good by face book.

bizi

Sounds difficult re: the house. Maybe try to almost view it as a stranger's house now? Just a space.

Re: the potential apartment - small spaces can be okay if they're organized well. Is the place updated and well managed? Is it easy walking distance to a grocery store and pharmacy? Is it on the ground floor, or if on an upper floor is there an elevator? Is it safe? Have there been any break-ins?


Those are some of the things I look at, anyway. Insuite laundry is fairly rare here but I tend to like the buildings that don't have the laundry in the basement. And that it is well-lit and has enough machines.

Hi all! I've had a busy few days (well for me these days - I am still recovering my mental and physical health). Went to a 3-hour writing group yesterday. The day before I went to the gym and worked out hard, then went grocery shopping and did some writing, then on Thursday I went to a live depression support group - for the first time in this city. It was pretty good.


Also I am down 7 POUNDS!!! Not much, but a big deal to me as I find it very hard to lose weight post-menopause. I have 40+ pounds to go.

It seems well managed. It has remote access, cameras, and it’s a high rise for low income seniors. They have carts by the door so you can unload your car at the door then take the cart up to your apartment. They do have a well lighted laundry room on first floor( the ground floor here in America). It’s just that I’m used to doing laundry in my pjs so I get and entire closet of clean clothes for the week. But now I’ll have to get dressed to do laundry. Parking is a problem as it’s outside and on a lower level you have to use stairs to access. Theirs nothing except the hospital in walking distance. So my car is paramount.

Congratulations on your weight loss!!!

It's nice to see you back here, @Blueberrybook! I remember you from 2020 and a bit before.

I used to be a member here under the name BirdDancer, but that was quite a while ago. I likely mentioned my husband being Czech back then, but didn't move abroad until early 2021.

It's nice to read that you enjoyed the Strawberry Festival, even despite rain. I'm looking forward to local strawberries. They are mostly available in Czech Republic in June. Those lucky enough to own a bit of land also often have wild strawberries in their lawns. The little wild buggers are amazing tasting. I've read that they are native to the Alps. The word "strawberries", in Czech, is "jahody", with the "j" pronounced like the English "y". Among the favorite Czech sweet treats are jahodové knedlíky (strawberry dumplings). In many Czech households, they are even eaten as a whole lunch. An excuse to eat a greater number of them!

Hi raspberrytorte. If you do get to the point of allowing your daughter to try meds, why not ask the psychiatrist about a moodstabilizer like Lamictal, or similar? It is good for bipolar depression with lower risk of causing mania than antidepressants. Low doses can help many people with few, if any, side effects, unlike other meds.

Forgive if I missed this, but is your daughter seeing a therapist?

Ugh the SH thoughts are back. I used the cold water approach to calm myself down and it worked. I was able to step back from the thoughts.

I think I'll try smoking to see if that helps. I asked a friend that smokes what to ask for at the store because I'm so green. I'll see if it helps the on going thoughts.

I attended a friend's birthday party. I was so stressed out because of it. Trying to act normal when I actually feel awful.

I tried to be present in the moment but it was hard because everyone was speaking another language that I don't understand.

Taking the extra Seroquel XR in the morning, did seem to help after a bit. I don't really like the idea of taking 800 mg of Seroquel per day, but assume that high of a dose will be temporary.

Tomorrow is my 25th wedding anniversary. Hubby and I will visit a pretty town a little drive away.

I told my mom my niece was contaigious and she didn't believe me. Now my mom has a cold and I'm just like "I told you so." I don't know what I'm dealing with still, I see the gastro doctor on Thursday, but I'm hoping if I get sick it won't make my issues worse. It is a concern of mine.

Anyways today I was just tired mainly. My brother has bad OCD and his rituals often wake me up at night and sometimes I can't fall back asleep for hours. My stomach was actually pretty ok most of the day, but I didn't eat much so that may be why. Besides the health stuff I didn't have much anxiety. Mood wise I feel ok too. I have therapy tommorow and I don't know what she'll say about anything. I did a lot of grounding and mindfullness and I used the anger iceberg. So even if my eating wasn't great she may not be too mad at me.

Happy silver anniversary soupe! Congratulations 🎈🎊🎉🍾 g

You have been very productive!Congratulations on your weight loss we are about the same weight and goals to weigh 40 pounds less. I think that is.
good luck in this here journey.Sounds like you are really working on you!

bizi

happy anniversary If you have made it this far then I think you will make it the long hall.
bizi

I've been tired today. I woke at 3 AM and couldn't go back to sleep. I put away the groceries (though I had them delivered, so I didn't even have to shop in the store). Not really in the mood to cook dinner.

I was hoping for a better mood today, but while still depressed it's not so bad as it had been with nearly constant thoughts that would have me typing nothing but trigger warnings if I wrote them out. So...I don't have those thoughts today at least. Fingers crossed the Vraylar is helping some, maybe?

Happy anniversary!

Happy anniversary Soupe du jour!

Hello!

She is seeing a therapist. We actually have a therapy appointment tomorrow morning So that's good. We'll see what her therapist has to say about her intrusive thoughts.

I just don't want to put her on meds because she's only eleven and I'm worried about them affecting her brain development negatively We're going to do it as a last resort.