Bipolar Check-In #76

@Sunflower123, that's great news that you found a new doctor so quickly, and easily. I hope he works out very well for you.

Thank you! And congrats to you with not having the cola, I used to drink like 6 or 7 sodas (full sugar) a day many years ago now I hardly ever drink one. I might get one if I go out to eat (which rarely happens) it was really hard the first month but eventually it got easier and now I just drink water or black unsweetened coffee. Keep up the good work!

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So happy to hear that Sunflower, I hope things go well with your new psychiatrist!

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I always feel better and sleep better after a good workout too I’m glad you’re anxiety is a little more manageable. One thing I’ve noticed when I’m regularly exercising is that my anxiety is a lot better.

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My weight loss journey begins NOW.

Good luck!

Good luck! I started back in may, it’s been rocky because I have a bingeing problem, but it’s gotten way easier and the exercise really does help my mental health! Good luck, you can do it!

Applying to another apartment. This one not as nice. We've decided public transportation isn't safe so we have to figure out how to keep the car and no more walking home late at night. Drs appointments have been made. Safety is our numbered one concern. Ever going home to Florida is out. I wish I could get ahold of my thoughts. I'm so happy for her and scared as hell. At least I'm stable right now. H is not stable right now. Any ideas on a new screen name? We're inviting to the intake clinic. I'm so glad we live here even though it makes me feel more disabled.

Well my first week
Of grad school
Is over.

I’m not feeling very confident

I had two diet colas today. I don't know what to do. One day at a time, i guess.

Everyone swears by walks to make themselves feel better. So i took one, even tho it's raining. It was just okay. Not a transformative experience. And now my dog stinks. Eau de Canine, eeew!

I did ok today. The weather was tough. I fell asleep tonight with the TV on and one earbud in with my music. When I woke up the first thing I saw was that mans face and immediatly thought of how my cranky cat looks when he's pissed. I fell asleep with my fleece blanket on and I feel dehydrated and headachy right now. But my stomach is fine

Crying tonight. Why can't love be unconditional?

@Blue_Bird Congratulations!!

@Sunflower123 That's wonderful!!

@HALLIEBETH87 I'm sorry your first week of grad school seems to be off to a rough start. Hang in there!

Have a good day everyone!

Today was okay. Went to work and trained at my new job for a couple hours and then came home and relaxed and hung out with my roommate and my dogs. Ended up having leftover hot wings for dinner. Just realized I totally forgot to take my medication with dinner though, so now I have to go deal with that.

I had been trying to touch base with my daughter and when she didn’t respond I was a bit hurt. I made assumptions. As it turns out, she was sick with COVID, had to fire a few employees at work and had the lease terminated on the apartment hit by a tornado (everyone did) all while her fiancée is immobilized while he recovers from knee surgery. They had to move out quickly to her fiancée’s parent’s house. She has gone to Florida to recuperate for a few days. Bless her heart.

I’ve got up my nerve to investigate my storage contents today. I lost the keys to the old locks and had to purchase new locks. The manager would then cut off the old locks. When I got there, there were NO locks on my 3 units. How long have they been unprotected? What is or is not behind those doors? I’ll address that pronto and file a police report if need be. I have insurance but you can’t replace some personal and sentimental stuff. Fingers crossed.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Hi @Rosi700. I'm sorry for such a delayed response. I'll admit that I've done a bit of avoidance lately, as a type of coping mechanism. I even refused to talk to my sister on the phone a few days back, when she asked if I wanted to. I know avoidance isn't always good, though. With limitations. Anyway, I'm better now than I was right before your post above.

I believe I know what you're referring to about the "box for translations". I think there might even be phone apps that do similar. I certainly should look into that, perhaps not to totally depend on, but rather as a backup.

The psychiatric hospital Bohnice is the most well-known in Czech Republic. In fact, many here even say "Going to Bohnice" to mean any psychiatric hospital or even casually about a person who acts a little wild. My husband's nephew has been there as a patient in the past, and said it is pleasant. It is more so nowadays than in the past, though. I learned about that hospital a long time ago. My father-in-law, whom I never met, was a psychiatrist in Prague.


Thank you for caring and reassuring me, Rosi. You are a dear person!

Thanks!

While I don't have a binging problem, I definitely have an overeating problem! Hoping on getting my eating under control. And my Coke zero consumption. I am DETERMINED.

Courtesy of it being hotter than hellfire here yesterday, no one came out to shut off my water. Small mercies, I guess. I don't want to push it though. If I don't pay anything by the end of the day, I have no water until Monday at the earliest. I'd rather not end my work week and/or go to the doc Monday sans shower.

As much as I don't want to, I think I'm going to ask family for help. I'll take the hit to my pride.

Speaking of pride, part of the tooth my dentist managed to chip (more broke a quarter of it off) last visit gave way. So, 3/4 of a tooth is now 1/2 a tooth. Fantastic.

I'm going to have to find a better dentist to make a game plan with. My dental problems need more than brushing and flossing to solve. Some are definitely my fault, but others (see above) are definitely not.

Remember that what you're doing isn't easy, so be patient with yourself. Do the readings and assignments as best as you can and do them one at a time. You got this!

I’ve had such a bad headache since last night. Been taking paracetamol and nurofen but it’s not really working.

Taking my son to swimming lessons this morning, then going to my partner’s folks place for lunch, then going to do my weekly grocery shop. Just feeling like I have zero energy to do any of it. Tomorrow we’re taking my 4 year old son to a monster jam truck show. He’s been waiting months for the show so hope it’s good.

Haven’t left home in a week except for Tuesday when I took Sir to the vet and went to lunch with my sister. A big part of it was the weather, Hot 🥵. But also some of it is the long walk down the hall way, the elevator and then to my car. It not so easy as just stepping into the garage and getting in the car. I need groceries but it’s such a pain. I did get dressed today but lacked the motivation to actually leave and do errands. I do get meals m-t-th-f so that’s enough that groceries aren’t essential. One meal a day plus yogurt is great plenty. But tomorrow I’ll need my salads and something to eat. Plus I have an art class at 3pm so I must go to that. Plus I’m running low on soy milk for my morning chai.

I have a feeling that it’s going to be very, very hard to leave my apartment once winter gets here. I have chewy for Sirs food. And I’ve gone without for a lot longer than a week. And if it comes down to it I can always get food delivered. But I need to socialize too. I see my pdoc next week and need to bring up this apathy. I’ve missed a month of aqua fitness and two weeks of games at the senior center. Need to push myself.

I haven't felt good all day. Physically. I slept fine last night but I've been so lethargic I couldn't take a shower again and my caffeine didn't help. I've just been in bed all day, I haven't even had the TV on. I had zoom therapy and I did it lying down under a blanket. She was cool with it. Kinda tough on the shower issue though so we made a shower goal. No issues with therapy though.

Afterwards I really wasn't feeling good so I dozed off for half an hour and felt decent when I woke up but now I don't feel good again and my blood pressure is 97 over something. Still in range but I am for sure off my game more than I normally am.

My niece was over and I had to watch her while my mom went to the bathroom because my niece has discovered my cats water and food bowsl. She was about to start crying when my mom left so I said "whats cookie monster doing? Is he driving a car?" And she got distracted.

But man that kid and Sesame Street. It was on all day

I might have to go to immediate care tommrow. I have a rash on my leg that is red and swollen and warn. I just noticed it tonight. Its iritating and itchy. I dont know if thats why I've been so tired today.

I've had cellulitis twice and I know if you get it once your more likely to get it again.

I took my dog to the vet this morning because she has a booboo on her hip which isn't healing. Turns out it's a bacterial and yeast infection and she has to be on antibiotics and i have to clean it. The vet was concerned because she's lost weight and took blood and urine samples and will get back to me with the results early next week. Hope everything is okay. He said her eyes are getting cloudy but that it's age-related and expected. Poor thing is getting older. She'll be 11 in October. Dogs don't last long in this building.

It went smoothly but i had anxiety nonetheless. One really bad wave when they said they had a cancellation in 90 minutes and i was so rushed, but it's passed now. I guess no one likes taking their pet to the vet. It's so upsetting and expensive and hard on your pet.

I was miserable all morning and afternoon because of the diet cola withdrawal. But i've perked up now that i survived a powerful craving in the late afternoon. I'm really happy i lasted it out. I don't think i would have made it if the convenience store in our building wasn't closed. It's closed all weekend while the family that run it take a vacation. Probably for the best, with me so new in my abstinence. I considered going to the mall. Madness. What saved me today was playing solitaire.

@jane once more;.

It is so hard to go to the vet. I hope the weight loss isn’t anything concerning and that she takes her antibiotics well.

Thanks for the kind words, Nammu. I really appreciate it. How is Sir doing?