Bipolar Check-in #87

I was so lethargic this morning. I didn't fully wake up until noon after I had an iced latte with oatmilk. I needed it for sure. I slept ok last night but I think I need to put my blood pressure med at night instead of the AM. I was trying everything to stay awake. I did 500 push ups and I had protein and I had the TV on. But I couldn't keep my eyes open and I kept drifting off.

Now I'm fully alert and doing laundry. I cleaned my room yesterday and I organized my freezer and fridge. Now its just the huge amount of laundry I need to do and everything will be pretty cleaned up.

I'm feeling pretty good overall after the med increases.

I took my blood pressure after the emergency iced latte and it was normal! Even after coffee. It seems the BP med is working. My mom did my med box and put the med in the PM slot. So I won't be so tired during the day and needing coffee.

4 hours of sleep last night. I have felt better.

Sunday morning here. Going to the recycling depo soon then will go to the grocery store. After the grocery store will go to a cafe for an early lunch. Yesterday I ate half a salad and kept the other half for dinner because I just wasn’t hungry. Wegovy slows the rate at which your stomach empties leaving you feeling fuller for longer.

I’ve spent a long time in bed. Got up at 10 like I said I would but after an hour up and the chai I couldn’t stay awake. Went back to bed, didn’t sleep but had cool waking dreams. Took place at my aunts house but with the addition of boardwalks and rivers and stores. Cool smart dogs. Got up feeling much better. Not enough sleep at night to dream. Seems I need to have some much dreaming time to function!

Not sure yet but tomorrow may be going to my last living aunt and uncles place. My daughter is calling today to see if they are up to visiting. They are my favorite aunt and uncle, always interested in the world. They are both in their 90’s now. If they are up to it my daughter will be driving. Rochester makes me very nervous. So many bad drivers and so much construction. Every time I go there the streets have changed. One ways and new streets, and new intersections, more and more roundabouts!

Today is a lazy day. Just catch up on my dishes and my book.

I feel you on the city driving. I can drive through Boston on the interstates no problem usually, but put me on those spaghetti streets, and I get real lost real fast. I was once down near the border and heard a traffic report "I'm in the Sumner tunnel and no one's given me the finger so far!" Then with stuff like tunnels having chunks fall off the walls/ceiling doesn't make me feel that good either. The more I drive down there though I realize there's less really "bad" drivers as in unskilled, but a lot of aggressive drivers.

Glad your daughter's driving you though if you go, that should make things easier, but I also know being a passenger can have just as many, if not more, white knuckle moments.

One of my neighbors gave me a cabinet today and a table. So now I have a dedicated art table. My other table I’m using for my laptop and printer but this one is for doing art at.

Here’s a pic of the art table and the cabinet I got

I’m pretty happy with how my living room looks now
Anyway i feel okay. Overwhelmed and stressed from the past few days so feel very tired and overstimulated so trying to relax now

Very nice blue bird.

Slept a bit but feel done it. I hope I'll sleep tonight! @Blue_Bird - I love your art table and new furniture setup!

Had a Mac Donald’s latte and apple slices. Not the best but there’s nothing else there I can eat. My son had chicken nuggets. My partner did not have a cheeseburger thank goodness. Went grocery shopping and bought crumbed fish and chicken kiev for the week. Oh and I bought diet ginger beer so it doesn’t have sugar in it. Doing my best to be healthy. Weighed in today and I’ve lost more weight since Friday. Go me. It’s the small wins that count.

@Mountaindewed
What are you on for your blood pressure? I was taking propranolol (a beta blocker) for tremors but it's normally a blood pressure med, and now I take clonidine (well, took, but would still take if I needed it) because it's good for sleep, anxiety, nightmares, and ADHD but it also supposed to be an antihypertensive (an alpha-agonist). I did initially just start it at a desperate attempt for sleep, but it actually helped my PTSD symptoms A LOT and I started sleeping soooo well when I started it.

Nice set up you got there @Blue_Bird!

@MuddyBoots I take Amlodipine. Its not a beta blocker. Its a calcium channel blocker. But I take propranolol for anxiety.

Thanks Blueberry, Nammu and Muddy, I’m happy with how it looks! Wasn’t sure what I’d do with the cabinet but I ended up doing this

Congrats on the weight loss!

Nammu I hope you get your painting books soon and enjoy them! It’s awesome you’re painting as well

Sorry I haven’t been on as much or replying as much lately had a stressful and also busy week so mind was a bit scattered.

I have a volunteer shift with the cat rescue tomorrow. I have 3 scheduled shifts for March which is nice. Looking forward to getting back to that. Other than that I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow then making a chicken enchilada casserole in the crockpot in the evening. I’ll probably be up late because it will take like 5 hours to cook and I won’t be back home from getting the groceries for it till like 5:30pm. So yeah it’s gonna be late when it finishes but I can just eat some then out the rest of it away before bed for meals for the next several days.

Hope you all are having a great weekend!

I applied to some jobs yesterday

Blue bird that cabinet looks nice. Simple and clean. Many people would clutter it up with too many small objects. That’s looking very good.

I think the books will be here Tuesday

Thank you! And that’s great!

Yeah there were a lot of objects in it when I got it and she asked if I wanted to keep them and I said no, because I didn’t want a lot of clutter. I like it simple. So I just put some carefully chosen meaningful items of my own in there. I’m weird about how I keep my apartment I like it to look lived in but not like cluttered. I’m kind of a neat freak. I like things to be super organized and not look overwhelming. Something about clutter really messes with my anxiety and overall mood. I just feel mentally better in a clean tidy uncluttered environment. I grew up with my mom who had somewhat hoarding tendencies and it drove me nuts.

Hey yall!
What can I say??
wednesday I over drank and was blacked out had hubby make microwave me another bowel because I was sure that had not had dinner.
I don't remember that at all. It was left over pork stew.
We had a very good pesto chicken and brocolli. It was wonderful!

I am not religious at all but I am giving up alcohol for lent.
and will try to watch my carb intake sort of like a diet.
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Congrats on making some healthy lifestyle changes bizi!

Feeling a little under the weather today, which may be why I'm feeling irritable. I think it's allergies (my eyes have been itching all week) but it could be yet another cold. I bought some allergy meds to take to see if those help-I accidentally bought the wrong ones but hopefully what I did buy will help at least a little bit.

My IV fluids appointment went well today. It was one of my two favorite nurses who helped me and she did a good job. I was able to do a little grading while I was receiving my fluids. Maybe I've mentioned this-I do get lonely at my IV appointments. My brain also tries to tell me that I'm not sick enough to be there despite the fact that it is these IVs that have given me so much of my life back and, sometimes, it's a night and day difference for how I feel before my IV versus after it. I get a little bit of an imposter syndrome because I am often in and out while other people are there for hours getting their infusions.

Nutrition wise, I didn't do very good today. Went for a lot of comfort foods. I think it's because I just felt emotionally off today.

my hands are on the keyboard but there is a cat on my hands haha

hope you feel better june

I slept good last night despite sleeping most of the morning. I did wake up around 9 with bad heartburn but I took some tums.

I did 500 push ups and then I finally got my contacts in. The right one went in really easy. The left one took about 15 minutes with a 5 minute break. My left eye kinda stings. Not sure if thats normal.

But being able to see without glasses is amazing. And I can see around me too. So I'm seeing better then if I had glasses on. I hope I just don't poke at my eyes. I rub my eyes a lot when I'm stressed.

It wasn't feeling right so I took it out. It took just 2 trys to get it in this time and now they both feels fine and I'm seeing really good.

I slept much better last night, thank goodness. I just feel better today. I don't have a lot of time to reply to individual posts but have read them all. @Crazy Hitch congrats on the weight loss! I am on propranol not for blood pressure but for anxiety, it is apparently used off-label for anxiety. I used to take Clonidine, helped the ADHD but made me so tired. @Nammu it is awesome that you are getting the art books. To display pics from an ipad I believe you download the pic to a hosting site (same from a computer, save your pic as a pdf, then upload to postimages). I use a free hosting site called postimags Postimages — free image hosting / image uploadThenupload your image it gives you display options; I use forum thumnail. I have never tried it from an iphone or ipad though.