[Mountaindewed]

I'm doing good today. I need to get more black shirts but thats about it. I thought I might need to get my haircut but I took a shower this morning and brushed my hair and its fine.

I feel ok mental health wise and physically. I think I'd feel better once my sunglasses come and I can see better.

I think I'm going to get some of those cookies mentioned in the weight loss thread.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm doing well today. Took a walk, showered, had breakfast, read with the SAD lamp and painted. I painted a cherry pie today, but it's sort of meh. I almost am starting to think my paintings come out best when I start on wet, and those are the ones mark with high difficulty in my book! These last few have had dry starts; I don't care for those as much. After lunch, I am going to the library with my daughter. She is finally getting less scary to drive the library route since she's driven it many times now.

I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!

[Nammu]

Oh funny blueberry, I’m the opposite, I like dry over wet any day.

Today I have to return the too large frame and get a smaller one. Then go to class. This is the last class. Today we do touch ups and framing.

It’s hot in here, I turned the air on but it’s still 73 and stuffy. Partly because the humidity is high.

[Blueberrybook]

@Crazy Hitch - How exciting your mom is coming to your wedding! That's fantastic news! Has she not even been able to meet your son in person yet?

@Lady Shadow - Wellbutrin never did much for me in the way of depression, but maybe it would you? Cymbalta has long been a godsend for me, but everyone is different. I can only take a low dose though otherwise I sometimes end up with mania. It might definitely be worth trying something since you are having such low moods most evenings and several days of the week as well, if I recall. What meds are you on right now?

[Blue_Bird]

There were so many cool fish and creatures at the aquarium! I took tons of videos and photos. Here’s just a couple pics

[Blue_Bird]

A few more pics

I also got a beautiful video of a big sea turtle swimming around but I can’t post videos on here

There’s are just a fraction of the pics. I took TONS of pics and videos lol

[Blueberrybook]

Looks like the aquarium was a lot of fun! Those are some cool pictures!

[June08]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

I will look into Welbutrin. I am so hesitant of changing medicines because my body reacts so strongly to things, especially mental health meds, so I will have to see. But I have to do something about all the bad feelings.

@LadyShadow I take 150 mg of Wellbutrin. When I first started it, I noticed a big improvement with my depression symptoms. My pdoc had me try a higher dose, but it made me EXTREMELY irritable so 150 mg it is. It hasn't kept me depression free, but I do think it helps.

[MuddyBoots]

Weather is really sucky today so am trying to math it up. Integrating by parts can be kind of a nightmare. I’m pretty sure one question can involve every single lesson I’ve covered in calc until this point. I did 12 problems and it took 10 notebook pages, and they were all multiple choice so with some at a point I didn’t finish just chose the only one that could be right.

[LadyShadow]

@Blueberrybook and @June08 - I am REALLY scared to start another medicine; I will be honest. I have been hospitalized SO many times in my life; it's bringing me to tears right now. I know the lows are really bad, but if there is even a CHANCE that mania will come again, I will fight through the really bad days. I lost SO MUCH with that manic episode, I absolutely can't afford it again. Yes, it's true I have some severely bad days, but I am not manic and am somewhat stable and able to function, work, not spend a lot of money, and am mostly sensible. Just weighing the risks is just too much. I am currently on Risperdone and Lithium.

@Blue_Bird - the aquarium looks amazing! I wish there was something like that in my area I could visit. I love the shark and crab and all the fish! I love your painting @Blueberrybook ! It looks really good! @Nammu - I broke down and just put on my AC after about a week. We had gotten away with some really nice days, and it was even around 50 degrees at night. But that's now over! Here comes summer!

Today I am better than I have been. Work has been very slow the last two days, but I made enough to carry myself through this week. I am not worrying about it till Monday and going to try and enjoy my weekend. I have some fun things planned like going to see John Wick Ballerina tomorrow and possibly watching Lost in Space on Netflix later. I reached out and spoke to a lot of my friends today, and I think I realize I need to do that more often, so I don't fall in despair. Also going to start working on some penpal letters now I have to write. Made some new friends on my penpal site, so I have some more letters to write.

[Nammu]

Shadow I absolutely understand. I live in fear of manic episodes. My last experience I lost everything. Depression I can deal with using coping skills I’ve learned but mixed and mania, nope. That’s why my life is so mundane now and I’m not messing with meds. I’m soo tempted to go off the AP cause I know I’ll lose weight but then I think of the cost. Nope, not doing it.

[Crazy Hitch]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

@Crazy Hitch - How exciting your mom is coming to your wedding! That's fantastic news! Has she not even been able to meet your son in person yet?

@Lady Shadow - Wellbutrin never did much for me in the way of depression, but maybe it would you? Cymbalta has long been a godsend for me, but everyone is different. I can only take a low dose though otherwise I sometimes end up with mania. It might definitely be worth trying something since you are having such low moods most evenings and several days of the week as well, if I recall. What meds are you on right now?

No can you believe she’s never met my younger son in person so that’s another win!

[June08]

My day is going well so far. It's not quite 5 pm yet so I've still got some time before bed. I had a good phone call with a friend who lives out of state, had a so-so call with my mom, went to the pharmacy, ran a couple of errands, read, and walked on my walking pad. I'm noticing people feel like I should be doing more with my summer vacation-that just resting isn't okay. To be fair, I did try to get a job that would fit my work schedule after summer was over, but that didn't work out. I might still try to get a job-we'll see. And, I don't have a lot of money so it's not like I can travel. But, also, what's wrong with just resting and recovering for a bit? Ever since I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, having to busy of a schedule has been hard for me to handle mentally/emotionally. And, getting to sleep in for as long as my body needs has been amazing. With how overwhelmed I've been feeling, having slower days helps with that.

Do i wish I had more people to get together with-sure. But, I do have this new study group so that's something. Even though it's not in person, I also have you all.

I don't know where I'm going with all of this. Maybe, just that I feel a little misunderstood, but that makes sense since I can't really talk to anyone in my life about my mental health to tell them why a slower schedule is helpful for me in some ways.

[MuddyBoots]

I get to go home tomorrow!!! I hope they’re done, the notice said it will be until at least Friday evening, but they shouldn’t be working weekends anyway so no one will be needing to enter my apartment.

[Mountaindewed]

I finally after months, got my closet fixed. I dealt with the 4 overflowing baskets and the clothes hanging up. It took about 1.5 hours. I kept taking breaks because my back was hurting.

Afterwards I was so worn out I chugged a bottle of water with Liquid IV and I got under my bamboo blanket. I am so out of shape.

But I finally got it done. It was really stressing me out. That and the garage I got done last week.

I still need to do laundry and get that put away. I'll do it tommorow. The iron is helping my energy levels a lot.

I think I have another UTI. I have pain and burning and itching and the at home test came back postive. I don't know why I'm getting them all of a sudden.

[Blue_Bird]

The pie looks great @Blueberrybook !!

I’ve been a little distracted today so am a little behind on posts. I painted with one of my friends over video chat today after I got home from the aquarium. I got extremely sunburnt so I ordered some aloe Vera sunburn relief gel which comes tomorrow and stocked up on sunscreen since I stupidly have none. I’m extremely sensitive to the sun. It’s gotten worse with the meds. They make me a lot more sensitive to heat and sunlight. I burn so rapidly.

Anyway, here’s a fish I painted

This weekend I’m making homemade bread. They’re these chocolate chip rolls.

I still have enough credit in my fandango account to see two movies so I’m gonna try to go see something next weekend. And then again later in the month. I just need a break from the sun this weekend so I’m staying indoors. My arms look like a lobster

[LadyShadow]

Had one of the best days I've had in a while. Hallelujah, these days are rare, so I am celebrating them.

[Crazy Hitch]

Chatted to my mother via WhatsApp for agesss today about the wedding and her flying over from America. Was soooo nice.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

A few more pics

I also got a beautiful video of a big sea turtle swimming around but I can’t post videos on here

There’s are just a fraction of the pics. I took TONS of pics and videos lol

Nice! I wanna go to Georgia aquarium and see the whale sharks!!’!!! I went to the Nashville zoo and got to pet kangaroos last week

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

Nice! I wanna go to Georgia aquarium and see the whale sharks!!’!!! I went to the Nashville zoo and got to pet kangaroos last week

Awww kangaroos are so cute, that’s so awesome! I hope you’re able to go to the Georgia aquarium!

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by June08

My day is going well so far. It's not quite 5 pm yet so I've still got some time before bed. I had a good phone call with a friend who lives out of state, had a so-so call with my mom, went to the pharmacy, ran a couple of errands, read, and walked on my walking pad. I'm noticing people feel like I should be doing more with my summer vacation-that just resting isn't okay. To be fair, I did try to get a job that would fit my work schedule after summer was over, but that didn't work out. I might still try to get a job-we'll see. And, I don't have a lot of money so it's not like I can travel. But, also, what's wrong with just resting and recovering for a bit? Ever since I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, having to busy of a schedule has been hard for me to handle mentally/emotionally. And, getting to sleep in for as long as my body needs has been amazing. With how overwhelmed I've been feeling, having slower days helps with that.

Do i wish I had more people to get together with-sure. But, I do have this new study group so that's something. Even though it's not in person, I also have you all.

I don't know where I'm going with all of this. Maybe, just that I feel a little misunderstood, but that makes sense since I can't really talk to anyone in my life about my mental health to tell them why a slower schedule is helpful for me in some ways.

Nothing wrong with resting! I get overwhelmed when I have busy days too. It’s nice to rest when you’re able to I struggle when my schedule is busy too. Even with just like errands. After one or two errands during the day I feel like just laying around at home the rest of the day. I get tired easily too. Nothing wrong with resting whenever you can, some people require more down time after outings or busy schedules and that’s completely okay

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Had one of the best days I've had in a while. Hallelujah, these days are rare, so I am celebrating them.

Glad you had a great day!!

[Moose72]

Today’s the big garage sale in my mom’s neighborhood. N3 is on his way. The air quality seems fine now but the weather said it’s supposed to be bad at some point.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel pretty good today. Last night I was fine all night without any depression. I slept pretty well but I woke up at 2:30 and I was up for a bit and then I fell back asleep until 6:30 and I had trouble waking up.

My sunglasses are out for delivery and it will be so nice to see since they are prescription and also not be bothered by the light. I'm hoping they help out my stomach issues.

I don't have any plans today. I need to do laundry and finish my closet but thats about it.

I think my UTI went away. I think they can go away on their own.