Bipolar Check-In #91

Good morning, sort of. My head is doing the Wobblies. I don’t actually wake up til I’ve been up several hours.

So I'm trying to shop for my mom's house I will only be there around 3 days plus the one to get there and get back. I'm only missing 1 therapy day. My mom said not to worry just get stuff for me when I get there I really hate that I have to go. I'm not comfortable with going with out H.

Things have been pretty calm today. I haven't had any issues besides some anxiety about these next few weeks. I didn't do anything today but things are fairly clean in my room and closet.

I've had a doozy of a day. Last night, I forgot to take my night meds. Predictability I had chills and sweats all night and horrible nightmares. I woke up shaky, hot and cold, feeling weak. Took my morning meds, hoped it would help...Nope! Finally, I just had to take my night meds and I finally fell into a halfway decent sleep. I feel like a truck ran me over though.

This is the 2nd night med mixup I've made this week! First time, I accidentally took 2 doses and double dosed and last night I forgot them totally. Would be nice if side effects from doing that would level out right away, but unfortunately not.

I've read all the posts. Sorry I'm not up to commenting these days. My thoughts are with all of you.

@Blueberrybook can you get med packs if your not changing medication at your pharmacy? It takes a while to get it all lined up but it may help.

I got frustrated its that Compazine stuff they prescribed in the ER. It just is making me really irritated and agitated. So I got rid of it.

I'm feeling ok now.

I just got done doing my usual chores.

Was going to re-dye my hair today, but I don't know if that's happening. I hate dyeing my hair, but I also don't like grays.

My appointment with the new ob/gyn on Monday has me REALLY anxious feeling. I'm worried she's just going to blame everything on my meds and not take me seriously. I have this pain on my left side where I believe my ovary is. It's bothered me before. I just thought it was a one time incident, but now it's bothering me again.

I'm SERIOUSLY resisting the urge to just cancel this appointment!!!! That's how anxious I am about it. I just... hate meeting new doctors.

I don't know how long I'd have to sleep for for how many days at this point to ever get caught up. I got my blood work back. My sugar was low-ish around 60. I bet it's lower now. At the library right now, but when I get home I think I'm gonna hop in the shower and just crash out on my bed.

I hate that the page ate my post. I'm isolating. I'm numb. feel drugged. H said I can cancel with my nutritionist. I guess I have to talk to my new T about it. We're trying to figure out what to do tomorrow. V said she'll go to a late lunch and cake as long as she's home by 8 pm and a new nurse comes tomorrow. I'm trying to at least be social here.

So after spending a week tidying up my house from top to bottom my son can’t make it today. Work have called him in for a shift 😞

@Crazy Hitch

I'm so sorry 😞

I'm sorry @Crazy Hitch.

I swear I even did my windows and the skirting boards.

I've had it with a neighbor who is like Jekyll and Hyde. One time he ignores me. Not others, just me. Next time he's warm and friendly. I know he's going thru a hard time but if he doesn't respect me and isn't mature enough at 55 to be civil, i don't want to know him.

Had a good morning, moving around the city, but being ruthlessly disciplined about shutting out irrelevant stimuli, especially keeping my eyes cast down and away from peoples' faces. It worked great! Downtown i pretended i was deaf and dumb, and ignored the vendors' manipulative overtures, and motioned to items i wanted, and refused to use my voice.

I changed into a pretty sundress and sunhat in the afternoon, and sat outside in the garden in the warm Summer day drinking a cold beer. It was almost comical how magically men responded to my pretty outfit, one guy holding the gate for me, another saying "It was a pleasure to see [me] as always," when he never seemed to particularly like me before. Summer!

I realized that this recent five-month-long episode of high mood, which is still unravelling six weeks later, is my first in menopause, and that is likely why it was so intense. I've joined the "We Do Not Care Club" on TikTok for women in peri-menopause and menopause. The leader gives announcements on things women don't care about anymore. Like i wore a simple flowered Summer nightie and moccasins to the gym in my building (i had it all to myself) and didn't care. It's pretty and comfortable and i do not care anymore!

Holding thumbs I’ve just sold my CPAP machine for $500! Got someone coming here at 6:00pm to pick it up. That’s $500 straight into my wedding savings account.

I'm melting. The cooling system in my apartment complex currently isn't working and it's over 100 outside. The repair man is currently trying to fix it. He's been here for awhile. I hope he's done soon.

Today has been fuller than my days typically are. I helped at church for a bit, had an IV appointment, got a surprise phone call from a friend who lives in a different state, and made a quick trip to the library. I would have stayed at the library a bit to enjoy their a/c, but it isn't really set up to just sit and read at. It's only about 4:30 pm so I'm not sure what I'll do with the rest of my day. Probably start one of my new library books, play on my phone, and see if there is anything good on TV.

My mood continues to be stable.

I am sorry to be gone and then be back.
My mood has been stable thank goodness.
I have to tell you about zepbound. the weight loss medication the I administer once a week. It is a very small needle and stings for a second
when I inject the medication.
I have lost 14 pounds in 10 weeks. I really can't tell that I have lost the weight. But I will continue taking the injections. they are expensive! I had better lose weight. I am trying to be eating sensibly. The medication takes away your appetite so you eat less.
It however doesn't take away my alcohol cravings like I thought it would.
any way it is a journey. It cost me $500 a month. My insurance doesn't cover the cost. I need to make sure of that. I never called.
I should call them first thing monday morning.
I am curious if any of the members are taking the injections?

were did the premiere pooba forum go? I don't see it any more. Does that mean I was kicked out for some unknown reason?
bizi

I just checked - its still there?

And yes i am taking ozempic. A few other people are taking stuff. Check the weigh loss forums. I am on my 4th week.

Ozempic here too. I just replied to your thread. I’ve had a lot of success and I know I’ll reach my goal weight in 6 weeks time!

I’m on top of a lot of shyt that is not at all together. Just rolling on the very loose stool over here.

I’m so scared about tomorrow’s OBGYN appointment. It’s somebody I haven’t met before. And I really don’t think this iud will just pull out like it’s supposed to as the stem is bent upwards and the arms are facing down instead of up like a T. They said to take Motrin 30 minutes before hand but the iud is embedded impart way through the wall of my uterus. Any further and it would’ve come out the other side! I think I either need stronger meds or to get it out at the ER. I tried to feel the strings and could not. They are nowhere to be found! Which also makes this a difficult/unusual removal. I wrote my primary doctor in the portal asking for help! I’ve known her since 1997 and trust her completely.

Me too! I want to cancel this embedded/bent IUD removal as I think it gonna hurt like a *****!

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I've been up since 4:30 my nurse already came.I cant isolate today, everyone is going to call me. I don't feel quite as bad as yesterday so that's good. I'm waiting for my earbuds and the clothing that I bought for my mom's house because I have to be modest but they have no AC and I need help dressing so my mom said she'd help but I'm hoping shirts with built in bras will work. but I don't think it will. I'm rather pessimistic lately. I didn't want to spend money on clothes but I have nothing suitable for their house.