Bipolar Check-In #91

I'm not sure my pharmacy does this or if they do how much extra it would cost since I'm on a ton of meds? I suppose I can check.

@raspberrytorte I think I'd go crazy if I had to go off meds that long when I'm in the hospital. Heck, for all I know I am blanked out and psychotic for 4, 5, 6 days when I'm in the hospital without much memory at all for those days so I have no idea how I feel physically or otherwise. I can't retain any fluid memory of those times. I am glad the melatonin helped you sleep. I have found the Natrol 10 mg melatonin gummies on top of my night meds really help me sleep. I usually end up taking 2-3 of those an hour or so after I take my night meds and I've found they help so much!

Sorry for everyone I've missed. I can't reply to everyone my week has been so screwed up first by double dosing on my night meds then by accidentally skipping my night meds about the time I got back to normal from the double dose.

Anyway, I slept well last night, went for a jog this morning and had grocery curbside pickup. Put away the groceries, read a bit with the SAD lamp and had breakfast. I was doing OK up to a point and then I just started feeling off and like I might cry at any moment. I folded laundry, and I did a watercolor painting, that helped a bit. I still feel kind of low. Hopefully, it's just adjusting to the med mistakes along with my hormones. After days of spotting, one day of nothing, I'm now spotting enough for a pad and I had ovary pain today, so something is going on with my hormones, perimenopause is the pits. I can't even tell is this spotting a period or not?!

Anyway, my watercolor paper warped after that day I spilled all the water over my hamburger watercolor, so my painting didn't turn out as well as I'd hoped. I painted a rainbow cocktail drink.

Everyone called, today wasn't as bad as I expected.I'm going out later tonight. Still worried about having ice cream cake but whatever it's only a couple of times a year.

Sounds like you are having a wonderful weekend! I'm so happy for you Why is the church so hot? Does it not have AC? Or just it has AC that doesn't work well?

Actually the one who is taking it out isn’t the one who put it in. I made sure of that. But I don’t know anything about the new one so who knows. My favorite OBGYN is rarely in the office or I’d’ve requested her.

If you have Benadryl on hand tylenol pm is essentially acetaminophen (Tylenol) and diphenhydramine/Benadryl from what I recall. It can mess with your moods though (but so can lack of sleep and pain).

I slept an hour. Feeling much better.

The other day was the 20th anniversary of my mental health issues starting. I was 13 and I had a rough few years. I got my **** together when I was 18 and I've only been in the hospital once since 2009.

I'm having dinner with my uncle and aunt tommorow. I hope they don't prod me about whats going on. My aunt knows. I just don't want to deal/talk about it.

I've been fine today. I'm totally off the Topamax now and I haven't had an issue being off it. Actually a lot of things have improved including odd things like I'm not doing much retail therapy.

I have to go in to the bank today to put the $500 cash from the cpap machine into my wedding savings account. Yay Ive been trying to sell it for a while now! I got lucky yesterday!

Then my son wants to go to the toy store to buy a submarine. Of all things lol.

Well that wasn’t as bad as I expected. It was the annual cousins picnic and this year was my sisters and my turn to host it. We had it at a park in a pavilion. I wasn’t looking forward to the set up. But it went much smoother than I expected. My family is good about having me do things I can do sitting. So I taped all the tablecloths to the tables. I bought the plates, silverware, bowls and tablecloths, napkins and paper towels. My oldest sister brought the sloppy joes and chips, my middle sister brought hot dogs and buns.

Worked out well, everyone had a good time and got to talk to cousins I haven’t seen in years. The weather cooperated and was only 81 with a nice breeze. Sun. The Canadian smoke lifted and cleared out. Really it couldn’t have been better. My Florida cousins are next to put it on.

@Nammu - I could never host a picnic like that! I'm glad it went well I guess it's good then that I don't actually have any cousins. We always do a Sister Day in the summer, my 2 sisters & I. But I feel bad; I'm never able to plan it, my other 2 sisters switch off. We do things like going to courses (edible local plants, pottery, painting, etc.), eating out, going on nature walks, etc. Just one day for the 3 of us.

Oh that’s nice blueberry. A sister day! We should do that. I grew up having cousins picnics. At first they were my parent’s cousins. Both sides of the family had a picnic. they were huge back then. Often we went to campgrounds and spent the whole weekend. The ones we have now are much smaller and only a few hours. Now it’s those of us born in the 60’s that host it. And only on my dad’s side of the family get together. It’s not too bad, just bring the plates and silverware and a main course like sloppy joes and hot dogs. The other people bring salads, fruit, dessert and presto there’s enough food to feed an army. The fruit today was sooo good.

- @Blueberrybook- it's actually this whole complicated thing with the city and the church. Apparently, the church's AC is knocking out the transformer in the street, and the city is tired of replacing it. So It's becoming a pointing fingers problem that no one wants to pay for. All I know is, it's really hard to deal with and I am losing the connection I feel when I go to mass. Maybe by next week they will fix it I don't know. Glad you had a good day though, and you slept better, your painting looks great! Very fruity!

I had a Strawberry milkshake for the first time in years earlier and it totally knocked me out into a diabetic nap, lol. But it was so worth it. Doing laundry now after I read a little bit more of my Star Wars book, and now I am just hoping for a phone call. But you know, if he doesn't call it's okay - I always have my best friend to talk to, and so much to look forward to. Going to really start working on career planning tomorrow, there is so much I have to do!

Hope everyone is enjoying their day! @Moose72 - I am so sorry you are going through this, sending healing hugs to you.

Not being able to sleep very much has made for a very long day! I didn’t even go anywhere! Trying to see who can help move my new bed next weekend. Sleeping on the couch is okay but I guess I didn’t sleep very much because I’m worried about tomorrow.

Dinner was nice, just took my gabipentin.

Still waiting on the electrician so I can go to the bank. He’s installing a new smoke detector because ours is more than 10 years old

Good evening, had a good day. Went to the pharmacy and also painted and took a nap. Spent some time watching Pokemon.

Yesterday I painted too.

Today was day 3 of the trileptal decrease in preparation to increase the lamictal to the target dose on the 25th. I feel good. Haven’t dissociated since last Monday. So it’s been a full week without dissociation which has been nice.

My insurance spendables card came in the mail today. I get $117 a month on it to spend on healthy food or OTC stuff like from the pharmacy. This is the first time having something like that. I never had it when I was just on Medicaid. But now that I’m on the dual Medicare /medicaid WellCare plus thing I get $117 a month for stuff like that. Which is nice. Will be especially helpful during like flu season , being able to have the extra money to spend on OTC stuff I may need. And of course healthy food is helpful too.

Anyway, I’m gonna spend the evening relaxing and watching more Pokemon. Tomorrow I have a volunteer shift with my job with the rescue cats.

Took a hard fall Friday afternoon. Sat out the pain until Saturday and went to Emergency Room. Multiple fractures in hand, wrist and forearm. Surgery necessary. Mom leaves Saturday to go visit her sisters 4 hours away for 5 weeks. Already planned. That’s good. I can’t take care of her right now. The dog will have to be boarded. Can’t even take good care of myself now. I guess my season for floating gently and peacefully in the pool is over for this year. Not really pleased right now. Just life I guess.

@Blue Bird I have a spendable card too but I only get $260 and mine is every 3 months. Its hard to stretch it out 3 months with all the OTC stuff I buy.

I keep forgetting that I have these blood clots in my lungs till it’s hard to breathe or I cough. Highly annoying!

@Sunflower123 - I am so sorry! That sounds awful At least it was planned for your mom to go away. Sorry you even have to board your dog. When do you have the surgery?

@Sunflower123 I'm sorry, when is your surgery?

It’s a nice added benefit, never had this before, didn’t even know it was a thing. I was looking up the catalog of approved stuff. There’s some really helpful stuff like they have first aid kits which I definitely need one. I might get a first aid kit and stock up on some regular sick day stuff like cough medicine and Vicks vapor rub and stuff of that nature. I hardly ever get sick, go years without getting sick or even a cold, but when I do it’s usually around the flu season. Maybe some just general mutlivitamins too would be good to have. Thermometer would be good to have cause I have never owned one so never know whether I have a fever or not when I’m sick.

I’m probably more gonna be using it towards healthy food but I do need to get some basic otc stuff cause all I have in my cabinet is ibuprofen.

Antibiotic ointment would be good to have too especially since I have cats and work with cats and get scratches sometimes.

It’s good you have one to help you with your otc stuff and are making good use of it though, I’m excited to have one now

we got preapproved for a home loan. my great aunt is selling her hosue and leaving eveyrthing behind. shes buying a camper and moving to FL. shes kinda flighty. hoping to get an official offer from that job tomorrow...