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no I did not think that ...QuietOne....I am getting pissed off because I don't know what to do...I am crap with a keyboard (imagine a bikie making toast with hands tied) you keep saying the same thing and I don't know what to do...!?? yeh I admit it...I care about you and I don't know what to do...?? imagine if I was sayin' every time I am checkin' out to you.?! no it aint good enough...try harder ...I dont even know your name and I care heaps....so yes mate....try harder...every effort you make is GOOD for me....even if you feel crap...it's fine with me. you are not stupid...can you see how I feel? worried about you. |
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have I given up on you QuietOne?
no I have not. so yeh you try.....and keep tryin'!! ( you know I aint to damn marvelous myself right now....a bit shaky and whatever) |
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i know you are worried, i'm sorry. i am doing ALL i can right now.
yesterday even though i went out and took the scripts i didn't get them filled so it is harder to do something. i absolutely cannot call crisis because i KNOW they will just turn up with police/ambulance and take me to hospital, they have threatened before. i will TRY to take the call from T tomorrow if she calls, but i know she will be shity with me because going to hospital friday was meant to help so i could cope and use my DBT skills. but it hasn't helped. right now i am trying to do positive things. i am looking at shopping online, looking at buying things i want so i will have to stay alive for them to arrive in the post. i know it's not much but it's all i can manage at the moment. the thoughts and voices are too much.. i've always tired to be positive and think well things are s*it now but they will get better and i will have a normal life, well guess what? my pdoc said the other day that nope that was unrealist. i will never have a normal life, i will never be able to function normally, live like all my friends, no all i can hope for is to be able to function. and yeah when i hear that i think whats the point? i'm sorry i am worrying you so much i really am. |
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if you want to talk about whats going on for you i am happy to listen and try to help..
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she's not the first to say it.. they've been saying it for years just less directly. when i was in hospital before i moved they were going to put me in residential psych ward cuz they didn't believe i would be able to live out of hospital, they even almost said that under a treatment order i had to have ECT. maybe they are right? |
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it's for me cos I want you to be ok...and its for you and then back at me...what a selfish arsehole I am! ...ok look QuietOne...I can handle it!....I aint no sook! for some reason I have been selected out of the abundance of life?? to protect you right now! If you don't like it then thats toooo bad!.... I have an assignment and you are extremely difficult you sweet crazy little girly!! my assignment is to help you through this part of your life. listen to me now OK!! STOP listening to the negative stuff... block your ears if you must. the people that make you really feel bad cannot be trusted...OK this is very important...I hope you trust me...the people that can change your mind and inspire you and remind you what the sod you are doing here.. QuietOne....you are quiet but I know you get me |
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Do they give you any coping skills at all? I have these lunch cooler things...when I feel like I want to go walk on hot coals....I go stand on them...and I keep doing it over and over and over. I come on here....I talk to my t by phone today...it was a bad day...anyway...go get some ice cubs and I dare you to try and hold them for 5 minutes...bet you wont get through one minute. LOL What kind of cyber bet could we make...you'll have to tell me. Look...it doesn't matter what med people say...they're just people, and they have to cover their butts. Why don't you want to be on meds?
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okay i'm trying..
now i think it's fair if i get to know a little more about you.. i know your name is james and your in australia.. but how old are you? and which part of australia? i will answer questions too if you want.. |
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I know you're talking to James right now, but my name is Aleks.
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i have been on SO many different meds and they don't help. my family REALLY don't want me back on meds and if i get out back on them i can't handle the fights with my family and the pdoc with me stuck in the middle trying to please them both. |
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You gotta take control...and if they get pissed....too bad for them!! You're taking care of yourself, and doing what's best for yourself. there is no reason to suffer. If you want meds. take the damn meds.
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you think you are difficult? and I bet you are and I know you are. I am a bad boy...years of recklessness and drug abuse...tattoos and scars and 40 yrs old...I still can look neat in the right get up!...but I don't care. all my best buddies have died...I have worked over 50 jobs and hung out with some real nasty people!...I was real nasty too for a bit. I am borderline...extremely difficult but so soft it could make you cry.....no-one gives me ****......I have that borderline look...I am neat and tidy and I care alot about stuff.... I can see lies from miles away and I can adore a mate from miles away. I get upset alot...pissed off and I break things...but I don't hurt anybody |
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my name is Rose and i'm 19.. where a bouts are you from? my mum scares the hell out of me. and i'm terrified of loosing her. i know your right i'm just not strong enough to stand up to her. |
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hey rose...very cool ...thankyou for telling me.( not sure if you wanted me to know...but I do) Jboy |
#43
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any thing you want to know about me? |
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if i didn't want you to know i would have PMed it instead..
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#45
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hey rose girly....check out your thread!!
it's come ALIVE!! ![]() |
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awesome name... it's actually my middle name.. Ross.. kinda old fashioned...but its ross...rose...nice |
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ya know Rose...you really are somethin".... I can pretty much tackle anything but.....you are a little magic I never even imagined I would know your name and even that you would be around to tell it. the mysteries of the females...hang on to that Rose...you are quite remarkable. crazy other side of planet man! |
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welcome to my house...I never pick up the phone. I get more wrong numbers than anything...and I argue bitterly and for no reason that it's the right one cos I need the attention...hehe then I say piss off!! you really give me a buzz that you are alive Rose |
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