I feel like a jerk. I am realizing that I just plain suck.

But...I have hope that I can work really hard and change for the better.

Originally Posted by Buttercup..

Justice is finally being done

http://forums.psychcentral.com/survi...5-verdict.html

I'm so glad everything is working out!! What great news!

I'm here, working, and feel a bit sore and sleepy. That's about all I know right now.

[greentires4me]

I woke up at 5 couldn't get back to sleep played on my phone until 8...went down stairs asked for a referencenow I feel ah...in pain still darn period...

Another good night's sleep last night, although I almost stayed up too late. I almost forgot to take my sleep meds that I'm using to help me get back on track with sleeping, but i didn't. Almost forgot to and it would have been easy to keep on playing my game (tend to forget about time when playing) but I forced myself to quit *pats self on back*

Got myself up at 6:30 again and spent a little time on the computer, then got myself ready for work starting at 7:00 am. Left the house with 40 min to walk to the bus and walked more leisurely -didn't end up getting painful shin splints this time at that pace. had about 7 min. to spare before the bus arrived. All in all a good start.

The day has been better than in the past, as I'm not as tired in the afternoon as I had been. I still get drowsy after eating and in the afternoon but it's bearable and I'm not literally nodding off!

Woop!

since flea-proofing the house i have not been doing much crocheting. i feel like i need to keep it going because, of course, i have my crochet group, but i've been in a sort of blah mood all weekend.

i'm so tired.

I'm at best apathetic at worst cynical today and I'm just not thinking straight for whatever reason. Not going to be gigantically sociable or of help to anyone today.....but it want to be.....but it's not gonna happen. Always gotta love the contradictions!

Originally Posted by Maranara

I'm at best apathetic at worst cynical today and I'm just not thinking straight for whatever reason. Not going to be gigantically sociable or of help to anyone today.....but it want to be.....but it's not gonna happen. Always gotta love the contradictions!

Just go in the cave and maim a whole heckuva lot of bandits.... dont' worry about us, we'll all still be here when you're done.

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

Just go in the cave and maim a whole heckuva lot of bandits.... dont' worry about us, we'll all still be here when you're done.

I actually tried to...my work is requiring too much concentration to do both. Oh well, the bandits will have to wait.

Kind of meh today but still okay. My pdoc asked what I do for fun and I had to tell her nothing because, really, I don't do anything. That, of course, got me thinking that there are all sorts of things wrong with me, which may be true, but I'd rather not think about it. Meh, whatever.

w00t! going back to work again. filling out paperwork Thursday afternoon and then we'll go from there

i need to lose weight...sigh...

I can sooo relate. My Pdoc and T asked me the same thing ... and I thought about it both times and responded the same way. I felt kind of embarrassed, but then again ... meh. I wouldn't be sitting in front of them if I did stuff "for fun".

My reply: "nothing". "I do nothing for fun". While thinking to myself, "taking a shower is effort, why in the world would I go down to the beach for a swim or a stroll for fun?"

Originally Posted by misskeena

Kind of meh today but still okay. My pdoc asked what I do for fun and I had to tell her nothing because, really, I don't do anything. That, of course, got me thinking that there are all sorts of things wrong with me, which may be true, but I'd rather not think about it. Meh, whatever.

[MPD-AvPD-BPD]

Feeling totaly Blah today...

Not in the mood for anything.....

Go away and leave me alone.....

I think I´m a bad person.

A good morning so far. Of course I have the guilt of feeling like I don't deserve as many good days as I've been having in a row, but I'm trying to enjoy them and ignore that lol.

Today is the last full day that my daughters will be here; they will be leaving tomorrow afternoon. Spent time alone with my older daughter last night. Will be doing the same with the younger tonight. It's been good overall, I've learned a few things and feel I've been able to get a little closer to them. I'm worried about having problems when they leave. We'll see how it goes.

[greentires4me]

I woke up in paradise again...anyone see some sarcasm to that well I did. its sunny outside and I am going to go for a walk to the pharmacy to get my meds.

feeling like crap.

I'll be taking my daughters to the airport in a few hours. I've already instinctively withdrawn from them. Going to be a hard day....

[greentires4me]

I cannot think what to type or write I am feeling like a roller coaster of emotions yesterday was just tough and hard to manage now I am just reeling from that today looks to be a super nice day once again definitely is spring outside

[stargazer111]

I'm on spring break from college, at my boyfriends house, spending all my time thinking about how I can fix myself. I can't talk to him about my problem because I know he would leave me.

Feeling ok

Why do I even bother? I try and explain a situation to someone and they don't understand. GRRRRRRRRR.

[poptart316]

I'm in a good mood today.. read a bit of my news magazine then wound up reading about the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and it made me happy/thankful to live in a world at a time where the majority of leaders and society care about the well-being of other humans.

My daughters are on their way home. It may be a year before I see them again. Can anyone say "abandonment feelings". I'll be okay...