[poptart316]

It's 6:44, I just woke up and want to go back to sleep. I slept all day yesterday and all night last night. I miss my ex and am still very nervous about the whole "meeting up and talking about things"... he said we'd meet sometime this week, I hope it's soon because I really just want to get it over with, it's all I can think about. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my day to keep me distracted.

Trying to avoid going inpatient.

[Luvmydog]

My wife has been sick this week with some form of a sinus infection. I woke up this morning to find that she had "shared" it with me. Ugh, I hate being ill.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( buttercup ))))))))
I don't have the right words... Just want you to know I care about you lots. Please be safe (?)

Originally Posted by Buttercup..

Trying to avoid going inpatient.

[poptart316]

I had two intake appointments today now I'm waiting to go to sleep.. I'm very nervous about tomorrow.

[allme]

Trying to make up with hubby after outburst

I had a good day, actually. Finally. I spent time with a friend today, went to lunch and then hung out with her by the pool at her apartment. We swam and laid in the sun and got sunburned...then we went for ice cream. It's been so long since I've done anything fun with anyone and it felt good. Now I'm home exhausted and smelling of sunscreen. I feel pretty good. It's good to be reminded that there are at least a few people who want to be around me.

[Maranara]

I've had a good day. Kinda cut off from my emotions, which feels good. I've been productive. We'll see if it lasts.

[poptart316]

I can't stay focused.. I'm sick of thinking and hate my brain.

I have to work at my second job today. Not looking forward to it...I hate that place. Trying to look on the bright side: it's only 8 hours, I usually work with decent people, it's not like I work there full-time... it's only 8 hours... *sigh*

[Maranara]

Angry at the moment. I'm trying to work and keep getting interrupted, being told what I did wrong....threw the wrong thing in the trash, allowed my son to take a book to camp that he was obsessed with instead of "camping" even though he was told to leave it in the car, that I'm being sensitive...even though the entire time I'm being interrupted and have to start things over.....

[Maranara]

......and the roller coaster begins. I'm not gonna make it.

[greentires4me]

My booty call called during while I was eating lunch he wanted to come up and help me with my laundry weird I guess he was missing out on some friends...I told him that I was taking a break then he called me again only the phone knows what he wanted.

Yes I have "A Booty Call" he calls me when he wants it and I oblige most of the time but today I just want to stay inside do some cleaning and some laundry

This one is kind of gross, just FYI.

I worked at my second job today and it started off pretty well. I had a super-easy assignment. Around the middle of the shift though, I was transferring my patient to the bathroom and he had a blow-out all over my pants and shoes, i.e. there was s*** all over me. Not gonna lie, it's not the first time it's happened to me (I've been in healthcare for 12 years) but it makes the night just...well, you get it. Thankfully, hospitals always have a supply of scrubs we can change into if need be, and this hospital has washers and dryers for the patients, so I threw my pants and shoes right into the wash.

I guess this is why we wear scrubs to work...

I freaking hate that job. I'd rather work in the ER (my full-time job) and have blood on my scrubs than have s*** all over them. I've never been a fan of giving showers and doing ADL's (activities of daily living). I'm definitely more suited to the ER.

[allme]

Feeling good today after my anniversary yesterday and dog show First time out In nearly a month!

[Maranara]

Tense at the moment. Happens every time on log on to PC.... Feel okay for the most part. A bit antisocial, a bit ambitious. Could be feeling worse. Want to stay positive. Day three and counting...

Trying to shake the feelings off.

[greentires4me]

I got a job interview today and tomorrow for cooking wish me luck...

[shortandcute]

I'm such an idiot; I am behind on my mortgage, and avoiding talking to the loan manager to work something out. I know if I just talk to him, that there are options to help me avoid foreclosure. But I'm scared to death, so like an idiot, I'm making it worse by not contacting him.

[Bill3]

Good luck, greentires!

[Luvmydog]

I doubt it has anything to do with it, but I caught a cold, and for some reason anxiety and emotional upheaval have lessened.

[allme]

Back to work today...feels like I was never off! But I work from home so the pj's are staying put

[Maranara]

Originally Posted by Luvmydog

I doubt it has anything to do with it, but I caught a cold, and for some reason anxiety and emotional upheaval have lessened.

Actually, it does. I suffer from severe disassociation at times, and when I've explained the feeling to others, I've explained it feeling like a head cold or your head stuffed with cotton. When you're sick, you can't think and dwell on your issues, which in turn makes your issues less. We have as many issues as we do because we never stop thinking. Your cold has done that to some degree. I know you don't want to be sick but enjoy that part of it while you can.

[Maranara]

I feel......okay. Hanging in there. Day 4.

Exhausted! But I can't seem to switch off and sleep!