[Luvmydog]

Tried to get a few things crossed off my to-do list, and in retrospect may have tried to do too much. I shut out the world for a couple of hours afterward, but back now.

[Maranara]

How does the phrase go? "No one can help you as well as you can help yourself"? Something like that? Don't ask me...my thinking capacity is really close to zero at this point. Anyway, I want support for finding a job and there weren't any so I made one.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/group...#gmessage49098

Yay me. (I guess.)

[kala83]

things have been doing a lot better for me in some respects and in others I am still struggling with very basic life skills. I am being a lil forgetful of my diary cards as of lately and I am not doing a supper great job of keeping up with eating as often as I know I should or taking my meds. I really get down on my self when I get like this cause I know that this is important and that I should not neglect this.

and its truly not like I am aiming to it simply slips my mind a lil too often at points.

other then that my life feels really good rigbht now i am meeting new people as far as my dating life people that I seem to really mesh with and that truly seem to get me.

I still have a really hard time convincing myself of my fears of abandonment and I am still searching for employment yet again but I am trying to keep my chin up and not let depression drag me down despite the hard times I am deal with.

Well thought I'd check in, I try not to very often as my life, tbh isn't all that eventful or noteworthy

Things are great as you would note from my other posts.. feeling like I might take a drive on the weekend, and I have no idea where to but I'm getting the kids out of the place for a while!

[allme]

No work today so got out of the house again And no anxiety! Ok, it was just a 20 minute walk with the dogs to the shop and back but yay!

[Maranara]

Really zoned out the last hour or two of my shift yesterday. I called my daughter after work and she made fun of me because I had to keep stopping to remember what I was saying.

Went to bed early last night. The goal was to get a good night's sleep and wake up early so I could work on the job front before going to work. Well, I woke up about three hours later and never fell back to sleep. Had a burst of total anxious energy around 4 and ran up and down the stairs about 5 or 6 times. Never did fall back to sleep. Going to be a rough day. Day 5.

[Maranara]

I give up. I'm brain dead and can't concentrate on any projects today. All I can do is sit and listen.

Saw Pdoc today and he seems to think I have traits of bipolar me thinks he is wrong.

[Maranara]

Starting to slide really bad. Paranoia is striking and so is the loneliness and I can't do a thing about it. I can't stop working.

[shortandcute]

I have a complicated issue with my meds: I was going to a certain place for counseling, and I saw a psych there also who prescribed my meds. They have a policy where they only see you for a certain amount of time, then they cut you off; they are the only ones in Spokane, Washington to take medicaid. This time they cut me off sooner than they were supposed to, so I can't get another prescription from them. I live in a smaller city next to Spokane; my physician was prescribing me my meds for a while, but he said he couldn't do it anymore (something to do with his supervisor). There is another clinic in my area that also has a psychiatrist; but I would have to be under a physician at that clinic to see the psych there: I've already had bad experiences with them. I've talked to a couple of psychs that dont take medical and see if I could see them and pay cash--but they claim that they're not allowed to see me because I'm on medicaid. What am I going to do when I run out of meds?!?!?

My roommate is moving out and I can't help feeling like it's because of me...

I just wish I could sleep

[allme]

Arguing with hubby again...it is draining me

[allme]

All good....having garden done today! Feeling lazy and somewhat bored as work is dead.....not getting dressed

[Maranara]

Dropped by....can' stick around....hanging in there.

Just had a two hour nap beginning to feel human again...!

[allme]

Was feeling good and now feeling off put by my hubby's friend coming in and bursting my bubble of safeness within my own home. Arghhhh! I am not cut out for human contact!

I've found that on the days I tell myself something positive - not fake positivity, but real positive thoughts, not ignoring the negative ones, but not letting them encompass me, and trying to better myself - overall I feel a lot more peace of mind that day.

[Harmacy]

A quick update, thought I'd post here rather than resurrect my 'avoiding splitting' thread.

The person I was worried about has been off sick. I've been feeling really empty and low all week. But that's better than what I was fearing which was intense anxiety.

I've had a good chance to reflect on how I feel about them and am now just trying to step back emotionally from the whole situation. Things would be so much easier if I had more casual friends at work, then I wouldn't develop such extreme hopes and fears over individual people.

Work is a depressing place to be right now but I'm hoping things will improve in the future. I just wish I didn't get so emotional about everything. That would be a good start.

[allme]

P***** off

Going up north tomorrow and Monday for the Labor Day holiday. Called in sick my second job today--I just...ugh...didn't want to work today. I know it's terribly irresponsible of me, but my back was really sore, I was really, really tired, and I really wanted a three day weekend. I'm already feeling terribly guilty because I really need the money. Whatever; I'm going to enjoy it.

Tired, grumpy, snappy, urgh!!

[allme]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

Tired, grumpy, snappy, urgh!!

Take it easy, it's sunday so put your feet up and relax!

[allme]

Feeling good and here

Suddenly feel shaken and uneasy for no reason at all! Just came over me about 5mins ago :/