[Luvmydog]

Woke up very late for me (11 am, don't like to sleep past 9:30), but mainly due to not being able to get to sleep last nite (after 4 am). Had a list of four things to do today, already got two of them done, but other two will wait til tomorrow. Weather's too hot to think.

[UnderTheRose]

hating everyone and everything

[greentires4me]

cannot concentrate just want things to be different...

[shortandcute]

my daughter is trying too hard to be the mom

I'm here at work. that's a good thing. nm else going

Unbelievably anxious today. I don't exactly know why, I just woke up this way very early this morning. It feels like a burning, twisting sensation right in my chest. I hate this. I can't live like this, and I don't know how to make it go away because the meds aren't working. They just make me sleepy and, unless I have a day off, I can't exactly sleep through my days (even if I do have a day off, I can't sleep my life away).

tired this morning, no energy . feel like a nothing

[UnderTheRose]

Good day, son's kindergarten graduation. my 18 year old is being decent too, all the other kids are being tolerable, it's raining.... all in all a good day.

[greentires4me]

lazy today rolled around in bed until 12:23 got up and got dressed to leave out the door for my doctors appointment got there on time and rolled in he gave me a new prescription for ativan but the pharmacy wouldn't fill it so I gotta wait a few days. But I am going to the closer pharmacy this time the other one is too far away.

so lazy old me is sitting here by the computer checking on threads here

I keep feeling I am going to cry...

Ugh, my mother really gets on my nerves. She never listens to anything I say and she complains about stuff all the time that doesn't even matter. I'm trying to tell her the cat is sick. Well she won't listen to me just because she hasn't seen signs herself. No, let's just wait around for him to get worse, sure.

Oh and I've been abandoned again. Hahahahahaha. **** this.

[jadedbutterfly]

Was up until 6:30 a.m. got approximately 5 hours of sleep.... not enough for me... feel like a zombie

Originally Posted by jadedbutterfly

Was up until 6:30 a.m. got approximately 5 hours of sleep.... not enough for me... feel like a zombie

I got four :P

Feeling a little better today.

[Arethusa]

I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I've also been thinking that I would like to go back to the hospital and stay there for awhile just so I can take a vacation from the real world...

[hezaa82]

feeling stressed out and on the verge of depression. I get really bad if I have to go too long without having a heart-to-heart with someone who understands me. Unfortunately there are only two people I can really have heart-to-hearts with. My T who is away on vacation, and my friend J who I haven't seen for almost 3 weeks. Thinking about my birthday and who will or will not be celebrating it with me is stressing me out and making me insecure too....

[shortandcute]

just got back from my 2nd DBT group. pouted thru the whole thing

[shortandcute]

i feel like crap emotionally; im really stressed and spaced out--w'ere low on everything and i dont get my check for almost a week; our house stinks, and we need to replace the carpeting but i don't know how im gonna pay for it or get it donei am extrememly depressed, i want to just check myslef inot a hospital and let my 17 year old and 25 tear old deal with my house and pets until i get my check next week.i am tired of struggling and i just don't feel like i can do this anymore

[poptart316]

I went to Cedar Point which a few days ago which was fun, but now I'm back at home bored and depressed with nothing to do. I keep thinking about how pointless everything is because we die and how boring and stupid everything is because we only got the moment. My boyfriend has gone on a trip with his friends and wont be back till Monday.. I miss him already and feel like I can't function without him.

[greentires4me]

I am camping in my parents bush...I just cut the lawn because it needed it and set up my chairs for campfire all alone because rob is doing other things and I feel betrayed by him. I am not too depressed today but that can change I been at my parents house for almost 2hours now..I feel bored and sad not a good combination

[Luvmydog]

Wife and I went through settlement for our new house today, and I just feel completely drained. Tired, numb, and drained.

[hezaa82]

feeling stressed has turned into feeling hysterical. Going long periods of time without talking to the one person I consider a "close friend" makes me feel like we're not even close at all, and I don't have him that means I have no one...and there go my abandonment issues. I feel like a small child who's freaking out after being left alone without their parent. I just want to feel connected to someone and that someone depends on me and wants or needs my companionship. I want to be able to share all my stories with someone. I have all these things I want to talk about but I just am alone and have no one to talk to everyday. I know its bad when I start fantasizing about how my friend might react if I did something to hurt myself, or fantasizing about sending an email saying that he's a ***** friend and how it makes me feel. He's agreed to meet me today and that made me feel immediately calmer.

[shortandcute]

im getting fat and i wish i was dead

[mistifyeight]

The last 2 days i actually got out of bed and out of the house. I only went to a friends house and hung out but it was so much better than hiding away in my bed. I didn't sleep much last night though and i am so tired. I will be house sitting for a friend for the next week and am hoping time away from my space will do me good. I want to get out of this deep depression i have been in for the last month or so. It has been a long and hard 6 months and i need to let things go and move on so they don't hold me down any longer.

[Flooded]

I'm preparing for a very confronting week. It's my birthday and my mother didn't quite make it to the age I will be. Trying to keep myself together.