[MobiusPsyche]

Realizing that I am careful not to put other people into "catch-22" situations but I do it to myself constantly.

[kamikazebaby]

Lonely. Confused. Trying to restore numbness.

[lostinsidemyself]

Scared, its all new, mud up to my butt and trying to sludge through it, scared they will 'get tired of me' and leave, anxious, feeling like a 'monster' because of what I still do....

[cryingontheinside]

I feel awful. I hate life , I hate myself .

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[Angelique67]

I'm very scared, because this won't stop and I don't have money to move.

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

I'm very scared, because this won't stop and I don't have money to move.

I am so sorry.

[lostinsidemyself]

My homework from my therapist last Thursday was to google (but used youtube instead)

Possible trigger:

cult child sexual abuse

put it in the trigger code...didnt know if it would be triggering. And now the last two days ive been watching these videos, my emotions are stinkin all over the place (anger & hatred at myself, pain, urge to cut, lonilness, my 'protitute mind' keeps taking over...anxiety, flashbacks, nightmares...you name it ((bad emotion)) and ive felt it over the last two days)

[kamikazebaby]

Sad and agitated today, more and more as the day goes on.

Good job, good job. You had me believing for a second that you meant what you said. But you logged on last night and never said a word, and nothing today either. What else could it be but a game for you? I have sent emails, but I get no answer. You're done with me now, yes? Another lesson for me. Never believe.

[technigal]

Feeling a lot of stress lately, need a break from the kiddo but with homeschooling I am with him 24/7. He is a good kid but so needy with the ASD and ADHD, anxiety etc. Feeling like a bad mom.

[lostinsidemyself]

Originally Posted by technigal

Feeling a lot of stress lately, need a break from the kiddo but with homeschooling I am with him 24/7. He is a good kid but so needy with the ASD and ADHD, anxiety etc. Feeling like a bad mom.

Not a bad mom! All moms need breaks!

I cant have children so if i could babysit for free i would

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by lostinsidemyself

Not a bad mom! All moms need breaks!

I cant have children so if i could babysit for free i would

Can you adopt or foster children?

[technigal]

Originally Posted by lostinsidemyself

Not a bad mom! All moms need breaks!

I cant have children so if i could babysit for free i would

Thanks. My son is our miracle baby, I wasn't supposed to be able to have kids either.

[lostinsidemyself]

Lost, alone, forgotten, hurting....WISH I COULD GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!

[lostinsidemyself]

I wish i could breath....

[lostinsidemyself]

Back to holding in and hiding my feelings, taking them out on myself whom deserve it....

Im just going to stop trying to talk to people...i dont even know why i try, i really just dont...

I reached out and it was met by emptiness...nothing...why reach out? Im done!

Why try so hard anyway? Whats on the other side? No one!

[puzzclar]

Needs to not hear to hit head.....

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[technigal]

I keep getting weather related headaches, pretty much every day. I don't think that it is helping my mood as I am feeling really down these days.

[Espresso]

We can't seem to catch a break. It's always something. Today was rough. Sudden, unexpected financial stress and a just as unexpected wedge in a friendship. I'm sad and scared and alone.

[puzzclar]

Last 3 weeks have been rough..... Finally feeling a bit better.... Not as moody

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[s4ndm4n2006]

Been gone a long time and checking in to see how all are doing. *waves*

[Angelique67]

I'm so miserable here. I'm being gangstalked, which I never even believed in before last Friday. And I have no idea why.

I'm putting too much pressure on my friend but I'm all alone surrounded by people who seem to delight in freaking me out for hours everyday. I can't deal with it.

[technigal]

Feeling blah...

[lostinsidemyself]

Undiscriable....is it possible to feel everything at once to not know how you feel other then very unsafe, chest is heavy, shaking, and wishing i could curl up in a corner and disapear?

Wondering how long before it all kills me. Wondering whats at the end of the fight for me.....

[MobiusPsyche]

Originally Posted by lostinsidemyself

Undiscriable....is it possible to feel everything at once to not know how you feel other then very unsafe, chest is heavy, shaking, and wishing i could curl up in a corner and disapear?

Wondering how long before it all kills me. Wondering whats at the end of the fight for me.....

I feel that way all the time. Sorry to hear you're going through that.

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[Swabbingred]

I am going thru a stage where all these emotions are so hard to keep in.