How are you coping today? #3

I was unable to do the cleaning that I wanted to do today.I overdid the chores yesterday,and last night I didn't sleep well.
My body and muscles were aching today and I was sleepy,I had lots of rest and naps.I did sort the bins and put them out and put compost out
and the pots and pans and dishes are in the sink waiting to be washed.

I am going to fry chips for dinner with egg and fried halloumi.Later,though at 4.15pm.

Ive got the radio on ,listening to Jonnie Walker's music from the 70'S.

Mostly slept today so I suppose that is coping ok.

Reading over some group notes. Trying to calm myself down about next week. I need to find a way to ditch the caffeine. That would help majorly. Also not reading or watching the news. I’ve had a lot of news on lately. I’m trying to spread my meals out more. Also the meds I’m not supposed to take are hidden from me but I don’t have an urge to take them. I know these anxious thoughts will go away. I need to just do the exposure therapy because I know what the issue is. I’m trying to just control what I can and accept what I can’t. I can’t control the results of my ultrasound but I can control how I react and how I can take care of myself if something does show up.

Some days i can cope thanks to medications
But it's so hard to realize that I waited 30+ years before receiveing the cure
I lost so much, basic needs like a job

Today has been difficult,I ve been low depressed and felt groggy,Now I feel a bit better.I am looking forward to tomorrow which I have planned as a day of complete rest and on Tuesday I am going to do food shopping,mainly to buy fruit to take to mum at her care home and a few xmas treats to nibble on for me and mum.
I am visiting mu thursday I think I mentioned that earlier.Also on Tuesday I have a zoom session with my psychologist.I want to talk about the anxious thoughts I have and how they wind me up ask how to overcome them without medications.
I feel some anger today at the world the whole situation with corona getting me down.

I hope tomorrow is a better day and that my emotions don't frag me down like they did today.
I will post tomorrow on this thread how I am getting on.

Yes, these are very difficult times; that's for sure. And I think most of us are trying so hard to get through it the best we can. Each of us has quite a long story to tell. I love all of you so much for sharing your experiences, thoughts, & feelings. I'm quite a loner, but I feel like we, at least certain ones of us, are a family.

I think I'm coping well today. I got quality sleep, I played my game for a long time, I'm enjoying hot coffee and I'm slowly working on chores.

''getting by''..... grrrrrr

Sorry not to be more positive....

Some of the stuff I enjoy is my (inner) cub's stuff (who is young)

I used to play some online games (maybe I'll try one again, maybe not)

My whole family (especially my husband) has been focused on helping me beat cancer. Now that it looks like I may have beaten it, other issues that have not been resolved caused a huge fight (between three of us, I felt like I was in the middle and had to choose sides). I feel like I handled myself much better during the altercation than I have in the past. I credit the improvement to my medications, having a better understanding of my situation than I did before and trusting in God. It is not over but I am not afraid to deal with the storm that has not subsided.

I turn on my Christmas tree and snowflake shower as a distraction from all of my grief, depression and anxiety.

I’m avoiding today. And using distraction. Not too well I guess. But I do know things are out of my control regarding my test. So I just need to figure out how to deal with the pain myself. I so wanted to take cough syrup and melatonin last night. I just wasn’t feeling good physically and I was a bit down mentally. But I think I mostly just wanted to sleep through things. I didn’t take any. I just turned on my music and used my oral sensory tool and I was able to fight the thoughts. I woke up at midnight feeling ok. I’m kind of having those thoughts now but maybe I’ll just take my night meds early.

I'm using food to cope.

We are having to travel out of town for my doctor appointment. I had to take all of my as needed medications last night. One of my family members is not doing well so it makes me anxious to leave them at home. Their sibling will be here but I can't help but worry. I hope things calm down and that they volunteer to go to the doctor soon.

I slept well last night,got up early did some food shopping,fruit mainly.I am restless today and feeling loneliness which I have done a lot lately.
Tomorrow I have an appointment at the eye clinic and I will go to the cafe for a drink and toastie after.....looking forward to that.Today in 15 mins I have a zoom session with my psychologist,I am hoping she can help me stop being so restless.Is it anxiety causing this I am not sure,I don't suffer this particular trait often.

Today I am using encouraging self- talk & crossing my fingers.

I’m kind of down today. Mostly because I feel incredibly sick to my stomach. I took a Xanax thinking it was an anxiety stomach ache and it did not help my stomach and I can’t even tell if it helped my anxiety because of how sick I feel right now. But I went to group and really participated. So hopefully I’m doing the right thing. It’s tough though. The groups themselves are not hard but talking especially on zoom can be really tedious for me. I am way outside my comfort zone but it’s making me realize I can do things if I push myself.

If I had to identify one primary emotion... it would be that I am ''saddened''

(this is not about the ''situation'' in the world)

I'm wondering where so many of the ''good'' people went. Very sad about it. (this post is about me, not anyone else.. I am not suggesting that anyone is ''bad'' or ''sub optimal''.... it would be nice if my muzzle didn't hurt every time I move... It is what it is

2.45am up again unable to sleep,slept too much during the day.I feel lousy,ill,my sugars are high again I ate sweet stuff with sugar in it that I should not eat ever!
I am struggling so on here, also got headphones on and listening to radio wrapped up in blankets of the sofa.I hate myself but I must not say that or think it,being negative will pull me down and send me into a downward spiral,I do not want a serious decline in my mental health,no thank you,I've had years of that and am approaching senior years I do not need that in my senior years.SSSSSCCCRRRRREEEAAAAMMMMMM!

Grrrr. So boring (not about the ''situation'' in the world or about anyone on pc)

While we were gone yesterday, things remained quiet. After getting home, things slowly started again resulting in a new incident. I am not going to talk about it because it is more about the person in my who family who has been effected. I might go back to therapy just so I have a place to talk about it and someone to help me deal with how to manage the fallout. I am OK but concerned about this family member and have been unable to help them enough. I need help with this but do not want to give up on them.

I think I am coping fairly well. I've been keeping my mind busy. And today, I plan to relax and have fun.

I coped really well this morning even though I had to push myself. I’m just not feeling great.

I had a bad day so I am struggling.....I went to the hospital eye clinic for my galucoma check,it's all good for glaucoma but I have diabetic retinopathy and macula changes in my eyes due to high blood sugars.I had forgotten sugar affects me eyes and was gonna allow myself to indulger from now until after christmas and put my eye sight at risk.

This has happened before I am so stupid for forgetting about the risks.I was already feeling ill from eating too much sugar,thirsty,sleepy,drowsy during the day,bloated fat,ugly,bile in stomach and coming up my throat,feeling sick,going to the loo all the time and not sleeping at night.

All cos I have addiction to sugar and eating disorder whereby I binge uncontrollably on sweet stuff.I am feeling very foolish got to get back control.

As of today after eye clinic I am on a strict no sugar,low fat,low carb diet.I did have two biscuits before eye clinic I should not have had so my blood sugar is too high right now but I can get it down and stop sugar I know I can ve done it before so I have to do it again and make it a permanent thing this time.

I have to if I want to save my eye sight and improve my health so I am not ill all the time.

I'm struggling. I feel sick this morning, and my cat bit me. Sometimes she can be pretty hateful. I don't understand.

It’s beyond horrible today and I can’t sleep anymore and my body hurts I’m just laying is sleeping and crying so much it’s bad I’m not I’m not doing good and I came here because this may be the only place people in the world can understand