Can't these negative thoughts just shut up? /:

Today, I keep thinking negative thoughts. I keep thinking I'm better off dead. I can't help thinking these thoughts. I think to myself, there's no point to my life. There's nothing interesting about my life. I haven't got much friends but only a few. I'm always used and used for sex. I'm just some animal aren't I? I might as well be a prositute or something /: I'm just a filthy animal scum. I don't like myself. I don't have the bravery to commit suicde but these negative thoughts keep going round in my mind. I don't have boyfriends like "normal" people do. I only had one real life one. It tells me that I'm ugly. I hate myself. I'm such a scumbag. I wish my mum aborted me and I wish someone could kill me. Sometimes I actually wish I could just run in the middle of the road and get run over. No one gives a **** about me. "Jenny Barrett" <<< Ugly ****ing piece of **** who is a scumbag. :'( Life would be so much better without me. If I killed myself people wouldn't care. I'm not important to no one. or maybe I am to a few people. But really who gives a **** about me? Urghh my life is crap. If someone wants me dead just say.....

Hi Happycheeks.
Haven't bumped into you on the boards yet, but am glad I stumbled across this thread now.

You really sound like you are in a bad place. First step is to realise that there is help, and that you can feel better; you deserve to be happy.
Now you need to know that you can reach out to people for help. A T is the most useful right now, but do you have a close friend alternatively?
Posting here has also been a great step forward. You are already reaching out to us.

People do care for you. You are not scum, not ugly, and life is not crap. Maybe you are in a place right now where you feel this way, but it will pass.

Please keep yourself safe. If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone or take yourself to the ER - please!
There are underlying issues that are making you feel this way - these can be overcome and you can find happiness again. Therapy and medication (In some instances) are invaluable for you to heal.
I have come from the depths of depression, with a suicide attempt, to where I am now. Not always happy, and still sensitive, but a lot more stable and able to lead a productive life (Mostly).

For now, please keep yourself safe. Distract yourself and focus on the small things that fulfil you and make you happy. Hang out with some positive friends, read a book, watch some TV, go for a walk outside...

I'm thinking of you - please know you are not alone; you can PM me if you want to talk further.
Otherwise know that there are plenty caring people here, that will support you through anything that you may be going through

You are important, happycheeks.
Close your eyes and imagine that someone else was saying those words to you about themselves, someone you cared about. What kind of advice would you give them? I hope you will reach out and ask for help. You are important and you deserve to feel strong and and cared for. But sometimes we've got to begin by offering that care to ourselves. You deserve a life in which you feel safe. I hope you will reach out. Is there a clinic or counseling service that you know of where you might seek a bit of help? You deserve it, you deserve to be helped.
Sending supportive thoughts your way.

happycheeks. i'm so sorry you're feeling this way but so glad u posted. we're here for you and really care. you're definitely not a scumbag. please try to be kind to yourself.

You know... you need to sit down with yourself and start working on whom you want to be. Objectivelly look at your negative traits, as if you were looking at your partner... which ones bother you and which ones can you pretty much put up with?

And start accepting yourself. Nobody is perfect, but even imperfect people can be loved... if they are able to love themselves... If you are negative to yourself, you give a negative vibe and it might turn people off...

Try to find some distraction. Read a book. Write music reviews. Sketch... give yourself something else to think about than your imperfections.

In the end it's all about you... Do you really need random people care about you? Or do you want few good friends?

(((happycheeks))) - I can't remember if you're getting help for your moods from a doctor or therapist?? I've noticed you feel very bad sometimes and then it passes fast and you feel better. This means you need to be patient and wait for it to pass. I do think as VenusHalley said, you need to get to the root of where and what's causing these feelings. You can't keep riding on this roller coaster of emotion.

Now about the bad things you said - would you ever say these things to a friend or loved one???? I bet you wouldn't, so you need to give yourself the same kindness and respect you would give others. Think of these thoughts as a nasty little troll that sits on your shoulder - his job is to pester, nagg and put you down. Imagine you take your finger and fling him off your shoulder or better yet, how can you get rid of him for good. You're really not these bad thoughts at all.

You are not ugly,and not worthless.Someday someone will love you for your whole self.You just can't see it yet.I really hope [someone in p.c] didn't make you feel that way.

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...nking-hurt-us/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fix...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...nking-hurt-us/
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/48485
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...essing-you-out

I can't add much to what everyone's already said. I get bombarded by thoughts of fear and sadness very often, and I try to not believe my thoughts. They're just wisps of mental smoke passing through. Try not to get sucked in and mistake them for reality. Best wishes.

Well-said Lavieen!

The negative stuff is not likely to voluntarily leave. It may need a determined escort.

No one in PC didn't feel me like it. It's someone else and it's my own fault. I'm feeling better today though.

Thank you everyone for replying. I apprecitate your advice so much. Thank you for being here for me. Today I am feeling better as I have 11 hours of sleep. I'm so happy I got some sleep.

Good to hear.

{{{{So pleased to hear it}}}}}

Thanks

i cant say more than what has already been said. But it sounds like u need to give yourself a little break. i hope you can see your tdoc soon and work through these negative feelings.

Ahh, amazing sleep. Elusive as it can be at times.
Those negative thoughts that haunt my mind seem to come on a daily basis these days. They tell me, also that I'd be better off dead, I hear it over and over again. What I have to do is to consciously say a positive affirmation whenever I hear it. IT is not easy, no, but I am afraid that if I say the negative too many times it will manifest itself. If I replace it with a positive affirmation, perhaps that will eventually manifest.

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