[ExiExi]

I liked this

Stanford's Sapolsky On Depression in U.S. (Full Lecture)

[Yesterdays]

I wish that people cared about me even half as much as I care about them.

[buttrfli42481]

I completely understand why my niece doesn't want to drink after having oral surgery.

[SadNJNY]

Why does EVERY area of my life have to be a mess at the same time?

[arcangel]

You would think ignoring things that are insignificant would be such an easy thing to do...

[buttrfli42481]

Why am I feeling this way again when it has been over a year since my last bad thoughts?

[porcupine2]

Finally! I found a new psychiatrist who is willing to work as a team and isn't an arrogant jerk that just dictates. She was wonderful and I felt I could tell her anything. Thank you Spirit for sending her to me!

Happy for you, porcupine2.

[Rose76]

I think I'm getting an extension on my unemployment benefits. I get afraid of submitting resume to various places, thinking, "Oh, I'ld probably fail at that job." I've got to get over this paralyzing phobia. Submitting the resume won't kill me. Going to the interview won't kill be. Not getting hired after going won't kill me. But, it'll probably make me wiser as to what I can expect. I keep trying to imagine what things are like, instead of actually going places and experiencing what things are like. I might get some encouragement from someone, if I give it a chance, instead of hiding in my apartment.

[buttrfli42481]

I feel like I should be at the er with a friend, especially since i have been down the same road she is traveling.

[clouds_and_sun]

I have a hard time keeping friends. I just lost an e-penpal today for good, yes it is for good.

[la bella vita]

school starts in less than three days, and im terrified of going back there, because im afraid of the people in it, i think im severely socially reclusive :'(

People have been saying I do not talk to them when I am not speaking.

[Unrigged64072835]

I'm listening to this absolutely silly song and it's cheering me up a little.

[Shadow-world]

Had a much better day than I had for weeks. It makes such a nice change even if it might only be for today.

[Rose76]

I was distraught for awhile this morning, but now I am doing housework and feel okay. I have found for weeks now that I must keep moving about doing something, even a little unimportant thing. I won't even sit in the tub for a bath, because that level of idleness allows my mind to get in a bad state. Showers are okay. I think I heard sharks are like that. They can't breathe unless they move forward, so they move all the time, never even sleeping, I guess. I don't see myself as a particularly shark-like character, but that moving thing being essential to survive - I don't know how I got like this. I was never quick to more. I would become idle when depressed. Now I'm afraid to idle.

[buttrfli42481]

Do you really want to know what is on my mind?

[Nemo39122]

Why can't I stop thinking about it?

[Open Eyes]

Originally Posted by Yesterdays

I wish that people cared about me even half as much as I care about them.

It is better to care about others half of what you care about yourself.
I am not saying to be selfish, however if you spend all your time caring about others, others will only become to expect it. Then when you need them, they will always fall short.

Open Eyes

[Open Eyes]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I was distraught for awhile this morning, but now I am doing housework and feel okay. I have found for weeks now that I must keep moving about doing something, even a little unimportant thing. I won't even sit in the tub for a bath, because that level of idleness allows my mind to get in a bad state. Showers are okay. I think I heard sharks are like that. They can't breathe unless they move forward, so they move all the time, never even sleeping, I guess. I don't see myself as a particularly shark-like character, but that moving thing being essential to survive - I don't know how I got like this. I was never quick to more. I would become idle when depressed. Now I'm afraid to idle.

You are getting better Rose. Your gut is telling you it is time to get going on with your life and to continue to make goals for improvement, even if it means to clean up your home. Send out some more applications and try to venture out more, you are getting to the place where your brain is saying, I am ready to progress now.

Open Eyes

[Fuzzybear]

.. too much to post. thanks for this thread (some really insightful posts here)

[whoknowswhat]

i dont know how to even start to do anything. its such a viscious cycle. taking other peoples perscription medicine. this is not they way i thought i would be at sixteen

[buttrfli42481]

Getting some natural vitamin D really has helped my mood today.

[Rose76]

Today, my attention is on someone else, my sig. other, who is visiting. His situation is kind of depressing because of health issues. And I think do I have to be depressed for two people?

[afterrain]

I wish I had a do over in life sometime. Or just take back everything I say.