[Rhapsody]

OK - not for sure where this post is going and yet I need to VENT....

I woke up at 6 am this morning after a very bad night sleep.... I actually dreaded going to bed last night for I have not been sleeping well for about a week now.... when I lay my head down to sleep I start to see images and hear voices in my subconscious head - it is like a Movie being played out and I cannot get the stop button to work. I wake up feeling disturbed and weary of all that happened through out the entire night, nonstop, and hate the way it leaves me feeling inside - Right now I just feel so EMPTY - SAD - DISCONNECTED - NEEDING to CRY - and yet I cannot.

Any ideals, advice, or support from another that understands or know first of that of which I speak?


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[pegasus]

((((((((((( Rhapsody ))))))))))))))

If you are not getting enough sleep and missing out on REM-dreaming, which is needed for the brain to put all the files in the right compartments, the brain can sometimes do this when you are semi-awake.

This 'movie' - making can also occur during recovery from trauma and could be a flash-back.(ie the brain trying to process the trauma).

I don't know if you have PTSD?

It is a bit scary, but if you know what is happening it helps.

Try to get some proper rest and take good care of yourself. And use your best coping strats.

Thinking of you.

[kimmydawn]

Is the movie about things that have happened, like memory, or is it more random and just images with sounds that seem to have no connection?

I know that I deal with "sleep starts" which is an internal "blast" with flash of light just as I'm drifting off. Possibly this could be a form of that?

good luck!

KD

i think that it will happen when we are sleep deprived. when i was the sickest, i had a "flash" of that.

i hope you can get more rest. we just can't function without a certain amount of sleep.

have you talked to a doc about not getting enough rest? will your doc give you anything to help you relax? pat

[Rhapsody]

I would have to say that the images are of many things.... things that I am dealing with, things that I have seen or thought about, random events & random people faces (some strangers), some familiar people and places, abuse, fears, insecurites, sexuality.... you name it and it is in there (still pics, slide shows, silent films).

I would have to say that I have suffered with this problem for about 7 years or so (maybe longer).... but it has not happened in while so I thought is was over and done with - like maybe I finally dealt with the wound that always brought it out.

I have meds to help me sleep, but I try not to take them every night.... more like every three nights or as needed.

It is just like the MOVIE I am watching (in my head) starts as soon as I try to go to sleep.... not even been in the bed with the lights out for say 5 minutes then BAM it starts.... I hate movies that bring me discomfort or leave me feeling insecure. And well, the voices are scary..... nothing bad just noticeable and the person is not even in the room with me, but I can hear them talking as though they were.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Sabrina]

I am sorry you are experiencing these sleeping troubles. I know exactly how it feels for I have played so many movies when trying to sleep, I'm surprised I haven't attended an award ceremony. For some reason, as soon as I lay my head down and try to sleep, my mind comes alive and will not shut off. And then when I do fall asleep, whatever has happened or is going on in my life continues in my dreams. Needless to say, I wake up exhausted.

I don't know what to suggest for you, just wanted you to know that I understand.

[Rhapsody]

WOW!!! - Thanks Sabrina for letting ME know that another person is going thru the same thing.... some times I feel as though it is only me.... now if we can just only get a NAME for this problem or disorder.
I feel better when I can understand what I have or what I have to deal with.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Hi Rhapsody,
You are always the voice of reason and wisdom when responding to a post-I wish I had that skill to try to help you but I don't.
All I can say is that I hope the credits roll soon so the very tired audience can go home.
Hugs!!!

This would also happen to me. It is basically the brains process of storing things into the long term and short term memory process. When a person sleeps many elements of that persons experiences get played and mishmashed together. When a person is not sleeping it still happens. The brain takes the bodys relaxing at bedtime as a cue to start the dream processing and events replay and mishmash.

How I took care of it -

I wear headphones and listen to relaxation type tapes and music. While listening to that my brain is basically being told I am "not sleeping" so it doesn't start the sleeping store the memory processes yet. While I am listening to the relaxation stuff I am also doing progressive relation of relaxing all my body. I soon fall asleep without the running comentary/movie playing but with my relaxation visualization of the music and progressive relaxation and wake up feeling like I got sleep that night.

[Hopefull]

I like relaxing music, nature sounds or lullabies to sleep by. It helps my mind have something to focus on rather than it's internal stuff.
I also find that allowing my mind to wonder for a while during the day and writing about my feelings before bed helps to reduce the things that are on my mind.
My T had also suggested making yourself a relaxation tape which I haven't done yet. I have the idea of what I want to do. I have a relaxing place in my mind that I like to visit. Do you have a relaxing place that you visualize sometimes? If you make a tape of yourself talking yourself through a relaxation technique with your place, it might give your mind something to focus on other than your movie.
If you are anything like me, you may find that you wake up repeatedly and go through this annoying problem of trying to make your brain shut up in order to get to back sleep.
As for what it is, I don't know. Since I cry a lot also and follow the symptoms of depression, my counsellor is wanting to ask some further questions and re-think the previous Dx. I have read that insomnia tends to be an emotional problem or stress problem.
Do you talk to anyone about this? Having someone to help you deal with whatever may be bothering your mind may help too.

[Rhapsody]

Thanks Myself & Hopefull,

I will have to give the tape thing a try again - I used to do it years ago just to be able to go to sleep, but I guess I got out of the habit.... I have a sleep inducing music tape some where around this old house. Maybe I should do some Spring cleaning (and) SOON!

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

P.S.
Thanks for your kind words JAX.... you have validated me for the next week - (smiles).

[Rhapsody]

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If you are anything like me, you may find that you wake up repeatedly and go through this annoying problem of trying to make your brain shut up in order to get to back sleep.
I have read that insomnia tends to be an emotional problem or stress problem.
Do you talk to anyone about this? Having someone to help you deal with whatever may be bothering your mind may help too.

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I have you all here to HELP ME and I do talk to my husband when it goes beyond any thing I cannot handle in RL.... I LOVE YOU ALL so much !!! - this site is my Gift from Heaven....

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

Last night was better.... slept like a baby (i think) -

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Sabrina]

I am happy for you. Keep talking to us about it. Hopefully it only gets better. (I didn't sleep too badly last night either!)

[Rhapsody]

FYI - - - I do think that it is my mind dealing with / filtering out all of the junk and thoughts that get stuck in my head and needs to find a way out.... it just gets so tiring and emotionally draining when it goes on all night long (as it does at times), some times it even goes on during a daily nap that was meant to refresh me for the rest of the evening.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Sabrina]

I hear you -- it is exactly like this for me.