frustration or depression?

I'm sorry to say it again, but I am not doing so well and thinking of giving in. It is just no use! No matter what I do, I fail! Life is just too hard, everything I see, everyone I know is better than me. I don't know what I want to do with my life, and I don't know how to do anything anymore. I thought I was ok, and had some help from those job services and they can't even find me a job. What the ....is wrong with me?!? Something better happen for me ASAP or I will give up! It's just NO use! I don't know what I feel anymore.

((((((( HUGS )))))))

I was once where YOU are now and I still return to this of being no where in life or in my mind, but YOU know what - I always find a light in the mist of the darkness around me..... we are fighters and together we can over come any thing.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

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((((((( HUGS )))))))

I was once where YOU are now and I still return to this of being no where in life or in my mind, but YOU know what - I always find a light in the mist of the darkness around me..... we are fighters and together we can over come any thing.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

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Beautifully put, Rhapsody

(((ariesmars)))

ariesmars...rhapsody said it well...we all have our times when we feel unwanted, unloved, useless in this world...but it is not true...please keep fighting...things will get better! I had a good day yesterday and that made me happy!! Please hang in there!!!

It's both and I feel like that now and it is so frustrating to feel this way , but Rhapsody is right and i am hanging onto that at the moment, that when I feel ok it is so very good, the sense of freedom of the mind is a wonderful and powerful feeling.
Hang in there wiht me and just get through today and do nt think beyond that - that is my plan, the smallest chink of hope is all you need.

Think about a time when you felt free even if it was only for a few hours/minutes and keep hold of that thought.

Here's to us all !

There were only 2 times I've felt really happy in most of my life and there were when I held my Bucky (why did he leave me, why couldn't I be first)? and when I was flying in a small cessna 150 alone with only the instructor. Flying is the only real goal I have anymore, but it cannot be obtained because of the job issue. And whenever I want to fly I get depressed because I can't afford it. I've just GOT to fly, the freedom that it provided and the skills/talents required, its that last challenge left in this modern world, not to mention to see the world from that peaceful view! I wonder if there is a way to get free money, so I can live my last dream.

depressed because you know what you want...wanting nothing...that is depression...take flight one way or another...not this 'i can not' SO 'i will not'

I had a fairly good day today (friday 15th). So later on at night, I thought I would check the personal ads and see if there is anyone on there and well everyone I find loves to do the things I don't care to do and it really puts me down. I feel like trying to find someone, even a friend is just hopeless. I never got like this before, but in the last couple months this stuff started to hit me harder and harder. It must be at a certain age, it kicks in. God, I hate it! I'm trying to hang in there, but I just need a friend!

everybody needs a friend....good luck with finding someone you can share with...until then you have us (((((hugs)))))