[tigerlily84]

Feeling okay of late. I've been trying to up the self care of late by doings nice things for myself, like painting my nails, and making sure that I shower. Sorry if that last part was tmi, but I can have a hard time with that when I feel depressed. Anyway, I'm doing my best and I'm trying not to expect more than what I can reasonably do. Easier said than done, but I can only try.

[tigersassy]

Not doing well but don't know if it's depression or not. I just want it to end.

Tig

[nummy]

I don't really know. My sinkful if dishes is in opposition to my head, which feels ok. Mostly. But I've been comparing my self to others and feeling might, mighty short.

[Bigmike727]

Well today was ok, been pursuing some hobbies so that has been keeping my mind distracted.

[Hellion]

It would seem the depression is trying to drag me down...doing a fairly good job. Just really don't like that feeling and I am quite tired on top of it so I think I will go to bed rather soon at least for a while.

[birdpumpkin]

Tired of dealing with crap, and it seems that's all life doles out to me. The husband has to go work on a leak in town. That gets my anxiety up real bad ever since I've developed ptsd after our fire 6 months ago. So trying to deal with it - but tired of dealing with it. Feel like giving up. It's just the same old thing day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year. Just starting to feel down about everything now. Seems life never gets any better. When there is something good, it seems it gets taken away from me or falls through or something will happen to mess it all up. When I start to feel happy or good, something will happen to knock me back down. So tired of life.

[JustTvTroping]

I'm one week away from summer vacation, so I guess I'm a little better (my school's system is different). I have to sit through a couple of exams and see if I get bored in my own apartment on the days I don't have exams, but I guess that will make my vacation more even more worthy in the end(even if it is only a week long).

[maddnessreturns]

Can't sleep. Finally got a shower at like 5pm today. I'm just dreading work and trying to keep up when I can hardly take care of myself.

[glok]

My functionality has declined.

[TheOriginalMe]

My mood is still low but the cause has definitely resolved itself as hormonal. I've just got to hope that it isn't too heavy or prolonged as I can do without the hormone therapy messing up my progress.

I did something really pleasant today, I drove out into the countryside and stopped at a little village of stone cottages, situated in the foothills of a small mountain range. There was a little church, a parish pump and water trough, a pretty village green, best of all the village institute building was open and there were home made cakes for sale. I bought a cake and a pot of tea and had them sitting outside on the village green. About a dozen other families were doing the same, it was all very peaceful and very english.

[Vhv91]

Today I was feeling really bad, so I found this forum and made my first post, it really helped. Also, the speedrun marathon SGDQ started, and watching it makes me feel better.

[herethennow]

starting school on a reallly bad note.
really need extra help right now but T's appts are super full and i havent met the new pdoc yet so ibasicallycanttrusttheperson

[regretful]

Just plain sad...

[Espresso]

I have absolutely no energy. I don't feel right today. Lethargic. Depressed. Bored. Blah.

[Bigmike727]

Well the new series of Falling Skies started, so that improved my mood a bit.

Feeling kind of crappy today. Had a bad day yesterday. First, when visiting my brother and his family, my sister-in-law implied that I was infringing on their family time and my visits were unwelcome. Then, a friend of mine with whom I've been communicating a lot by facebook and email told me that it's draining to have someone in your life who's depressed (meaning me). They both just made me feel guilty for having this depression and needing to reach out to people. It makes me feel weak that I have to reach out so much, but I can't help it. I need human interaction.

Now I'm worried that they won't be there for me - - so who will? Or will I just keep chasing people away with my neediness? This depression SUCKS. It's robbing me of everything, including my self-respect and sense of dignity.

Went to family members' house last night. Just being there was extremely triggering for me. Left feeling suicidal and skipped dinner. Slept until noon today. Not good.

[~EnlightenMe~]

I feel the lowest of lows and there's nothing I can do about it.

[Vhv91]

I wanna travel, but there's no one to go with me... and I'm going to spend more money from my parents... even if it's going to be my birthday present... it doesn't feel right...

on the other side, I laughed a lot today watching the speedrun marathon, I don't fell so sad as I usually do

[aquabelle]

Just released from hospital after 10 days...feeling great to be home, but anxious about facing the world that sent me into such a deep depression. Hopefully the new meds and support system will keep me stable.

[ak482]

Another garbage day. Started right by leaving my phone at home, then arriving late for work (and couldn't call my boss). Then decided to try an energy drink, which made me jittery and dizzy. And of course I was greeted with the love of a leper by my co-workers who hold a grudge against me because I screw up all the time and keep them late. I get it, I'll just keep my mouth shut and do my work and hope it's perfect, just leave me alone They can't stand me.

[TheOriginalMe]

Got overtired today and spent the afternoon asleep. My dog kept checking in on me to make sure I was still asleep, she kept bringing me toys and I had quite a little pile by my feet by the end of the day. I'm still feeling moody and anxious about a docs appt on Thursday. I'm fretting about a scan result and some blood tests.

[waterknob1234]

Originally Posted by ak482

Another garbage day. Started right by leaving my phone at home, then arriving late for work (and couldn't call my boss). Then decided to try an energy drink, which made me jittery and dizzy. And of course I was greeted with the love of a leper by my co-workers who hold a grudge against me because I screw up all the time and keep them late. I get it, I'll just keep my mouth shut and do my work and hope it's perfect, just leave me alone They can't stand me.

Sounds like a bad day. Maybe it's best to leave the energy drinks alone. Coworkers can be a pain. I had some trouble with some of my co-workers today too. I wonder if there is anything you can delegate to any of your co-workers, or are they not qualified to help you. It still sounds to me like you have too much workload. When one person is expected to do the work of 3 people it is a recipe for stress. I truly hope something gets better for you. Best of wishes. I know what it is like to have too much stuff to do.

[ak482]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

Sounds like a bad day. Maybe it's best to leave the energy drinks alone. Coworkers can be a pain. I had some trouble with some of my co-workers today too. I wonder if there is anything you can delegate to any of your co-workers, or are they not qualified to help you. It still sounds to me like you have too much workload. When one person is expected to do the work of 3 people it is a recipe for stress. I truly hope something gets better for you. Best of wishes. I know what it is like to have too much stuff to do.

Energy drinks are finished for me. I never liked coffee because of the taste, now I have absolutely no reason to drink it ever again with that much caffeine, I'll take Coke Zero for a little jolt.

As for my co-workers, they're qualified to do the work. We have people call off and others move to different departments so that hurts. Plus I just hate the feeling of being an outcast.

[ktsilver6]

Today was rough. I'm switching my meds once again, this time from Lexapro to Zoloft. I feel like I may be having some discontinuation symptoms. Lots of back pain, confusion, fatugue. Ugh