I feel defeated. I don't have the energy. I just want it to end. I want it to end now. I can't do this anymore. It's too hard. I've had enough. No more.

[Angelique67]

I'm feeling a lot like that too right now.

[Seablisse]

Same here...Its a battle day in day out- no breaks from the fight. Nothing but a constant struggle-not even a shred of time that's not consumed the barrage of thoughts racing in my mind.

[waterknob1234]

Some days you just feel like giving up. There are days that you do get tired of fighting. Sit down, take a break, talk to us. Or find some distraction. This depression business is painful and hard. Hang in there. We all love you. You have always been a great support to me in my darkest moments. Hang in there. The bad feelings will pass.

[Idiot17]

Why does it seem like you just echoed my thoughts.....have nothing comforting to say.....
(((((Secret)))))

[TheOriginalMe]

Tuck yourself up in bed, empty your mind. Stay warm and safe. Concentrate on physical comfort, just be kind to yourself. You have been fighting so hard, so why give up now? Today, tell yourself another day won't matter, then tell yourself the same thing tomorrow and the next day. None of this advice makes it any easier but I'm in a dark place too and I'm resigned to fighting on no matter how scary and intense the thoughts get.

((((((Secret))))))

[vital]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I feel defeated. I don't have the energy. I just want it to end. I want it to end now. I can't do this anymore. It's too hard. I've had enough. No more.

Your senses are trying to heal you. Go find some pleasant sensory experiences. Feel a warm breeze. Take a bath. Listen to music that you love. Look at the fall colors. Take a walk. Pet a cat or a dog. Have a delicious...something (I have a sudden craving for a Malted Milk Shake!?).

[Altered Moment]

I am feeling rather defeated at the moment too. It is coming back.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

[Pierro]

It is so hard to keep going. Things do change, they don't stay the same. Sending you warm and friendly hugs from across the water. Be good to yourself, take care of yourself.
Tomorrow is a new day and hoping it brings all good things to you.

Best wishes

[Idiot17]

Originally Posted by zinco14532323

I am feeling rather defeated at the moment too. It is coming back.

((((((Zinco))))))

[pacots]

I feel the same way, so sick of this. Walking around like a robot, not living just existing. Depression wins, I lose I gave uo too exhausted to fight it anymore.

[Creative1onder]

I'm feeling like part of me doesnt want to carry on living anymore but other part is still trying to keep on even though things are challenging and feeling in despair. It feels too much to make things better for self. Things have gotten worse over the yrs for me. Im at an age where i think im missing out on so much. I dont feel im living real life. Im stuck in head a lot. I feel trapped in my illness and alone in what im going through.

[Beachlover527]

I have felt this way before. I don't want to think about it bc it would probably trigger feeling depressed again. I've recently been doing well because of quotes I read and I also did a course on an app called Happier and it really helped me see my worth and that I am fine just the way I am. I do feel hopeless quite often and I don't WANT to but it happens. I am just trying to have hope and believe that I am worthy of everything good.

[Creative1onder]

Id like to think that im fine as i am and my life is great but fact is its not. Id be deluding myself if i told myself things are all ok when they arent clearly.

[Beachlover527]

Originally Posted by Creative1onder

Id like to think that im fine as i am and my life is great but fact is its not. Id be deluding myself if i told myself things are all ok when they arent clearly.

I feel exactly that and honestly I don't know how to get out of this ditch. But idk why I feel like me having hope and me TRYING to get out will allow me to get out of feeling sad and bad someday. And also appreciating the little things that happen in every day helps me feel hopeful. It could be like Me finding a cute lipstick color. I think Wow! This is the perfect color. I am so so so happy about this. It brings me lots of joy. Lol the little things

[Creative1onder]

People like to pretend, put on a show, a mask to hide their inner issues. Well, me im not like that. I dont hide my vulnerability, i show im depressive, anxious, irritable, tense..whatever. People notice, pick up signals about you. Peple can read tell if your hiding something, or not being yourself. But also people dont want to know about others problems because its not their business, its not happening to them, not affected. Its easy to criticise, make judgements people and give advice, without knowing understanding their feelings or circumstances.

[Beachlover527]

Originally Posted by Creative1onder

People like to pretend, put on a show, a mask to hide their inner issues. Well, me im not like that. I dont hide my vulnerability, i show im depressive, anxious, irritable, tense..whatever. People notice, pick up signals about you. Peple can read tell if your hiding something, or not being yourself. But also people dont want to know about others problems because its not their business, its not happening to them, not affected. Its easy to criticise, make judgements people and give advice, without knowing understanding their feelings or circumstances.

I think I put on a mask and I am not proud of it but I feel like I'm conforming to society and how positive everyone else seems to be. The thing about showing that you're feeling sad, depressive, anxious whenever it comes up is that people don't like being around someone who shows sadness often and stuff like that so that is why people don't show it around others. Especially to those they want to make happy. The thing is for me, I feel hopeless. I also feel down a lot and worry constantly and get stuck in fear. Me being positive isn't an act but more of me WANTING to get better. To stop Feeling the sadness I do because it gets unbearable to have within. That's why I try to be positive because if I am not being hopeful, I would probably not be in a good place at this very moment. I don't know your situation, I hope I am not harming you in any way. I was just trying to help you and tell you how I personally feel in my life.

[ombrétwilight]

I'm sorry you feel this way. I know how sucky it is. Will it make you feel a bit better if you can vent it out here? Sending you lots of sunshine and positive vibes

[Creative1onder]

Positivity isnt a cure for illness. Its a way of trying to cope but people dont get better by jst being positive whether they have mental or physical illness.

[Creative1onder]

It doesn't matter what others think about you. Most people are more interested/focused on themselves anyway. And we all have strengths, qualities and faults, weaknesses. Not good to follow others negative perceptions.

[CBWard]

I've felt like you. Eating, breathing, thinking, living was too much effort and I didn't have the energy for it at all. I didn't want to kill myself. I just didn't want to breathe anymore. It was too hard. Too much effort. The days were long and tedious. Each new day was a feat. Just to exist was too much effort for me. I'm still in darkness. But now I see a small pin light in the distance. I think it's hope.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

[Beachlover527]

Originally Posted by Creative1onder

It doesn't matter what others think about you. Most people are more interested/focused on themselves anyway. And we all have strengths, qualities and faults, weaknesses. Not good to follow others negative perceptions.

I guess you're right. Positivity might not be a cure but I feel I have no other choice. Either stay positive & have hope even in rough times OR feel depressed & suicidal. I am not exaggerating, that is my way of thinking and it sucks. Yes it doesn't matter what others think of you but that doesn't mean that people will continue to hangout with someone who is depressing them. It's not a good energy to be surrounded with. Although that person might not care what I think, I would probably feel a little discomfort around someone who is showing those feelings all the time.

[Creative1onder]

Originally Posted by Beachlover527

I think I put on a mask and I am not proud of it but I feel like I'm conforming to society and how positive everyone else seems to be. The thing about showing that you're feeling sad, depressive, anxious whenever it comes up is that people don't like being around someone who shows sadness often and stuff like that so that is why people don't show it around others. Especially to those they want to make happy. The thing is for me, I feel hopeless. I also feel down a lot and worry constantly and get stuck in fear. Me being positive isn't an act but more of me WANTING to get better. To stop Feeling the sadness I do because it gets unbearable to have within. That's why I try to be positive because if I am not being hopeful, I would probably not be in a good place at this very moment. I don't know your situation, I hope I am not harming you in any way. I was just trying to help you and tell you how I personally feel in my life.

I dont know how one can feel hopeful when things arent great for them, when things seem too much to bare. Of course hopelessness is sign of not coping well, not choice. No one wants to suffer do they in any way. We all want to be well, have a lot to live for, to feel good about. People dont suffer with mental illness cos they are negative. Depression is curse of the strong. A lot of people with depression are very caring sensitive people who dont deserve to suffer but they do.

[Creative1onder]

You cant hide depression or anxiety when its severe.

[Creative1onder]

Originally Posted by Beachlover527

I guess you're right. Positivity might not be a cure but I feel I have no other choice. Either stay positive & have hope even in rough times OR feel depressed & suicidal. I am not exaggerating, that is my way of thinking and it sucks. Yes it doesn't matter what others think of you but that doesn't mean that people will continue to hangout with someone who is depressing them. It's not a good energy to be surrounded with. Although that person might not care what I think, I would probably feel a little discomfort around someone who is showing those feelings all the time.

I say its not my problem if others dont like me feeling depressed or anxious. They dont get what im going through so i dont need to know what they think of me. People don't want to suffer with depression, they just do and it does lead people to end their life sometimes. So it should be taken seriously as an illness, not some plain fault or weakness of character of someone. People need to show care and respect to others who are having a difficult time coping with their circumstances, rather than criticise or put more stress on them, make them feel worse. You can be positive but still be affected by illness. Not being positive is part of depression too. Its rly hard to see positivity when depression is severe.