i hate christmas

lonely-and-sad · Dec 24, 2014, 06:12 AM

Its been another **** day. I simply do not want to do this anymore. What the hell is the point when you can hardly function. I am supposed to interact with family I see once a year. On this crappy day. I dont think I can do it. Yet what it is the alternative? To sit alone doing what?

Clara22 · Dec 24, 2014, 06:19 AM

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disparaissant. where is your son now? and why would u not get him home for xmas? and im depedating on weather to buy xmas presents for anybody. i have no income so i would have to use my moms money. but both my mom and dad and little sister treat me like crap. and my older sister now gets along with me but at one point we did not. when i was gone in afghan i gave her the keys to my appartment i was living in and contorol over my bank acount to make payments for my appartment. i had a dog with me at my appartment so she needed to be taken out in the morning and night and be fed so that is why i gave the keys to my sister. when i came home it was 3am in the morning i was looking forward to getting back and seeing my dog. i came home and door was locked but the inside looked as if somebody broke in and robbed the place. all my electroniccs were missing there was dog poop everywhere you could stand i had all of my guns missing and my pills stollen and all my military gear which costs thousands of dollars. she had robbed me and almost killed my dog. she didnt pay my appartment i got evicted and she cleaned out my bank account. and she was no where to be found none of my family would tell me where she was. i ended up loosing over $10000 in stuff and owing the military $4000 for my missing gear. and had $2000 missing from my bank account. now do i buy these people pressents and rewward them just beecause its tradition to do so? i have to decide by tomorrow. please somebody help me make this dessision

Hi Xander,
Having to buy presents for or even spending Xmas with people that have mistreated you in that way is not good at all. It is traumatizing. I would not do it, unless it is more dangerous for you to stay alone. If you can, go to some place, perhaps there are people that need companion or help today. Once, when I was in the US, I brought food for the metro station agent and spent some time with her, she appreciated a lot. Hope you can recover soon. I am sending you a big hug

Xander187 · Dec 24, 2014, 07:17 AM

I don't want to get them presents but I feel like if they get me somethjng and k don't get them something it will be weird. And I'm going to just spend time with them on xmas. I don't drive so have no where else tk go. Going to see some family I haven't seen I along time maybe they have changed. But j higley dought it. For some reason they look down on me. My mom is giving me money tk buy presents right. Well she won't even trust me with the money she has to take me to get stuff. She won't just give it to me so I can get it myself. Or she won't let me even look at her bank cards. My dad is the same way. Now that sounds real trusting doesn't it?

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Clara22 · Dec 24, 2014, 10:28 AM

Hi Xander,
It is not very encouraging at all! I am not a good adviser but I am thinking that I have been trapped in situations I could not escape like you right now. In my case, I made an effort to think that that thing was just temporary and that I needed to swallow it like a pill you don't like. At the same time, imagining how I was going to get out of the situation in the future helped me to pass that moment. I do not know if this is useful, but I am sharing my experience just in case. I will spend these holidays in bed at the hospital, not very encouraging, either. But I will be sending my best wishes for you and all here at PC

shadow-girl · Dec 24, 2014, 10:42 AM

I just want to give you a hug and slap myself on the face to remind me that I should be happy with my family even tough they treat me like I'm 12 all the time, they are there and they care and I'm a ***** for not always appreciating that

I will be alone at new-years eve and that feels very lonely too, only the animals to wish a happy new year so yes, I can relate to how it feels when you are alone in these time of the year

Angelique67 · Dec 24, 2014, 11:46 AM

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Hi Xander,
It is not very encouraging at all! I am not a good adviser but I am thinking that I have been trapped in situations I could not escape like you right now. In my case, I made an effort to think that that thing was just temporary and that I needed to swallow it like a pill you don't like. At the same time, imagining how I was going to get out of the situation in the future helped me to pass that moment. I do not know if this is useful, but I am sharing my experience just in case. I will spend these holidays in bed at the hospital, not very encouraging, either. But I will be sending my best wishes for you and all here at PC

Good luck Clara! I hope all is well.

maddnessreturns · Dec 24, 2014, 11:33 PM

Hugs. I have a love hate relationship with it. I love to decorate and wrap gifts but I hate every other aspect. It's another day. This is the first year I'm planning to not see my family.

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Xander187 · Dec 25, 2014, 12:38 AM

Who are you planing on spending it with then?

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QuietMeFromNowhere · Dec 28, 2014, 05:47 AM

Christmas just about put me over the edge this year. Major depression and so many losses if I wrote a book it would be too unbelievable. On New Years eve write me and we'll ring it in together. I haven't figured out the msg on this site yet and hope I can get back in again. I signed up to work the holidays because they are hell since mom died, divorcing, kids cruel and ignore me. Still I tried hard to hide the tears and am a miserable sad sack at work, trying so hard to be positive on the outside when my story is tragic and people don't know what to say to me. Listening to others talk about their merry plans when I am all alone. I am isolating and having trouble getting out of bed. Making it worse buts I am unable to fight it now, it has overcome me. No gifts from anyone this year except my husband filed another harassing divorce motion. I am being a negative, sad sack, a few small gifts from colleagues, but my family is shattered. I am terrified of being old and alone.

Raindropvampire · Dec 28, 2014, 06:30 AM

Well it's too late for this year but anyone that doesn't want to be alone on Christmas should go to a nursing home for the day. There are always people there who would kill for a visitor on christmas or any day for that fact.

lonely-and-sad · Dec 28, 2014, 06:35 AM

New years is even worse for me. Most people appear to be out enjoying themselves and having fun. I have nobody. Literally nobody. What does one do? Watch tv? My life is slipping by. The only thing left is that my meds might actually work and I can try to get some enjoyment out of what remains of my life. I called the acute mental health team here today as it was a very severe day. They will get back to me in two days. Acute? .... yeah

Breckman · Dec 28, 2014, 08:40 AM

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New years is even worse for me. Most people appear to be out enjoying themselves and having fun. I have nobody. Literally nobody. What does one do? Watch tv? My life is slipping by. The only thing left is that my meds might actually work and I can try to get some enjoyment out of what remains of my life. I called the acute mental health team here today as it was a very severe day. They will get back to me in two days. Acute? .... yeah

I know exactly how you feel.

Breckman · Dec 28, 2014, 08:45 AM

Whats so good about Christmas or New Years for that matter?It signals another year of misery approaching. My family insist i come to join them for Christmas.But why? I feel 10 times worse after i go than before i went.I've tried tp explain it to them.But no one can understand it. I go and everyone is laughing abd having a wonderful time it seems...but i just sit in a corner and watch the happy beautiful people that have never suffered a traumatic injury or seen the things i have. Sometimes i wonder why i stay alive?