confessions of little turtle

I only just discovered this thread and it made my night 1000x better. The fact that you’ve survived and fought through this for as long and you have is inspiring and it helps me believe that even though things might not get better, or might get worse that I can fight through and try my best to make the most of what I’ve got. I’m only 19 and I often feel like there will be no end to all of this but I am a bit more hopeful of my future thanks to you

Yes please. Little turtle thank you for the suggestion.

My doctor put me on 100mg lamotrigine twice daily and 10mg buspirone at night. He has done away with the clonazepam. Coz clonazepam was not helping me with the panic attacks.

My online bf is doing a lot for me. I think he is sleeping less to be with me on whatsapp though he is saying that he is not being able to sleep well.

I would like to know about your advise about buspirone. Is it a good drug?

I don't really know...I never took it...I never prescribed it...maybe somebody else here might say something...

I don’t know anything about grrrrr meds except that I’m allergic to all of them

Fight, flight, freeze, fawn, the 4 F’s (CPTSD). I think I’m in the wrong forum. I can’t help at all re meds, I freeze or flee

Since they have screwed my body up and traumatised me it’s not surprising

I do not have a pdoc.

I used to, but as I mentioned, he said there was “no point” in talking. He just prescribed meds. Thanks a lot

maybe fuzzy you are fortunate...being allergic to all of them...

I don't know if this is good, or bad, but I am very sensitive to SSRI's. I have a bad reaction, just not life threating, but I am in able to function with them. I feel as though I will jump through my skin, and I can't keep my legs, and feet under control. One of my meds is Lyrica, and I grind my teeth pretty bad, and my gums throb. But I guess this is better than not having control of my lower body. I try to do as asked, but sometimes it just doesn't work, so I let them know. The worst part of this is that they change my meds, and I have to go every month for about 6 months, and that is expensive. Now I check things out before I even get the med from the pharmacy, because if the med doesn't react to any of the other meds you take, they more, or less just tell you a bit about it, and check you off.

When I first took Wellbutrin, I had a weird reaction- intense annoyance with everyone around me. I had to stop taking it. After 20 years, my physiologist suggested I try again- it has since worked really well for me. Thankfully ❤️

meds can help...but maybe more important------
I need to work on my marriage...that causes me the most stress..

QUOTE=little turtle;5966670]meds can help...but maybe more important------
I need to work on my marriage...that causes me the most stress..[/QUOTE]

I am always afraid that I will be left alone...my kids follow their mother.... this causes me a lot of stress/anxiety...

I just watched a podcast by james moore on MIA website....dr Jennifer bahr talked about treating the whole person....she experienced bipolar problems...I found it helpful for me...I really want to get off my celexa...

Are you going to start another thread little turtle? This thread is getting very long

I was not going to take any action fuzzy...will there be a problem for me and others here...

Dear Mr. Little Turtle, what is going on, or not going on with your marriage? Maybe one of us can be of help, after all, that is what most of us are here for. We are here for help dealing with issues!!!!!!!

I’m hurt by people who are supposedly “caring” and supposedly wanting to “help” people.

I don’t know what their diagnosis is but I can guess.

I’m not a garbage can and I’m not a freakin toilet

(PS Not about anyone here)

Fuzzybear, if I said anything to offend you, or anyone I am so sorry. I don't ever want to do that to anyone. If I have please tell me. If I do something like that I feel so horrible, because I wouldn't want it done to me.

(((((( katydid ))))))

You haven’t said anything to offend me

I’m sorry, I should have mentioned it isn’t anyone here

I’m not very easily offended anyway... only by really abusive stuff or cruel rejection

Thank you so much, I thought I might have said something to upset you, and I never want to do that. I totally love to see your bear hula dancing. At times just seeing that can cheer me up!!!!!!!

i am understanding what power struggles go on in marriage ...i come from a dysfunctional family so marriage is very very hard for me...i have a hard time speaking up ....i don't like to fight...

I am also very quiet, and I don't ,
and won't fight. My family from the very start of my life it was dysfunctional. Even now, and for the past 27 years has been dysfunctional. Marriage is also hard, but if you want to make things a bit better, compromise. If there is something you want, and something she wants trade out. Say, do, whatever she needs, but tell her what you need, say, or want. Marriage it's self is a job, and don't forget the majors, like any special date. Bring her flowers, chocolate, and cards. Most women, no matter what she said about them, she enjoys getting them, just because. No reason at all.

my last big breakdown still bugs me....I left the private practice of psychiatry in 1973..
I stopped suddenly seeing patients and tried to do something else....I couldn't do anything...I was severely depressed...I had too many problems of my own...I just couldn't listen any longer to my patients suffering...I had my own problems in my marriage...but my biggest problem being in charge of a private practice all on my own...I just broke down...

bottom line----I had too many personal problems myself to be able to help others....
it was not for me after years of preparation and training...I wanted so much to help my patients without using medicines...but I couldn't do it...I tried...what a downer..

You have to stop torturing your self. You seen what needed to be done and you did it. Do you think the patients you had at that time would have gotten the care they needed if you stayed? Do you think your family would have kept going the way things were if you stayed in practice? Stop blaming your self, like me with my Daughter, I made the best decision I could at that time in my life.

thanks katydid777.....I would really like a valium right now...