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#101
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Tomorrow is another day, no?
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#102
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![]() It is so hard when you're going though a difficult time and you feel stuck. And it's like it will never end. Hang in there.
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#103
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And the situation?
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#104
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Another crazy day. It's 7:32 and I need to get home from the office...
It was almost midnight when I left last night. Didn't go to sleep until around 3 a.m. Of course I was late getting to work... Need to cancel one of my appointments and am avoiding doing it. Maybe I'll start getting ready to leave and see if I can make myself make the call before I walk out the door. Will start over tomorrow. <sigh>
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#105
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Doing better now, made it through the day.
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#106
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#107
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Some people in my life are being problematic and I'm also waiting for an event to take place. |
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#108
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My depression also feels infinate
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#109
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Not one heartbeat feeling happy
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#110
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An alright kind of day. In the morning I went on a hike to a place I went to once before that I liked. It was a good hike again this time and a nice day to do it. Did odds and ends in the afternoon and took a one hour bike ride.
Been feeling very down about having to take medication and other things to go along with it. It has to do with the prostate cancer surgery I had from last year. I thought that after having the surgery, I would have some minor check ups and then be all done. Well, no sir-eee. I guess that's the way it is with other guys. I'm feeling down about medication, other things like imaging, and the costs that can go along with it. I was telling my friend tonight on how I feel about this. I felt like I ranted too much with him and feel guilty. He does not like to hear complaining that much. It's amazing that he's 80 years old and does not seem to have much wrong with him. Except for his personality, at times! |
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#111
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Finally had the meltdown that's been fighting to get out. It only made me feel worse.
I am a doormat and I do not know how to stop being what I am... Need to go home and go to bed. I wish it felt like someone cared...
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#112
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Today is the last weekday of my vacation. There is still the weekend. I have to see the dentist tomorrow morning. I hope that goes alright. I tend to worry about it before going in.
I didn't do much today. I went to visit a famous resort near where I live. I had never been there before. It was alright. Not that exciting. I felt pretty depressed today. This was a pretty good vacation this time and it's sad that it's over. Plus the whole medication issue that I'm facing and my finances. I have been thinking very heavy about selling my place and moving somewhere else. I'm very heartbroken about the whole thing. There was a time when I had ample money, had some nice people at my place, and was perfectly healthy. And now it's all gone downhill. |
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#113
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Sometimes I wish I could just give in to my impulses and be crazy
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#114
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Another depressed day but at least I'm able to function. I've gotten a few things done but an now on the couch watching tv.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin "Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha ![]() |
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#115
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I woke up very early this morning for a Saturday (at 5:30 AM) to go to the dentist at 7. I'm glad it's over with now. It was alright. I have to go back in two weeks for a minor filling and got some pointers on how to improve taking care of my teeth.
Felt very yucky this morning. I feel a little bit better now but not a lot. I felt like I'm wrestling with the feelings of envy. I feel that about the dentist himself. I really like him a whole lot. He has a kind of personality that I wish I had. Plus I can imagine him living his life with fun. He loves what he does, probably takes nice trips, has a lot of money, and a good social life. I guess we all can't be like that. Oh well! |
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#116
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Woke up feeling down and I know why. Oh well. Got places to go.
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#117
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Everything's been too stupid to the point that it hurts. Sometimes, I just want to be a recluse.
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#118
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It's been a very busy and pretty nice day today. Very hot outside. For some reason, hot weather can make me depressed. Visited my friend later in the morning and part of the afternoon. He's trying to understand me, but he doesn't feel the way I do. Or he just simply does not understand what depression and anxiety feels like. He claims that he's never had it.
I'm still not feeling very well emotionally. I'm feeling very overwhelmed about things coming up. I know I should take it one step at a time, especially right now there's nothing going on that's wrong. It's just dreading the future of what's coming my way and what should I do that's getting to me. |
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#119
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It would help so much if my bf or at least one friend irl would understand anxiety and depression. I sometimes think if they could walk in my shoes or feel what I physically feel they wouldn't question why I struggle much. Advice I get,,, fake it,. Put on an act for the world
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#120
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I just got back from some hardcore shopping. It was good
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#121
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I am feeling suicidal.
just wish I could do it, people tell me not too but never actually tell me why why is suicide so wrong anyway. it's your life, you do what you want with it. |
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#122
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Today is the last day of my vacation. I have not been feeling very good emotionally lately. It's like the depression has come back. This happens to me sometimes. There are little things I can do to make myself feel better, but they just don't seem to work.
I'll take a short bike ride by the end of the day today. Very hot outside, so I don't feel like going on a longer bike ride. With they way I'm feeling, I don't know if that will help a whole lot. My friend has gone out of town for the day and evening. |
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#123
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#124
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I feel a mixture of depression and anxiety.
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#125
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