confessions of little turtle with love

yes..side effects...I cant cry...I cant have sex...I cant get off the celexa..
what is going on desiree..

Nothing much...I m quite depressed...sad, bored and disinterested in everything...still I m trying to push myself to do indoor exercise in the hope that one day it may be able to pick me up from the pits. I feel hopeless.

thanks desiree...how scared are you...
my main problem is fear...I've used psych drugs
mainly to handle fear...I am fearful of having another panic attack..
I cant believe how frightened I am about life...
I have a huge problem handling my feelings...anger/fear/?

Hi everyone

hi fuzzy...how are you..

FEAR????

I also am very frightened about my life. I have a new T, and I am positive that she will be the one who helps me find my self! I know with this site, and my new T, I am going to be a different person at some point. I just hope with all the work, accepting, learning, and facing, that I will end up being a person that I would be happy with!!!

Isn't it just my luck I am born like this? Or perhaps more accurate, have a compulsion to suffer due to my mother's anxiety cum psychosis? I cannot even tell what my physical chemistry professor is saying... physical chemistry is my favorite subject and I am fairly competent at it, not subjective but objective. Due to all the isolation and my temporal lobe epilepsy , I am having hard time understanding what others say when I am outside, which thanks to my mother is never more than a few hours.

wow...I am happy for you...

I am struggling with myself...
I want to be honest...and deal with my life...
but I also would like to just blame depression...

I have never wanted to work very hard..
I am like a child in an old man's body...
but that is me...



also today I am recovering from a long car
ride from Michigan to ohio...cars and trucks
going very very fast...

(((((little turtle)))))
I have a problem handling my feelings too. But right now I have to restrain myself from expressing them bc they won't be entertained by my parents.
I am afraid of life too....mostly of the future...it's very uncertain for me and I don't know who's going to take care of me if I am not able to take care of myself.

hi fuzzy!
(((((fuzzy)))))

in real life I try very hard to help others with their health...
I know a lot about pre-diabetes but no one wants to listen...
most people want a quick fix including ME..i am frustrated..

do you have focal TLE...

yes, TLC got TLE.

Even I want a quick fix. I want to believe in magic. I dream that a miracle will happen in the future and I will be happy once again.
I m too hopeful maybe...
Btw I am trying not to eat too much junk food, drink adequate water, cut down on salt and sugar and exercise. Hopefully I won't be pre-diabetic. However I don't eat much fruit and vegetable.

a child in a bear’s body

I was just called a “health nut” when I didn’t want to consume massive amounts of sugar

I can’t stand people who fling out labels. What’s wrong with them

Hey fuzzie,
I completely understand. I've been given potassium chlorite of some sort. I threw 198 tablets away...still in reach.....my life sux

every doctor should talk less and use more drugs...I was told..

every patient should be seen for 15 minutes...I was told..
I wouldn't do it and they were going to get rid of me...
so I retired...I did not go into medicine to treat people that way..

Well I retired from medicine even before I could take the oath of Hippocrates... it was my dream, to heal people. Even the thought of it was like magic to me. To get paid to do what you love, to be respected, to save lives... all came crashing down, because of my health.

Howdy...

Hey Erti, how are you?

Got out the hospital last week and doing partial hospitalization for the next couple of weeks

What did the doctor say?

That it was schzioaffective disorder depressive type, PTSD, and personality disorder nos.