I feel so stressed it's hard to make myself eat. My days are getting boring and I do what I can.. feed cat, play guitar a bit, dishes. But I still have all my few things toppled around trying to figure out where my important paper work is etc. My son continues to be disrespectful.. it's a work in progress but if it comes to me always being treated like I'm nothing I'm going to have to make him find his own way. He's almost 20 and takes tantrums in stores and when alone with me. God help me find the right decisions

[shovelhead]

I've been getting rid of material things, cuz I don't care about having "things" anymore. I have a plastic bin of all my art supplies. I've thought about throwing the entire thing in trash. But I'm thinking maybe those art supplies could possibly help me feel better? I don't know.. I'm gonna try it out, this week for sure.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been doing pretty good. I do look forward to when this pandemic is behind us. Sometimes it gets me down, so I find something that can replace my thoughts with more positive ones. I like to watch travelogues on tv, or shows about nature, animals, or kids' programs. I like to get my head cleaned out that way.

[tigerlily84]

I was taken off work for depression and PTSD from my employer. I feel like a failure. 6 years ago I was taken off work for about 6 weeks for the same reason. I feel like I haven't learned anything from last time. And guilty for taking time off. I just feel horrible all of the time and wish that this medication would kick in sooner rather than later.

[Rose76]

I am starting to slip into paralyzing anxiety. This is getting me scared. Tomorrow I have to get more accomplished than I did today. Then I will feel less afraid that I'm losing my grip on what I have to handle.

[3rd rock]

Of course I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I am lazy and stupid and ugly. I'm only a burden on society. I have no one. I'm in an abusive relationship with life: it makes me miserable but I'm too much of a coward to leave it. I'm too psychologically maladapted and damaged to ever have anything.

It's coming down to the fact I have to put myself first instead of constantly worrying about my irresponsibility son. I looked into everything. Hes horrible to me, used me for everything..out of my small amount of $. I'm exhausted

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be doing better, & I'm not sure why.

[Rose76]

I'm sliding downhill. Yesterday it was anxiety. This evening it's depression.

[Yzen]

I'm trying to stay in my own circle of hope and not let outside situations with family and work and everything bring me down.

I am really frustrated. I want to buy the dvd box set (seasons 1 to 7) of malcom in the middle

but I don't have the money too. the dvd is £60 on amazon, and that's a hell of a lot of money

but I want it so much. right now it's what I am in to
right now I feel like I'm going to throw a tantrum if I don't have it.

I feel like a spoiled brat

[Buffy01]

I slipped up again. I fallen down the rabbit hole again. Everything hurting me emotionally.

[Breaking Dawn]

This is not my best day.

[3rd rock]

Please God help my books succeed so I can quit my miserable job. I'm trying to use the only gift you have given me but sometimes I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm running on empty.. exhausted, not hungry but I know I should eat. Depressed but keeping my head above water.

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, like the title of this thread says, ups & downs. Looking forward to going back up again.

[Rose76]

I keep sliding down.

been feeling okay.

not done much (nothing), but emotionally okay

[Breaking Dawn]

Still swimming.

I didn't feel like eating today, just ate and feel better now.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling down and defeated today.

I took the day off today. I had made a dental appointment on Saturday some time ago, but decided to do it today instead.

Today was a weird day and some things didn't go well. The dentist was a disappointment. First of all I called the dentist office just before going there at 10 for a quick question. Then the receptionist told me that the appointment at 10 was for Saturday. I thought that I had confirmed that it was today. I rescheduled for a later time, but then got called back and they could take me a little bit earlier. I had saved my correspondence by email to the dentist office from a couple of days ago and it turned out that I was right.

Then I got with the dentist and it turns out I need a couple of crowns. It's been a good while since I needed major work. Also the dentist didn't seem like himself. He's a very cheerful kind of guy but today he didn't seem that way. Something seemed off. Maybe it's because of the virus thing. He was telling me that things have been rough.

After that I went shopping and it seemed like I paid more than I anticipated. And then I went to a gas station to pay a little bit more because it's the only station that has a car wash; and it's a bit out of my way. Well the car wash was out of order. I ended up paying for a car wash that I will use later.

feel like a bit of a failure

I am trying to create a playlist of holiday type music and one of the songs I want on it is a song from the golden sun hotel chain (exclusive to their), and I don't have a copy, can't get a copy, don't know where to find one, so my playlist is basically in complete without that song on it, may as well delete all the rest of the tracks

[Breaking Dawn]

Pretty good. I've been exploring wildlife (especially geese) via the internet. Very enjoyable.

[Rose76]

I feel terrible. I don't think this misery is going away any time soon. I'm afraid I will stay like this. I can feel awful despair spreading over me. I want someone to help me.