[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Hope google can help you with finding positive quotes. Take the time you need to brighten up your bedroom and you will probably feel good for a long time! :hug:

I usually go to my google for positive quotes

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

This time is bad. I fell deep down. If I don't stop this, I won't have much of a Christmas. I don't want to do that to myself.

I keep saying I'll do better tomorrow. Then I don't.

I’m sorry that time has been bad for you

[Rose76]

I was sick until 5 a.m. this morning. Now it's blown over. I'm going to just watch TV for a few hours. Then work on my tree. Not really depressed.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I usually go to my google for positive quotes

Of course you do. I only mentioned it in case you didn't feel well enough to remember to use google. When I am really down I don't always remember what is good for me if I have written it down. For the time beieng I read a lot in my old notes.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I was sick until 5 a.m. this morning. Now it's blown over. I'm going to just watch TV for a few hours. Then work on my tree. Not really depressed.

I am happy for you!

[Rosi700]

Today I have marked two months of my calendar to be my "observation period". It may seem funny to observe oneself, but I believe in it.

I have written up my main goal, which is to measure how well I do it on the items that are crucial for fighting depression like:

Physical exercises
Enough sleep and rest
Healthy food
Relaxation exercises
Vitamins.

When I do it that way, I will be able to see after two months if I have followed the daily structure I want to make persistent.

If that has worked and I feel better, I have really established the habits I need to control my depression and not to be controlled by it.

If I don't feel better, I have more to talk to my GP about. Then there has to be something else that works. (My meds do work well, it hangs more on the routine now).

Of course I expect a set-back now and then in this period, but so it is. A set-back is not a catastrophe as long as one has some psychological tools to help oneself up to go again ...

By the way; I think I know most of my triggers and how to prevent ...

For Christmas I am going away for a few days, so I will not do anything else at home then put on some tablecloth and just a little decoration so it can be cozy when I am back home after the celebration.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Of course you do. :) I only mentioned it in case you didn't feel well enough to remember to use google. When I am really down I don't always remember what is good for me if I have written it down. For the time beieng I read a lot in my old notes. :hug:

Sometimes I forget myself. No worries.

[Rosi700]

I was able to recognize a trigger (when I start surfing around Internet for no reason, something usually goes on inside me), that can lead to further depression.

I give myself creds for catching the trigger before it did any harm.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was able to recognize a trigger (when I start surfing around Internet for no reason, something usually goes on inside me), that can lead to further depression.

I give myself creds for catching the trigger before it did any harm. :D

That is amazing.

[Rosi700]

This has been a difficult day with regard to coping with depression. I woke up happy and thought that this would be a good day. I had planned to do work in the house this day, but after doing my usual physical exercises for keeping my body as pain-free as possible, and after repeating my notes about how to cope with triggers. I felt sleepy.

To become sleepy outside of it's place in my daily planner is very difficult for me. If I lay down to rest I feel I am not following my to do list. If I continue to do what is on the list, I might do it poorly.

I chose to rest and found myself faced with one of my triggers after that. Luckily I was able to fight the trigger and I dusted the living room. After that too tired. I decided to use Netflix as "thought-blocker".

Not the best day, but I have at least eaten healthy meals and I did my physical exercises which I have on my "two month's observation list".

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to sort "things" out.

[Rose76]

I'm okay physically. Mentally I'm not good at all. Didn't even try to decorate my Christmas tree today. Didn't do anything.

I have to believe this will blow over, as has always happened in the past.

[Rosi700]

This has been a mixed day. I was up early, but became tired again after breakfast. I resisted the urge to sleep more, but sat at my PC feeling that life is too difficult. After that I have been out for a walk and I have ordered a vacation at the cost for April/May. I needed something to look forward to. I hope to see it as a gift from me to me for coping in my observation period (the two months I have decided to look at if I follow my to-do-lists, sleep, nutrition, physical exercises and relaxation exercises). I can cancel the trip if I don't feel well in January, but hope that will l not happen. I will rest a bit after my walk before I start hovering the floor in the living room. When that is done I shall be satisfied with the work of this day (keeping the home tidy is part of fighting depression).

[Rose76]

I slept good. I'm sore, like every morning. Just waiting for the Vicodin to kick in. I been depressed for days.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

This has been a difficult day with regard to coping with depression. I woke up happy and thought that this would be a good day. I had planned to do work in the house this day, but after doing my usual physical exercises for keeping my body as pain-free as possible, and after repeating my notes about how to cope with triggers. I felt sleepy. :yawn:

To become sleepy outside of it's place in my daily planner is very difficult for me. If I lay down to rest I feel I am not following my to do list. If I continue to do what is on the list, I might do it poorly.

I chose to rest and found myself faced with one of my triggers after that. Luckily I was able to fight the trigger and I dusted the living room. After that too tired. I decided to use Netflix as "thought-blocker".

Not the best day, but I have at least eaten healthy meals and I did my physical exercises which I have on my "two month's observation list".

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to sort "things" out.

Sometimes we just have those days.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm okay physically. Mentally I'm not good at all. Didn't even try to decorate my Christmas tree today. Didn't do anything.

I have to believe this will blow over, as has always happened in the past.

Sometimes I feel like this all the time.

[Buffy01]

I practically stayed in bed all day today. I didn’t want to get out of bed today I kept dosing off.

[Rosi700]

Has anybody here ever used tips from Flylady? I don't follow her way of planning my days, but her before bed routine and her morning routines appeals to me.

In the evening we are supposed to go through our planner for the next day (for us depressed there is no need to have a busy plan, but at least a few items we want to accomplish). After going through our planners, we are supposed to clean our sinks and lay out our cloth for the next day before we go to bed. A good routine, I think.

In the mornings we are supposed to get up when the alarm rings and dress from top to toe.

I will not set my alarm too early, because I have been sleeping 11 hours each night the last nights.

I suppose that is due to depression. Hope that Flylady's morning- and go to bed rituals may help me come through this dark period in my life.

I have shined my sink after breakfast, so now I am ready for these small rituals.

[hvert]

I tried Flylady a few times years ago but the emails always got to be overwhelming.

[Aardwolf]

First check in, in over a year. At some point I'll have enough mental go energy to actually type it all. I'm still going, somehow.
It feels like someone took everything that gave life any sort of spark, and removed it.

A long and draggy day today. Early this morning I went to a convenience store (that opens 24 hours) within walking distance from me to get dessert for tonight. I went early this morning because I wanted do it before it rains. The store was closed! I couldn't believe it. But I went back 45 minutes later and it was open. I had just beat the rain, in which it's been raining here all day.

I split up with my friend yesterday. Today I called my college friend because I needed a little cheering up. He's OK but not the same as he used to be. He used to be so cheerful and funny. But now he's sobering and appears to be somewhat incoherent.

I have stayed in my place all day. I got stuff to do tomorrow, which I'm looking forward to.