[Samicat]

Dealing with a lot of anxiety about the coming week.

[hiddenaway]

I just love Drew so much. Feels like there's hearts radiating off my body.

[Rose76]

I'm still not hardly functioning. Part of it is the weather - cold, overcast, some rain. I can't seem to warm up. My neighbor died this morning. I'll miss her.

[3rd rock]

Why do I keep doing this to myself? It makes me so sick I can hardly move. But I just keep doing it anyways.

[hiddenaway]

I'm so relieved. My heater is fixed so now I won't freeze.

[Samicat]

Forced myself to call my disability insurance adjuster - I had left my previous employer and closed my claim, intending to return to school and work, but new medical developments have forced me to need to reopen my claim until I can get my health issue investigated and resolved.


My adjuster said to send him new documentation and I did. Fingers crossed. I am living on a partial pension from my former employer (I'm 55), but it will deeply set my mind at rest to have my disability payments again. Right now we are living partly on credit which is so stressful.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I have felt pretty miserable for a couple of days now. Just depressed. I had been doing so good for quite a while. Then the wheels came off. Now I can't hardly move.

I know from experience that depression blows over for me. I just got to get through this current episode. Just lying around, waiting for this to blow over, might not be the smartest thing to do. But I don't want to do anything else. Need to push myself.

Maybe it could be also necessary to figure out why you get depressed if it’s possible. Not always is easy.
Your body is telling you something which you could pay attention to through depression.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Samicat

Forced myself to call my disability insurance adjuster - I had left my previous employer and closed my claim, intending to return to school and work, but new medical developments have forced me to need to reopen my claim until I can get my health issue investigated and resolved.


My adjuster said to send him new documentation and I did. Fingers crossed. I am living on a partial pension from my former employer (I'm 55), but it will deeply set my mind at rest to have my disability payments again. Right now we are living partly on credit which is so stressful.

Wish you good luck with it. 🤞🤞🤞🤞

Feeling like I've been hit with depression lately. I've been doing OK for a while with an occasional bout of it. But now I'm feeling a hit of depression mostly because I'm dreading the future. Like bad things are going to happen and I'll be alone and helpless when the bad times come. And I'm thinking a lot about the end of life for me, though others tell me I'm far from it.

When I was much younger, I had more enthusiasm and positive thinking about the future. And I was happy day-to-day. But now I don't feel like I used to. And yet there are times when I should be the happiest person around; and even things now are better than in the past. So why do I feel so depressed and anxious?

[Samicat]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

Wish you good luck with it. 🤞🤞🤞🤞

I appreciate that.

[Samicat]

Originally Posted by will19

Feeling like I've been hit with depression lately. I've been doing OK for a while with an occasional bout of it. But now I'm feeling a hit of depression mostly because I'm dreading the future. Like bad things are going to happen and I'll be alone and helpless when the bad times come. And I'm thinking a lot about the end of life for me, though others tell me I'm far from it.

When I was much younger, I had more enthusiasm and positive thinking about the future. And I was happy day-to-day. But now I don't feel like I used to. And yet there are times when I should be the happiest person around; and even things now are better than in the past. So why do I feel so depressed and anxious?

I feel the same way. Not sure how much is age and how much is the cynicism of the modern
world/social media/news/politics. I have started to avoid the news other than checking the world headlines on a trusted website.

[Samicat]

Signed up for a university Biology class on Coursera. Health has prevented me from enrolling in the local college program I wanted to take, but I can at least get a start on the material.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

Maybe it could be also necessary to figure out why you get depressed if it’s possible. Not always is easy.
Your body is telling you something which you could pay attention to through depression.

I spend too much time alone.

[Albatross2008]

I could be better. Can't go to physical therapy for my wrist this week. Hubby and I are both down with bugs.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I spend too much time alone.

Makes sense.
Somehow, you will have to change this situation. A little. I know it’s hard when you suffer from social anxiety. But, it’s the way to keep you alive and sticked to Earth.
Try little trips where you can discover new things or things you like: Landscapes, new streets, go to a new shop or take a coffee somewhere new. (This is already a big step when you have social anxiety since for example sitting outside to eat or drink in public is not easy for us). But, when you arrive home you will feel kind of fulfilness money can’t buy.
If you don’t have the strength to do it for now, don’t get angry at yourself. You don’t deserve it. Only, make plans to do it as soon as you get some energy.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Why do I keep doing this to myself? It makes me so sick I can hardly move. But I just keep doing it anyways.

I guess kind of self-medication.

[Samicat]

Up again in the middle of the night. I hope I will one day be able to sleep through the night again.

[Albatross2008]

Still unsteady. But maaaaaaybe I might slowly be starting to improve.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Samicat

Up again in the middle of the night. I hope I will one day be able to sleep through the night again.

Do you take a nap in the middle of the day when you can’t sleep at night?

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Albatross2008

Still unsteady. But maaaaaaybe I might slowly be starting to improve.

This is the attitude. 💖

[Buffy01]

lately I been feeling really awful about myself

[Samicat]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

Do you take a nap in the middle of the day when you can’t sleep at night?

I'm not working right now (55 and between jobs) so I usually try to go back to bed and sleep some more. Like last night I was up from 5-7 but was able to sleep again from 7-10. I'm not always able to do that though, because sometimes I wake in the early morning and can't get back to sleep.

I don't find naps in the daytime helpful unfortunately

[Samicat]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

lately I been feeling really awful about myself

Can you try to suspend judgment of yourself? Nobody deserves to be judged - we are all fallible and have flaws.

[3rd rock]

I feel like I'm finally starting to make progress on my novel. I hope to finish the current chapter by the weekend, working on it after work every day. I booked the first week off in January, so over the holidays I will only have to work 2 out of 17 days, and I'm hopeful this may prove very productive if I focus on my writing throughout that time. Otherwise, every week is just a struggle to get to the weekend. When I successfully make it through the week I feel exhausted and I'm amazed I was able to make it to work every day without calling in sick.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

lately I been feeling really awful about myself

Isn’t it terrible unfair?