Feeling down today.

[Rose76]

A bad day. I've been in deeper pits than this one. But this one has the steepest sides. I can't seem to get a toehold to climb up. Truth is I'm not even trying.

[hiddenaway]

I'm really, really not okay.

I'm not sure if I'm still hormonal or if something is actually wrong, but just about everything is making me rage. The only time I'm not raging or feeling miserable is when I'm watching Drew, sleeping, or playing my switch.

No matter what I do, I can't seem to find any relief.

[Rose76]

I decorated my Christmas tree. It looks very nice. Doing that has made me feel a little better about myself. Now I have a lot more to do to pull this apartment into shape. If I get caught up and have my place nice for Christmas, I will get a huge lift. I should be able to accomplish that. That might pull me out of this depression that I've been in. I'm desperate to get into my "normal," good frame of mind. I've been depressed for weeks. I basically have to work my way out of it. It's a slow, slog.

[rjdb]

Sick and in the middle of my yearly pre-Christmas anxiety attack.

[hiddenaway]

That heartbreaking moment when my newest comfort film is still in theaters only and probably won't be available to buy or stream for a long, long time.

I mean, yeah, I could see it again in theaters but I don't want to pay for my comfort.

[Deilla]

I'm lonely. I feel sadness in my chest, my arms feel heavy and I have a lump in my throat. My head feels stuffy.

[Albatross2008]

I've been worried. My daughter, thousands of miles away from me, has been in an abusive situation. For a couple of days I didn't even know if she was alive. She called me this morning. She's been staying in a shelter and is on her way to a treatment facility. Thank God.

[Buffy01]

Tired of feeling grief during Christmas

[hiddenaway]

Not quite awake yet. Coffee is needed.

[Rose76]

I seemed improved yesterday. Today I'm very depressed.

Today seemed like a long day. I started the laundry at 6 this morning and it was done in two hours. I didn't get out much; just walked to the corner store to pick up a couple of things and a bike ride for an hour around 3. I haven't been sleeping well lately. I wake up after a couple of hours after first getting into bed and then it takes at least a couple of hours to get to sleep.

I'm feeling depressed because I don't have any friends now and still haven't heard from my sister since I called her a week ago. Also I've had to deal with a lot of noise from the drainage construction project near me. All kinds of heavy machinery, trucks, and power tools to make a lot of noise. Even a Bobcat powered jackhammer close to me. It's gone on for quite a while.

[hiddenaway]

Is polyamorous in theory a thing? Because I like the idea of polyamory more than I like polyamory itself.

[Rose76]

I'm desperate to feel normal again. Instead, I'm just getting worse. I wonder if this will ever be over.

[hiddenaway]

I legit thought it was Saturday when I woke up today; like, my first thought was, 'Since when does "The Young and the Restless" air on weekends?'

...only for common sense to kick in like, 'Wait no, it's Friday. Tomorrow is Saturday.'

Tldr; coffee is needed today - and then some.

Did the cleaning this morning. I was feeling alright doing it, except it got ruined near the end by the neighbor next to me who just moved in last week. After the cleaning, I felt down and feeling more that way now. And now I have tomorrow and Monday to dread. No one has called me on the phone in almost two weeks now. Also I feel like I want to leave at where I live.

[Rose76]

I'm not even trying to do anything today. I just give up.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm not even trying to do anything today. I just give up.

Yeah my dizziness is making me anxious. So i finally just said, thats it, i wont be able to do chore a, b, c - and that made me feel a little better, like i wasnt running for a train i cant catch. I did take my pee medicine, which fortunately wasnt too awful today, and after my oatmeal dinner i felt less dizzy. I did sit and refill my med tray for the month, even tho that took some effort, whereas usually it is effortless.

[Rose76]

@unaluna - I like that comparison of running after a train you can't catch. That is exactly how I've felt lately. So today I just gave up. That brought me a kind of mindless peace.

[emily1890]

alone for christmas with not even someone getting me a card

I think Christmas is literally **** when you're just sat at home while everyone else is with family celebrating

[emily1890]

Don't even get me started on new years next week. I find the thing even worse than Christmas

I made it through today. This was a day I wasn't looking forward to. I had all kinds of imaginations on how bad today could be. I pictured a lot of people getting together being noisy and and me being outside of all of it alone. But it didn't turn out that way - thank goodness! It's been very quiet and it and it seemed like those living here went other places. It was what I hoped for. But still I felt bad about being alone and lack of contacts from others on this particular day.

It's all done now. It's over!

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by emily1890

alone for christmas with not even someone getting me a card

I think Christmas is literally **** when you're just sat at home while everyone else is with family celebrating

My situation is similar. I got to church, but otherwise I've been alone. It is hard. I hear you. I'm starting to think about getting a dog.

[hiddenaway]

I'm heartbroken. I got everything I wanted except for the one thing I really, truly wanted - tickets to go down to Glendale and see Drew.

I mean, I didn't really think anyone would do that, but I guess I got my hopes up too high anyway so now I'm probably going to cry myself to sleep tonight.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

My situation is similar. I got to church, but otherwise I've been alone. It is hard. I hear you. I'm starting to think about getting a dog.

This is such a great idea. You can’t guess how much Miky and Perla have done for me. Not especially with depression but they have helped me to make plans to go out with them and approach to some people as well as some people have approached to me.

I only can say good things pets may do to people who struggle with life.