that moment when you think- where's the weekend gone?. have I really just let it slip by and done nothing with it?

yes. apparently so

yesterday my friend laura (well, I don't really think of her as a friend anymore) emailed me asking me how I was and saying that she would really like to talk to me

I just replied saying things were pretty much the same and sent it.

I've moved on

she has her problems I have mine

still not got any sleep in either.

blah

Wishing that we can freely talk about DID with other people without feeling embarrassed.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Wishing that we can freely talk about DID with other people without feeling embarrassed.

yes I agree

I don't understand why it's so difficult to bring up in conversation

my afternoon was confusing.

clearly I lost a lot of time, but the most confusing part of it is that I remember bits of the day... but not sure if they happened before or after the time loss

I panicked this afternoon too, because I just couldn't think

ah well, I know that tonight at half 9 I'm watching mrs browns boys

I hope

if I can stay present

thanks to this god aweful time loss, I have accomplished nothing

again

for the 10000000th time running

[lucidity11]

I moved again. I think I have found a place where I will stay awhile. It is city like and has a lot of different things going on. I hope I can get settled here. I hate moving my stuff.

[Gr3tta_0]

I don't know how to work in exel! And she's absent!

Life is one hectic event after another non-stop... just hoping the next doesn’t flip us out like usual....it’s only been a few days since....but managing.

too much time loss lately

days in a muddle and stuff

[dlantern]

trigger warning......


the devil riding you waking up and pray, is rescripting this since mom lied about who did it! sYMBOLISM OF NIGHTMARES IS HOW I GOT MY FIRST RECOVERED MEMORIES....SO I'M UP LATE NIGHT DRINKING......THE ACTUAL MEMORIES WAS NUDIETY AND LAZY DOOR CLOSERS OF BOTH PARENTS THE DAYCARE AND SIBLINGS AND THE MEXICAN WE'RE OUR WORSE ABUSERS

yesterday evening I abandoned all plans of a cooked meal and just had a KFC!. it was delicious, 8 peaces of chicken, chips and a coke

afterwards I tried to settle down and watch " women on the verge", but was having really bad focus issues, and I ended up... well, I don't remember what I did- I lost time.

no sleep making it yet another sleepless week.
today so far had breakfast and dressed, put music on and came on here.

I feel average... not bad, but not really good- nothing I'm looking forward to or anything

I'm present though. I'm here. I'm in 2018

I'm blacking out quite badly

so coming on here for a bit..

stuffed myself silly yesterday

had southern fried chicken (or in other words a repeat of friday), with biscuits and a whole tub of candy

didn't sleep, and it's now 6 23 and I'm wondering- anyone else up?. lol

seriously though,, 6 23, on an english sunday morning, how many people are up at this time?

imsomnia sucks

plus it seems my watch has stopped so need new batteries for it

yay... more money I don't have. lol

Originally Posted by raging vortex

stuffed myself silly yesterday

had southern fried chicken (or in other words a repeat of friday), with biscuits and a whole tub of candy

didn't sleep, and it's now 6 23 and I'm wondering- anyone else up?. lol

seriously though,, 6 23, on an english sunday morning, how many people are up at this time?

imsomnia sucks

The time on this post on my end says 1:23 a.m.- that means your ahead of me in the future by 5 hours :P

I wasn’t on here but a little got up from a dead drunk sleep to make him a peanut butter and jelly sandwich at that time. And we wonder why we are gaining weight.

We have the next 3 days off for vacation time...what to do what to do...

I was meant to go out today (to do something for my inner child), butt circumstances mean I can't.
so at home just pretending to survive... eating stupid amounts of junkfood, watching programmes I don't wanna really watch, that kind of thing

I also got a new book called the sisterhood. honestly I should start that at some point today, but I can't be bothered.

Damn parts keeping me awake at all weird hours. Blaring the Bruno Mars video “24 Karat” in head while others are talking over the music: like a freaking party going on inside my head while trying to sleep. As usual, I’ll finally crash then I’m too tired to get up but do.

I also wondered if I was being hypomanic.

Having a snippet of memory from last nite of putting polish on my toe nails. Ugh. Feels so unbelievable, then I see my toes.

Stressing over that, the kid, and DID as usual- basically everything that I have no control over.

tough week, very depressed and lots of blackouts (so depressed I didn't come here)

wednesday was halloween, not a bad night I suppose, though a lot of my plans (all of them?), fell through one way or another

still reading the sisterhood, reading it slowly... not so much enjoying it, but when it's finished I will go on to something better I am sure

Body is sore. The workers always want to go to work. (Easier to generalize then be specific)

seemed to lose a lot of time this afternoon- not sure how much but a lot

and now their are fireworks outside my window being loud and constant.

so triggery..

Nothing ever changes, so what is there to really say?

We type delete, type delete...Day in day out...

Definetly hate ourselves, everything posted is wrong, self critical, judged, disliked, why keep living?

[Parva]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Nothing ever changes, so what is there to really say?

We type delete, type delete...Day in day out...

Definetly hate ourselves, everything posted is wrong, self critical, judged, disliked, why keep living?

Thanks for writing this. Sometimes it feels like I'm the only one of the planet that can possibly feel this way. I wish I didn't, and I wish you didn't either.