[LucyD]

I weighed myself and shouldn't have. How depressing! Sometimes I eat so I fall asleep as in a food coma.

[eskielover]

I hate this time of year. I get so busy I dont have time to eat....but the weather is cooler when its not cold & with all the outside work around my farm getting ready for winter & work up an appetite but too tired to eat or I eat a little & get busy & never finish what I started to eat.

Just baked a cushaw to make a yummy cushaw pie (better than pumpkin) & fresh home made. Now I have to find the time to make the pie.

Winter comfort food is yummy if I had the time to eat. Usually make something I can throw in a container & eat while driving to wherever Im going. Weight doesnt lose but dont gain either....so its a status quo.....which is good for me

[LucyD]

I should get busy like you Eskielover. I think I eat out of a bad habit and boredom at times. I need to get busy. I may take up a hobby of some kind. I've been thinking of joining a gym forever. When I'm idle I just think of food all the time. Gotto get my mind on other things. My laundry needs doing and other chores around here. You are a good example for me Eskie.

[Grizabella]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I should get busy like you Eskielover. I think I eat out of a bad habit and boredom at times. I need to get busy. I may take up a hobby of some kind. I've been thinking of joining a gym forever. When I'm idle I just think of food all the time. Gotto get my mind on other things. My laundry needs doing and other chores around here. You are a good example for me Eskie.

Have you ever tried crochet? I learned a few years ago using YouTube videos to help keep my hands busy so I could cut down on smoking and found out that I actually had a knack for it. If you try it, I suggest the videos by Bella Coco. She explains it really well and was easy to follow.

[Blue_Bird]

I've been going to the gym which is nice now that I have a free membership from my college student ID, (not overexercising or anything).

I'm also cutting back to Two coffees with just some sugar and plain cream in them, and after that I will drink black coffee for the rest of the morning. Thats better than drinking like 5 or 6 cups with TONS of sugar in them all AND a lot of sugar creamer.

Small changes make a difference over time. I'm trying not to obsess on my weight anymore and focus on being healthy. When I'm actually hungry I eat, and I don't try to be perfect in my eating habits. I just try to eat pretty healthy along with some of my favorite foods that maybe aren't so healthy but in moderation.

I haven't purged in exactly 30 days. So I'm pretty proud of myself.

Hope everyone is doing okay

[Starving2death]

Hey, how is everyone? I missed visiting so I thought I'd drop in.
My doctor is putting me in the hospital. Right after Christmas so I feel like ****.
My life is going to be miserable being force fed.

Sorry but I'm not in much of a mood. Suicidal if anything.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

I'm very sorry. PM me any time if you want to talk.

[MoxieDoxie]

Eating a salad and soup and hope I do not throw it up.

[LucyD]

I can't talk about my food situation. It doesn't help me and makes things worse; we all are not the same for some it helps.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Grizabella

Have you ever tried crochet? I learned a few years ago using YouTube videos to help keep my hands busy so I could cut down on smoking and found out that I actually had a knack for it. If you try it, I suggest the videos by Bella Coco. She explains it really well and was easy to follow.

I will look into that. I have thought about crocheting and it's not expensive either is it?

[eskielover]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I will look into that. I have thought about crocheting and it's not expensive either is it?

I love knitting (i dont crochet) but its all similar. Ficusing lightly on what you are doing & creating something at the same time. Its fun especially in the winted when Its cold. Keeps hands & mind focused. Good therapy. YouTube has wonderful teaching videos & puntrest has tons of ideas.

[LucyD]

Happy New Year to all! Have to get back to eating more "normal" for me. I am trying to eat better stuff. I still like the sweets, though, too. It's a real battle that's for sure. I do know if I want the scale to go down I need to eat better. I am very much overweight though.

[LucyD]

Wow, I see no one has posted since I last did. Is everyone depressed? The holidays were hard for me but I got through them. My food situation is fair, not as bad as it has been at times and not as good as it has been at times. I'm not trying very hard to do what I need to though.

[malika138]

I don't post here usually. I'm swinging from one extreme to another. I'd prefer not to eat because once I start I cannot stop. I feel out of control. If I don't eat then I am strong. I don't get how talking to t about disordered eating will make me feel better. I've gained 2 lbs in January and feel like such a failure. Yet completed avoided this topic with t today. It is too embarrassing.

[eskielover]

The holidays were stressful. I have had 4 friends pass away since the week before Christmas, one on Christmas day though she was elderly & I saw it coming & then her roommate in thebsame nursing home a werk later. On top of that I came down with that bronchitis that everyone is getting the week after Christmas when I was helping with the funeral. I was ciughing so bad it was difficult to even eat without choking. Needless to say I lost some weight during that time. I stayed at home & in bed fir 2 weeks & I still sm regaining my energy. I havent gone to tbe grocery store since before Christmas which means ALL junk food is gone frkm my house & I am eating all the healthy foods I have stocked away in my freezer for so long. That is also creating a good slow weight loss. I am glad I wasn't at me lowest healthy weight because this would have put me under. It is nice to have a buffer at times like this.

It feels good to be healthy again thoygh I am dealing with a stressful divorce right now & it will orobably get worse as the year goes on as right now he is just NOT responding to the divorce petition & a warning order attorney has been required.....though chances are since he is out of state I will have to go to that state to fight for the division of the marriage assets after I am granted the divorce. Life gets complicated & food becomes a low priority except to keep up enough energy to function.

eating too much today in terms of junkfood.

not even dinnertime yet

[feelinghealing]

Hi. I just signed up for this forum, never done this before. I have had bulimia for almost 20yrs and before that anorexia in my teens. I have fluctuated between really looking at and trying to deal with my habits face to face, feeling utterly powerless, deciding it was ok to let it be my vice, hating it, feeling powerless, best intentions and then bingeing a half hour later, and so on.
Now i am in a relationship with real love and i really want to find my path to health, even slowly, even with failures, even with some sharing with my partner so the love can help too (and so i can help the love relationship). I know hiding it created distance and breakup in the past, rather than the opposite which i somehow had imagined. I won't let that happen again.

I just want to have a place to be totally honest. Even on a day like this i already binged and purged on rice i had cooked last night and was sitting at home uneaten.
Anyway will check in again. Thank you for holding this space.

[MoxieDoxie]

Originally Posted by feelinghealing

Hi. I just signed up for this forum, never done this before. I have had bulimia for almost 20yrs and before that anorexia in my teens. I have fluctuated between really looking at and trying to deal with my habits face to face, feeling utterly powerless, deciding it was ok to let it be my vice, hating it, feeling powerless, best intentions and then bingeing a half hour later, and so on.
Now i am in a relationship with real love and i really want to find my path to health, even slowly, even with failures, even with some sharing with my partner so the love can help too (and so i can help the love relationship). I know hiding it created distance and breakup in the past, rather than the opposite which i somehow had imagined. I won't let that happen again.

I just want to have a place to be totally honest. Even on a day like this i already binged and purged on rice i had cooked last night and was sitting at home uneaten.
Anyway will check in again. Thank you for holding this space.

I am also bulimic and I am 50 yrs old. Has any type of therapy worked for you? So far nothing has made it go away. It has subsided compared to when I first went to therapy.

[LucyD]

I haven't been thinking about my weight too much lately, giving the obsession a break. My eating has been on foods that I need to eat somewhat less. I used to be Bulimic, too, and tried to do it again but it won't work any more. Nothing will come up unless I am really sick. I don't know if that's bad or good. It may be good for my system because purging is bad for the body-the heart, the stomach, the teeth. I don't know what else. Best to everyone.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by eskielover

The holidays were stressful. I have had 4 friends pass away since the week before Christmas, one on Christmas day though she was elderly & I saw it coming & then her roommate in thebsame nursing home a werk later. On top of that I came down with that bronchitis that everyone is getting the week after Christmas when I was helping with the funeral. I was ciughing so bad it was difficult to even eat without choking. Needless to say I lost some weight during that time. I stayed at home & in bed fir 2 weeks & I still sm regaining my energy. I havent gone to tbe grocery store since before Christmas which means ALL junk food is gone frkm my house & I am eating all the healthy foods I have stocked away in my freezer for so long. That is also creating a good slow weight loss. I am glad I wasn't at me lowest healthy weight because this would have put me under. It is nice to have a buffer at times like this.

It feels good to be healthy again thoygh I am dealing with a stressful divorce right now & it will orobably get worse as the year goes on as right now he is just NOT responding to the divorce petition & a warning order attorney has been required.....though chances are since he is out of state I will have to go to that state to fight for the division of the marriage assets after I am granted the divorce. Life gets complicated & food becomes a low priority except to keep up enough energy to function.

i'm so sorry for your losses. That's a lot. I hope you will feel better. We can get through anything ODAAT.

[LucyD]

I really have to take this one day at a time! Every day is a new beginning. I can start over at any time.

[eskielover]

Ugh, intestinal bug with dizziness after recovering from weeks with bronchitis. Food is not appetizing let alone energy to fix stuff to eat. Eating enough to keep my strength. It was a little better today so hoping the bug is ending. Good thing I had a few pounds of buffer weight for times like this. The bad thing I just really fon't feel like eating or msking anything to eat. Much easier to stay in bed when feelung like this. I need my energy back.

[MoxieDoxie]

I did well yesterday on my nutritional plan. I did cut out most of the carb foods the nutritionist wants me to eat so that made me feel better that I did not eat them.

I am going to try and do the same today. My H wants to go out to eat to night so I am going to just get fish and veggies. No drinks no picking on his french fires that he always get! I have to stay good. Warm weather is coming and I do not want to hate myself looking in the mirror anymore.

[tayannesullivan]

I haven't ate anything in over a week, and just the sight of food makes me feel sick to my stomach.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by tayannesullivan

I haven't ate anything in over a week, and just the sight of food makes me feel sick to my stomach.

I'm worried about you