[LucyD]

Originally Posted by eskielover

Your dinner of pierogis sounds wonderful. Glad your blood sugar is lower. I understand the battle of having to determine what foods will or won't effect it.

I have known some people who have lost weight & their diabetis went away but that depends on the type of diabetis you have. Have akso heard if psych meds causing it too. Hope you can find what works

Diabetes can go into remission yes. Once you have it though, I've learned, you always have it. Some go for many years with good numbers in remission. I have type 2 which more people have. I am on low doses of psyche med now. I was off it when I was diagnosed with diabetes so don't think that caused it. I am a lot overweight and that is a part of what caused it plus I was eating pastries and candy and that is when it turned pre diabetic then diabetic. I saw a Diabetes Educator and got a good book on it and testing supplies and she taught me a lot. I am pretty much aware of what to eat and how much but following it perfectly I haven't done yet. I am getting better at it. Thank you so much for your concern--it means a lot.

I hope everything starts turning around for you.

[eskielover]

So glad you went to the educator on diabetis. It is so helpful to know what you are dealing with & how.

on monday I baught 6 bags of fruit candy ( meant to last me until next thursday)

they are now gone

[Blueberrybook]

It's so hard to get past it when years later, eating normally but still weighing low (I think due to a combination of exercise and loss of appetite from ulcer surgery), you try on something small, and it fits. OMG. The other day I had an appointment with my gastroenterologist. I had taken out shorts but not a top. My daughter had had insomnia the night before and finally fell asleep in our bed, and I didn't want to risk waking her. I went into her room, pulled out a youth large T-shirt from our church, and it fit. The shirt is a little big on my daughter but not much. Stupid ED thoughts were over the moon.

[eskielover]

I hadn't seen my T in a year since she went into private practice. With all the legal stuff & stress I am dealing with it what should have been a very simple divorce & really needed to start seeing her again as the legal stuff is just starting & it is going to get nasty. So I had my first return session today. We talked about everything that has happened this last year & then got into the legal stuff I'm going through & the stress level it causes. She remembered I had eating issues (lack or eating) triggered by stress. I am still sble to eat healthy amounts of food though I have been losing weight.....luckily I have enough buffer weight that it will not cause problems unless it really does get worse as the legal battle gets worse....but my whole life is on such a better place than it was before.

Trying to clean some if my house before making a trip back to the state where I hired a lawyer to protect my marriage assets has been non-stop work. A friend who is caring for my dogs came over to get the rundown & brought me dinner because all I took time for was to cut up a big tomato for lunch. I actually made up my chicken I bought into curry chicken salad & made my crook neck squash into a creamed squash casserol (I can freeze what I don't eat until I get home in 2 weeks.

I am glad that between the stresses it will be a working vacation on the ranch where my horse is. Rebonding with my mare & riding her for the first time after all her training & mucking stalls in the desert heat will definitely be exercise. A good way to wear off the stress & keep in shape.

It was good to talk about the weight issue I have. All my life I remember not wanting to get out if shape like my mom did....it's just that at times it can get out if control when there is a majir stressor in my life.

Evrn when I was pregnant back in the late 70's I swam almost every day....didn't slliw junk food even in the house & I was downhill skiing thebweek before I had our daughter. The stress of knowing I had to have a c-section because she was too big for my small body to have naturally scared me. I had never had a surgery before. I ended up losing what little weight I gained & ended up only weighing 2 pounds more than she did & left the hospital wearing my normal cloths. Have always been weight conscious & daily racquettball games with the guys I worked with kept it going. There just was no buffer ehen a long term stress hit that didn't go away like midterms or finals.

Will see how this mess in my life goes. I have already started losing weight but tjis time I am able to eat just a lot less.

[Blueberrybook]

Getting away from ED thoughts is so hard when obesity is such an obvious epidemic around you. I went grocery shopping today. The store was crowded with tons of people, maybe 10-15% of them not highly obese, and half of those children. I hate it when it's so in your face.

Then, if I see someone (particularly another woman) who is not overweight, I'll compare myself to them, and I'm happy if I'm thinner and disappointed with myself if I'm not. It's not a competition, for crying out loud! I've always been that way though. That's why I had to stop going to eating disorder support groups. I made everything into a competition with the other people there.

Sigh...some days are worse than others. I wish I could get rid of all ED thoughts once and for all, but I don't know if that will ever happen. I had issues with my body image all through high school, my eating disorder started in college, around the time I was 19. I'm 40 now and STILL I get those thoughts. Sometimes more frequent than others, occasional relapses, really don't need to head into another one of those now.

[Blue_Bird]

I've been doing yoga everyday and really enjoying it. It feels good

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by eskielover

I hadn't seen my T in a year since she went into private practice. With all the legal stuff & stress I am dealing with it what should have been a very simple divorce & really needed to start seeing her again as the legal stuff is just starting & it is going to get nasty. So I had my first return session today. We talked about everything that has happened this last year & then got into the legal stuff I'm going through & the stress level it causes. She remembered I had eating issues (lack or eating) triggered by stress. I am still sble to eat healthy amounts of food though I have been losing weight.....luckily I have enough buffer weight that it will not cause problems unless it really does get worse as the legal battle gets worse....but my whole life is on such a better place than it was before.

Trying to clean some if my house before making a trip back to the state where I hired a lawyer to protect my marriage assets has been non-stop work. A friend who is caring for my dogs came over to get the rundown & brought me dinner because all I took time for was to cut up a big tomato for lunch. I actually made up my chicken I bought into curry chicken salad & made my crook neck squash into a creamed squash casserol (I can freeze what I don't eat until I get home in 2 weeks.

I am glad that between the stresses it will be a working vacation on the ranch where my horse is. Rebonding with my mare & riding her for the first time after all her training & mucking stalls in the desert heat will definitely be exercise. A good way to wear off the stress & keep in shape.

It was good to talk about the weight issue I have. All my life I remember not wanting to get out if shape like my mom did....it's just that at times it can get out if control when there is a majir stressor in my life.

Evrn when I was pregnant back in the late 70's I swam almost every day....didn't slliw junk food even in the house & I was downhill skiing thebweek before I had our daughter. The stress of knowing I had to have a c-section because she was too big for my small body to have naturally scared me. I had never had a surgery before. I ended up losing what little weight I gained & ended up only weighing 2 pounds more than she did & left the hospital wearing my normal cloths. Have always been weight conscious & daily racquettball games with the guys I worked with kept it going. There just was no buffer ehen a long term stress hit that didn't go away like midterms or finals.

Will see how this mess in my life goes. I have already started losing weight but tjis time I am able to eat just a lot less.

I know what stressors can do to one's health and life. There is a constant battle with it...to keep it at bay. I hope the divorce will somehow go smoothly and be over with before you know it. I am just taking One Day At A Time and trying to get through each day by writing down what I have to do and trying not to worry about everything. I know it's easier said than done, much so. Meditation and light exercise can be beneficial for nervousness. I hope everything will be okay for you EL.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Getting away from ED thoughts is so hard when obesity is such an obvious epidemic around you. I went grocery shopping today. The store was crowded with tons of people, maybe 10-15% of them not highly obese, and half of those children. I hate it when it's so in your face.

Then, if I see someone (particularly another woman) who is not overweight, I'll compare myself to them, and I'm happy if I'm thinner and disappointed with myself if I'm not. It's not a competition, for crying out loud! I've always been that way though. That's why I had to stop going to eating disorder support groups. I made everything into a competition with the other people there.

Sigh...some days are worse than others. I wish I could get rid of all ED thoughts once and for all, but I don't know if that will ever happen. I had issues with my body image all through high school, my eating disorder started in college, around the time I was 19. I'm 40 now and STILL I get those thoughts. Sometimes more frequent than others, occasional relapses, really don't need to head into another one of those now.

Hi and I think we all have issues with body image here and I know that is a difficult thing to deal with.

[LucyD]

I feel the need to overeat, my meals have been so rubbish the last few nights.. that it's barely touched the surface of my hunger.

but overeat on what?

I don't really have much in the house to snack on, and combined with depression and money issues, I don't know about getting anything.

I took a sip of lemon aid today... and it was pure heaven

I know I need to get something somehow- because if I continue in this depressive, won't buy anything stage, I'll be going the other way

[Blueberrybook]

It would be so nice if this thing would just go away...

I'm quite thin again, my BMI right at, maybe below anorexic BMI. Still eating OK though but exercising more than I should. I find myself yet seeing bones in the mirror and being happy about it.

The ridiculous thing is I'm a mom to an adolescent girl (10 1/2 yr. old, normal weight, on the tall side). I need to be setting a good example for her, not a bad one. She's already at a difficult age, and we are struggling so much financially. She saw the pediatrician this June, and the doctor's opinion was she's going to start her period by her 11th birthday in mid-December. I was 12 when mine started, but girls do seem to get them sooner these days. So she's got a lot of hormones and stuff going on. She's super-smart but also has a lot of sensory issues, and I think just barely missed the autism spectrum on the Asperger's side (pretty sure my father is undiagnosed Asperger's). Although, I don't know, maybe her quirky personality will work in her favor as far as body image goes. I pray that it does.

yesterday for once in my life I actually had a sort of decent meal

it's ashame though my teeth were hurting me

took away from the enjoyment a bit

I got someone to bring me round some candy.

woo hoo!

I ate well yesterday.

andm y teeth didn't hurt.

guessing it was a one off

[-Astral-]

became vegan reason because i love animals also lost weight this isnt the reason i did this but it feels like i want to lose more

[88Butterfly88]

I had way too much trail mix today.

[LucyD]

Got my blood sugar glucose to a good point!



A nice relaxing weekend to all!

[eskielover]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Got my blood sugar glucose to a good point!



A nice relaxing weekend to all!

Yea!!!! Congratulations....good work.

[eskielover]

I am working harder on the trip I have taken for divorce legal issues & staying on the ranch where I have been boarding my horse. Trying to ride her every day in the morning before the temps get way too hot (110F by noon)

Also have been working around here to pay for staying on the ranch. Filling horse waters, cleaning stalls when the person hired to do it isn't here. The heat is getting to me. Afternoons I try to recooperate....this excessive heat makes me want to drink rather than eat. Getting more in shape but it will be interesting to see if I have actually lost any weight when I get back home to my scales. I actually have a buffer weight I can lose & still be ok

[Blueberrybook]

I have to admit I'm beginning to struggle again.

Possible trigger warning (mention of bones & running distance):










I always feel too big though I am thin, even very thin you could say. But I don't always feel thin enough, or I feel that eating dessert will make me gain too much weight or something.

Lately, I have been exercising a lot and more than I should. I have been running a lot and am starting to get a distance runner's physique. Some bones that should not be showing are, and yet I like it (stupid eating disorder).

And then I will do things like exercising too much. Once when I was hypomanic, I ran over 10 miles without really any prep for it. I don't know if it was the mania or if the ED fueled the thought that it was a good idea to run so far and the bipolar mania made it worse.

I hate this stupid disease. It is harder than being bipolar, harder than confronting PTSD, worse than panic disorder, worse than dealing with quite a lot of big issues in life, such as emergency surgery and the most painful recovery quite beyond my imagination.

[88Butterfly88]

Ate a whole box of waffles between yesterday afternoon and this morning. Otherwise I've been doing okay.

[LucyD]

[Anatta]

I'm doing okay... Very good with binging/purging (I was put on vyvanse again, so this reduces some of the stress).

Restricting a bit and avoiding food situations...

[LucyD]

I went on a Carbfest yesterday but managed to have a good FBG count this morning. That was encouraging.

Hope you all have a nice week with less stress.