[Blueberrybook]

3 AM, woke up a bit. Fever is 102. Having a snack then going back to bed, will try to see the doctor once they open. Took 2 Tylenol since I can't have NSAISs, but I don't know if that will help much.

[Blueberrybook]

98.6 this morning. I was half convinced I had the flu. I still don't feel well, but I haven't had Tylenol since around 3 AM, and it's 9 AM now. Still have a sore throat, am achy, exhausted, pounding headache (took Tylenol for the headache, it's horrible), tire easily (barely had energy to feed the cats, give them new water, clean the litter). No point going to the doctor unless I get a fever again. I will see how I am doing at lunchtime.

Still decided to cancel my GI doc appt. set for 10 AM today as I am not feeling great, and there is no point in getting other people sick, especially if they are there for their 1st surgery followup; I had to go less than 2 weeks later for my first checkup post-surgery.

Hugs to all who need them. I hope nobody else got sick over the holidays? It really is the pits.

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'd be upset too though you are right, it's hard to tell what exactly they mean.

I hate when I visit my parents and my father says things like you look like you've been eating good. Translation to me: You look fat. I know he means basically that I look healthy, but I always think fat.

I only just saw this post (I'm not ignoring you)

yeah.... the weight thing.. personally I don't have a problem with it- I'm not too large, I fit in to the clothes I want to fit in to, I can walk around- I'm not the fattest person on the planet.

yeah my weight might slow me down sometimes or cause other issues (for example I struggle with bending down), but I know what those issues are- and I know at the moment it's not causing me any longterm problems. if people think I'm fat or overweight, then it's their opinion- I'd just prefer it if they didn't mention it to me (I am sensitive about my body, you know.)

yesterday I showed someone one of my threads on here (I believe in the BDD section), and he turned to me and goes- so you don't want anyone to comment on your weight?

me: exactly, or my body. I'm ashamed of it

I'm back to the overeating today.

it's been bad... I actually even surprise myself

I am having left over turkey for dinner- I suppose it's some consilation that i've decided not to cook an entirely diffrent meal

[Blueberrybook]

Running fever again...99.5, getting back the horrible headache, achy all over, sore throat, and some nausea now. Couldn't even finish soup and a few saltines for lunch. I will check my temp again when I can take Tylenol later this afternoon. I am having to use the old glass mercury thermometer, bit of a pain. Oh, well, I think it's more accurate than some of those digital ones. Stupid forehead thermometer gives me temperatures all over the place. I need a new digital mouth one; the old one has dead batteries. Mouth temp is most accurate (excluding rectal) whether digital or not. I called my doctor's office, and everyone there is booked up until next Wed., even the NPs. So unless I get horribly sick, I will wait it out instead of going to urgent care, which is sure to be crowded and will be a waste of money anyway if it's the flu or a viral infection, just likely be passing my germs on to someone else. Super queasy, ugh, this pretty much sucks

[Blueberrybook]

And here it goes...the start of repetitious weight loss commercials for the New Year (happen to be watching live TV right now). Every year when this happens, I think I need to get a New Year's Resolution to lose weight. My FB feed gets full of diet repetitions, workouts, calories eaten and burned, meals, etc. until around the start of Feb.

It is hard to tell myself, no, I don't need to diet. I freaking run a lot of miles/day and don't eat enough for that on purpose; I am underweight, and I need to gain significant weight. It's just so tempting to jump on the diet bandwagon.

Please tell me I am not the only one who struggles with this!

[Blueberrybook]

Still sick...afraid it may be the flu after all.

[Blueberrybook]

OMG, actually got a doc appt. today at 1:45. I really just want to know what I have and if it is contagious.

[Blueberrybook]

Quiet here. How is everyone?

I went to the doc. I have strep, and she said possibly the flu too because my cough sounds very flu-like. If I'm not better by New Year's Eve, it's both.

[Blue_Bird]

Sorry, haven't posted in this section in awhile.

I went a little nuts with cookies over the holiday but in general I'm doing pretty well. One example is today I had the urge to restrict but I used wise mind and made myself realize that I was truly very hungry and needed food so I ate. I'll be going grocery shopping next week. Looking forward to getting fresh food in here.

I'm doing my best to fight the urges to binge or restrict, it's an everyday battle

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Quiet here. How is everyone?

I went to the doc. I have strep, and she said possibly the flu too because my cough sounds very flu-like. If I'm not better by New Year's Eve, it's both.

Hope you feel better

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I hope you had a good Christmas LucyD, I know it's a hard time for you

[Gr3tta_0]

I am so sorry the holidays have been such a struggle for so many.
We are struggling with some very hard losses here.
My wife's surgery on 12/20 went well, but she is struggling in her recovery. I am feeling somewhat better from my own health issues but am frustrated with my follow up. I will see my primary Dr later in Jan unless i need to be seen sooner.
We do not celebrate Chanukah or Christmas in our home, which reduces some stress. I have been choosing more nutritious foods during my safer times, so that's good. Outside safer times i have engaged in poor behaviors, but i have lack of motivation to change.
I am working on getting our home more in order, and that's a highrt priority right now.
I hope all are well.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I am so sorry the holidays have been such a struggle for so many.

We are struggling with some very hard losses here.

My wife's surgery on 12/20 went well, but she is struggling in her recovery. I am feeling somewhat better from my own health issues but am frustrated with my follow up. I will see my primary Dr later in Jan unless i need to be seen sooner.

We do not celebrate Chanukah or Christmas in our home, which reduces some stress. I have been choosing more nutritious foods during my safer times, so that's good. Outside safer times i have engaged in poor behaviors, but i have lack of motivation to change.

I am working on getting our home more in order, and that's a highrt priority right now.

I hope all are well.

Glad your wife's surgery went well I hope she recovers good

Good luck with your followup

[Blue_Bird]

I have been aggravated because I feel full most of the time. I mean, I get hungry but when I eat I feel full really fast. That seems like it would be a good thing but when I eat a normal amount I feel uncomfortably full, so it automatically makes me feel like I've binged or something even though I haven't. Which makes me feel bad. It's hard to enjoy food now because Im like bloated all the time. I'm not sure if it's the trileptal or the GERD or both. I know it's not my other meds because I had been taking them for years.

[Blueberrybook]

Hugs to all in need of support. I'm here, still sick with strep or strep and flu. I can feel I am getting a bit feverish again. It's off and on. I have a horrid dry hoarse cough but I seem to be having to cough less today than yesterday. No change in the sound of the cough, just the frequency. Am beyond pale, terrible dark circles under my eyes.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Hugs to all in need of support. I'm here, still sick with strep or strep and flu. I can feel I am getting a bit feverish again. It's off and on. I have a horrid dry hoarse cough but I seem to be having to cough less today than yesterday. No change in the sound of the cough, just the frequency. Am beyond pale, terrible dark circles under my eyes.

So sorry you are ill. I hope it will clear up quickly for you. Being sick really sucks.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I have been aggravated because I feel full most of the time. I mean, I get hungry but when I eat I feel full really fast. That seems like it would be a good thing but when I eat a normal amount I feel uncomfortably full, so it automatically makes me feel like I've binged or something even though I haven't. Which makes me feel bad. It's hard to enjoy food now because Im like bloated all the time. I'm not sure if it's the trileptal or the GERD or both. I know it's not my other meds because I had been taking them for years.

Yes, medicines can give awful side effects. Celery and asparagus are good, natural diuretecs. Hope you feel better.

[LucyD]

So how is everyone doing at this the end of the year? Anyone have any resolutions? I seem to always break mine but I still can try again. I want to continue to eat nutritiously, I do allow for some snacks at times that may not be the best thing but that's life..lol. I think we all need a break at times. My main focus this coming year is to continue to try and improve my health. I take walks with my dog but this time of year it's cold so maybe I can start exercising indoors. I have been prescribed some physical therapy for my knees and neck. Haven't arranged for it yet, though. Hoping to get another car that is better than what I have so I don't have to worry about driving a beater so much. That's because it is falling apart..lol..not so much how bad it looks.

[Blueberrybook]

Doing a bit better, but my antibiotic is giving me diarrhea...just wonderful Though that has kept me from the scale because with this much diarrhea, there's water weight loss, no point in it.

Oh, and I am due to start my period on New Year's Day. Nice.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Doing a bit better, but my antibiotic is giving me diarrhea...just wonderful Though that has kept me from the scale because with this much diarrhea, there's water weight loss, no point in it.

Oh, and I am due to start my period on New Year's Day. Nice.

Glad you are starting to feel better. Periods...oh I remember them well..there's a good side to Menopause.

[LucyD]

It's almost the last day of the year and I am so grateful for an end to 2018. Too many problems for me. My obnoxious neighbors have moved and it has been quiet and peaceful here, thankfully! I can't even begin to describe the abuse invoked by them. But it's' over! I can look forward to a new day now!

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by LucyD

It's almost the last day of the year and I am so grateful for an end to 2018. Too many problems for me. My obnoxious neighbors have moved and it has been quiet and peaceful here, thankfully! I can't even begin to describe the abuse invoked by them. But it's' over! I can look forward to a new day now!

Oh, LucyD, me too. 2018 SUCKED! MIL's funeral was in early Jan. I swallowed a dental burr getting a crown in January, turned 40, got a perforated ulcer on Valentine's Day and all that entailed, my old pdoc is retiring and I had to start with a new one and beg her to get me in at that clinic after seeing a horrible pdoc. Financial worries. H didn't get the job he was promised at the university in the summer, didn't get it in the fall. Two car repairs. A giant AC repair. The dryer broke. The garbage disposal broke. The CPS investigation, the ride to the psych ER in a police car, the psych ER itself, the ED relapse (triggered by losing 10 lb. during my ulcer stay). Nothing but bad luck, never any good news until mid-December when H found out he got on at this university for January. Though he found out the day before the university closed for winter break and knows nothing about the new job. The new HOA "sweeps" person noticed our window unit AC in the garage (we've had it over 10 yr) and reported it as a violation. It is a violation, we know, but it hadn't bothered the stupid HOA for 10 years! H had a back and forth hassle with the HOA. Talk about a sucky year! Oh, and my bipolar is mixed and has been mixed since freaking March, I am so tired of mixed!

And to cap off the year, I got a strain of strep throat that was flu-like too and now I'm on an antibiotic giving me diarrhea. Great way to start the new year!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Oh, LucyD, me too. 2018 SUCKED! MIL's funeral was in early Jan. I swallowed a dental burr getting a crown in January, turned 40, got a perforated ulcer on Valentine's Day and all that entailed, my old pdoc is retiring and I had to start with a new one and beg her to get me in at that clinic after seeing a horrible pdoc. Financial worries. H didn't get the job he was promised at the university in the summer, didn't get it in the fall. Two car repairs. A giant AC repair. The dryer broke. The garbage disposal broke. The CPS investigation, the ride to the psych ER in a police car, the psych ER itself, the ED relapse (triggered by losing 10 lb. during my ulcer stay). Nothing but bad luck, never any good news until mid-December when H found out he got on at this university for January. Though he found out the day before the university closed for winter break and knows nothing about the new job. The new HOA "sweeps" person noticed our window unit AC in the garage (we've had it over 10 yr) and reported it as a violation. It is a violation, we know, but it hadn't bothered the stupid HOA for 10 years! H had a back and forth hassle with the HOA. Talk about a sucky year! Oh, and my bipolar is mixed and has been mixed since freaking March, I am so tired of mixed!

And to cap off the year, I got a strain of strep throat that was flu-like too and now I'm on an antibiotic giving me diarrhea. Great way to start the new year!

Wow, what a crap year you had! I hope 2019 will be much better for you and yours. I'm not even in the mood to party or watch parties tonight on tv. I'm watching ID channel's murder mysteries. I may have to shut that off, too, it gets depressing. I just feel like going to sleep.

[LucyD]

I hope this will be a better year for all of us!