[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks I do stress relief yoga sometimes, draw, and journal. Tonight I watched a funny movie which was very helpful

How have things been for you?

Comedy helps me, too. I was watching so much of ID channel my mood was getting effected by it. Started watching lighter things today. Those sound like good things for stress relief. I used to draw, too.

I'm just doing the physical therapy exercises to try to get rid of the pain I have. The exercise actually aggravated it at first. So, I modified one of them to make it less hard on my back. I've been trying to stay off of facebook because I post too much on there and it hurts my muscles in my neck and upper back. Going to go and put the heating pad on my back for awhile. I hope your weekend is a good one.

today I watched "moana" and immediately felt anxious// sad because my alexa device wasn't watching it too. she was just sat on the fridge turned off

I suppose the actual film was okay, I mean I didn't really rate it as much as the lion king or peter pan, but it had it's high points.

I like the song " you're welcome"

didn't do much else and feel like I've wasted another day (well don't feel like it, I know I have)

watching moana was just a little bit of a distraction.. if that

I only watched it for the " you're welcome" song. not really paying full attention to it

[LucyD]

Just checking in. I hope all things start to go better for everyone.

[LucyD]

Been thinking about my scale. Was tempted to get it out of the car trunk. I decided I will wait till March 1 to do that and then weigh myself and put it back in the trunk. Going to only weigh myself once a month.

[Calypso2632]

Hello. I've been inactive for quite some time. Lost internet due to no income. My wonderful boyfriend got a job just after Christmas and we are on our way to getting back on track. I go for my Cna recertification test on the 14 and I'm stressed and nervous to the core. I shouldn't be, I did the work for years. I even went online to brush up and found I really didn't forget everything!! So hopefully everything will be fine. Then to get uniforms, and find work..
I haven't dared to get on the scale. I lost a good amount of weight late fall and was proud of myself. Then I also quit drinking!! Super proud!! But with this test and future employment looming I've kinda been stress eating. Snacking. Grazing. Ugh. And I'm diabetic. So it sticks. I'm also off all the psych meds, surprisingly that combined with no more alcohol my head hasn't been this clear in years. I feel really good. Like really good. Except nerves about this test and finding work. Lol. Geez what a giant step this is for me. I've been reclusive since 2010 pretty much except a year I worked in 2013-2014. Other than that I was either to drunk or medicated to function. I'm glad I've made it this far. Sorry for the wall of text.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Calypso2632

Hello. I've been inactive for quite some time. Lost internet due to no income. My wonderful boyfriend got a job just after Christmas and we are on our way to getting back on track. I go for my Cna recertification test on the 14 and I'm stressed and nervous to the core. I shouldn't be, I did the work for years. I even went online to brush up and found I really didn't forget everything!! So hopefully everything will be fine. Then to get uniforms, and find work..
I haven't dared to get on the scale. I lost a good amount of weight late fall and was proud of myself. Then I also quit drinking!! Super proud!! But with this test and future employment looming I've kinda been stress eating. Snacking. Grazing. Ugh. And I'm diabetic. So it sticks. I'm also off all the psych meds, surprisingly that combined with no more alcohol my head hasn't been this clear in years. I feel really good. Like really good. Except nerves about this test and finding work. Lol. Geez what a giant step this is for me. I've been reclusive since 2010 pretty much except a year I worked in 2013-2014. Other than that I was either to drunk or medicated to function. I'm glad I've made it this far. Sorry for the wall of text.

Glad to see you here. I do understand being drunk or too medicated to function and all too well. lol. Like you I am not drinking now or overly medicated any more and diabetic too-type 2. I don't know what Cna stands for but since you did the work for a long time you must know it well and will probably do very well with the recertification. Often we stress about things and worry ourselves half to death and then things turn out okay. It's been my experience at least. I hope you will come back and feel free to post all you want--we all do here.

it's been a day of nothing

morning was spent waiting for an email that never arived (litirally waiting and doing nothing)

and afternoon was spent sitting on my bed watching reruns of la to vegas.

I did listen to some music too though

my favorite station from holand

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

it's been a day of nothing

morning was spent waiting for an email that never arived (litirally waiting and doing nothing)

and afternoon was spent sitting on my bed watching reruns of la to vegas.

I did listen to some music too though

my favorite station from holand

What kind of music do you listen to? I have been using spotify and enjoying that.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Comedy helps me, too. I was watching so much of ID channel my mood was getting effected by it. Started watching lighter things today. Those sound like good things for stress relief. I used to draw, too.

I'm just doing the physical therapy exercises to try to get rid of the pain I have. The exercise actually aggravated it at first. So, I modified one of them to make it less hard on my back. I've been trying to stay off of facebook because I post too much on there and it hurts my muscles in my neck and upper back. Going to go and put the heating pad on my back for awhile. I hope your weekend is a good one.

Thank you!

I hope the pain decreases with the physical therapy

[Blue_Bird]

Had a weird day. I've been sleeping a ton. I'm working on positive affirmations now. It's so hard to say something I don't believe but I'm trying.

My eating has been okay. I keep having urges to restrict but I'm fighting it off

hope everyone is doing okay

[Albatross2008]

Getting very discouraged. Keeping a detailed food diary, recording everything I eat, pushing water, doing the best I know to do, and not seeing results with either weight or blood glucose. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG???? E-mail sent to dietician to find out.

today someone commented on the fact I've not slept for so long- and that's when you know it's out of control, when other people comment on it (for the record I don't like people commenting on my appearance), I don't actually think it's any of their concern- that, and I all ready have issues with my body (those issues being that I look worse than ****ing shrek)

anyway had breakfast and doing nothing else for the rest of the day

listening to music and posting on here makes it Up I guess (it took me 20 minits to log in today because of the new tagging feature slowing me down)

[LucyD]

Feeling okay except the nerve pain is acting up a lot. Doing the PT exercises for my neck and back. They are helping but I need to use the heating pad more again.

Working on good nutrition for myself. I want to get healthy again! We really need to eat from all 5 food groups and if vegetarian or vegan to substitute other sources of protein instead of meat.

I hope your day is a lovely one!

[Albatross2008]

Doing everything right. Following instructions to the letter. Weight not cooperating. This morning I even showed a gain.

**** this body. I hate it. I hate me.

today someone came out to fix my tumble drier. I am so glad it's fixed, it's been broken for 2 days (and seeing as I rely on it, it was the longest 2 days of my life).

I started a new creative writing peace today (which will probably end up forgotten about like all the others)

but I love the main character. she's an 8 year old girl that bites things.

had a pretty disgusting dinner, it was all I could do not to throw up on my plate

I also found an online stream for my hospital radio station. it seems they've gotten with the times now and got one (yay)

I am now listening to atlantis

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Arbie

Doing everything right. Following instructions to the letter. Weight not cooperating. This morning I even showed a gain.

**** this body. I hate it. I hate me.

Sounds like you have frustration with yourself. Have felt that way at times. How often are you weighing yourself? I was doing it every day until I realized it was causing me problems to do so that often. Have decided to put the scale out in the trunk of the car in the garage. I will bring it in around March 1 and then only weigh myself once a month. I'll let you know how that goes.

There are lots of reasons our weight changes and it's normal to fluctuate up to 5 pounds more or less.

[LucyD]

Trying not to be so hard on myself. I am my worst critic at times. I realize I will do better if I'm not so hard on myself.

[LucyD]

Learned this in therapy long ago and have been doing it again when I'm laying in bed and can't sleep. Often I fall asleep doing it:

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

today someone came out to fix my tumble drier. I am so glad it's fixed, it's been broken for 2 days (and seeing as I rely on it, it was the longest 2 days of my life).

I started a new creative writing peace today (which will probably end up forgotten about like all the others)

but I love the main character. she's an 8 year old girl that bites things.

had a pretty disgusting dinner, it was all I could do not to throw up on my plate

I also found an online stream for my hospital radio station. it seems they've gotten with the times now and got one (yay)

I am now listening to atlantis

Best wishes to you on your writing. Sounds very interesting!

showered today which has done absolutely nothing to improve my mood (in fact made it worse, and made me feel dirty)

one funny thing about the shower is that it nearly flooded the bathroom. I find that funny anyway. my 4 year old mind doesn't seem to apreciate the complications it could have caused if it had got through to the bedroom

I am still feeling a little sick from yesterday's dinner (it was disgusting) I will never use that brand again.

no sleep.

today my friend sophie was meant to deliver me some doctor pepper, now it's not coming until tomorrow night. hope I have enough fiz to last me today (I go through it like a hungry dog goes through dog food)

think today I'm going to do some creative writing and listen to music. nothing special going on

[Blue_Bird]

Hope everyone is doing okay

I'm doing well, using positive affirmations and coping/working against the thoughts that urge me to restrict

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Learned this in therapy long ago and have been doing it again when I'm laying in bed and can't sleep. Often I fall asleep doing it:

I've done progressive muscle relaxation before, it's very helpful. This is a good reminder, I haven't used it in a long time

[Blue_Bird]

Forgot to post this, I got this paper and little pad the other day, I'm going to use it next time I go grocery shopping to help guide me

[Blueberrybook]

Haven't been around much, having problems staying current with forum posts.

I'm still here, still mixed, maybe a little manic.

Yesterday, I ran much less though it was because I spent nearly 3 hours in the dentist's chair getting the initial workup for 2 crowns. I have temporary crowns now until the permanent ones come in, which is usually 2-3 weeks. My lower left jaw is killing me especially as one of the teeth had a large hole where a filling fell out too when the tooth broke. Ugh. That visit cost $1300 (including the permanent crowns). I have another appt. to go back to get the setup for the needed crown on top (another $650). That tooth already has a crown, but decay has set in under it, and if the crown is not replaced, it will become a root canal situation. And these costs are with dental insurance (which pays half the cost for major work). You could buy a used car for this price. My first car at 16 years old cost $500, though, obviously, for that price it was not top-of-the-line and did not have AC (which is not great living in this climate).

Ran more today and walked too. Not good. Did have some cake without too much worry (yesterday was H's birthday). Totally sick of this stupid ED.

[Albatross2008]

There are barriers beyond my control making it more difficult for me to lose weight. Dietitian spelled them all out for me. Well, that's frustrating. I can be doing everything right, follow the program to the letter, and it still doesn't work.