hate to eat but i'm starving

I'm trying to figure out how to get help for my eating problems.
I told my therapist that I wasn't eating anymore. He told me to schedule an appointment with my pcp. He said he doesn't think I have an eating disorder...but I don't know how he can know that because we didn't really talk about it. I don't want to find a new therapist but I don't know if he completely understands.

The thing is, I hate eating. I mean, I like certain foods and I have cravings sometimes, but I hate the way I feel when there is anything in my stomach, I hate the way it looks like I've gained 5 lbs when I eat even the smallest snack or meal. I know I am not at a healthy weight anymore and I don't care. I barely eat anything unless I just can't stand it anymore, and I exercise intensely every day.

I just got back from vacation and all the swimming and fresh air really stimulated my appetitie, plus I was with my husband all the time and he won't leave me alone unless I eat. I gained 2 lbs which freaked me out and now I am back to hardly eating anything.

I know these behaviors and feelings aren't healthy, but I can't stop them on my own. I DON'T WANT TO START EATING ALL THE TIME AGAIN.

I guess I'm venting a bit...sorry for my rambling. I think i know I need to find someone who will help me. I just don't know if I am motivated to change right now.
thanks for listening.

That happend to me too, saddly... first, i was anorexic, then.. i became an overeater... now, im anorexic again.. you should ... first.. analize what you want... what you really want... change your perspective, relax and ... not thinkin about the issue all the time...
Maybe the stress is putting some weight on you... take a deep breath, and ask.. a second opinion. You deserve the right diagnosis, .. get well!!

Do talk to your T and provide the details you shared here. It does sound like an eating disorder to me. If your therapist is not well-versed in treating eating disorders, perhaps the two of you could work through a book together or you could see another therapist as a kind of adjuctive treatment specifically for the eating disorder. That way you could continue to see your current therapist for the issues you currently are working on with him.

Take good care,
-FT

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If your therapist is not well-versed in treating eating disorders, perhaps the two of you could work through a book together or you could see another therapist as a kind of adjuctive treatment specifically for the eating disorder. That way you could continue to see your current therapist for the issues you currently are working on with him.


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My T knows next to nothing about eating disorders - but I love him and am attached to him, so I don't want to switch. His solution is to consult with another therapist who DOES specialize in eating disorders, and I think he's going to take a continuing education class in eating disorders too.

I wonder if your T would be open to consulting with another T so he can help you?