Always feeling hurt, angry, issolated

A bunch happening now, Been out with a sick back this week. Lots of meds and in bed. Not fulfilling my work obligations. Worried about that let alone my pain status. And now, I have been on here more this week and I feel like a naughty chuld who doesn't belong. It is so much more comolicated but yoy get tge drift. I am doped up, lost, scared, alone ans pissed off.

so sorry you are feeling so bad........but believe me ...you are not alone.....i have degenerative disc disease and spinal stenosis so i know how frustrating back pain can be......i wish i had some words of wisdom for you......i just hope that things ease up for you and that you feel a little better soon.........

i'm sorry that you're having a hard time now.......we're here for you,WW. xoxox pat

Is there a funny movie you could watch in bed with some pop corn. That will make your day kind of thing. Always works for me. Take care.... Wisewomen

Still dopey, couldn't focus on a movie iff my life depended on it. Back pain is good if I get up and wak wround once for 5-8 min every hour. I feel frigtened and insecure,.

I see ok how about these things to do instead....
read a book
listen to music
Play a board game (with someone)
Watch tv
Write a story
etc....

(((((((((ww))))))))) Am thinking of you. Hope you feel better soon. I know it's hard, but you come first, k? YOU YOU YOU YOU.

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Please take good care of yourself. I hope you feel better very soon.

Hugs,

Jan

I am sorry you are hurting WW. I have been feeling like running away (from here) and naughty, sad, little, and that I dont belong, but those feelings maybe aren't true. M is pissed off with me and I don't blame him. But I am lucky that my back is ok, I feel for you on that. Hoping and wishing for you that things get better soon
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Thanks guys. I am mixed between feeling stoned with the drugs or feeling pain. When I woke up this morning I was in pain, no question. I took drugs and now I am just staoned with some pain. Can't drive but I am going to try to get out some. FRIENDS TAKE ME AWAY

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WW,

I'm not sure what kind of work you do, but if it involves using a computer (it seems that most jobs do anymore) perhaps you could get your employerto furnish you with a laptop, or let you use your own comp to do work from the comfort of your home for a while?

You and I have talked about the pain we're going thru with our backs. Mine has gotten out of control over the last month, hurts bad all the time. So you know I can empathize with you over what you're going thru. Just remember that your health comes first. Here's wishing you some relief very, very soon.

A big, but gentle hug,
Greg

Thanks Greg. I ronically I do my notes on computer but the only way I am comfortable on here is reclining in bed with a rack under it to stop it from overheating. The other issues are that I am in and out of the car constantly. In people's hot and uncomfortable homes a lot and have to haul my brief case and laptop all over. I have wheels for the briefcase and need wheels for the laptop. In all seriousness this is what has caused this latest bout. I am supposed to take a vicodin and a skelaxin now, or a little while ago and it's making me nuts cause I wonder how much more goofy the meds are making me feel. I drove 5 miles on a back road a bit ago figuring most of the drugs are out of my system right now. I was wrong. I rear-ended my own van in the driveway. OOPS. I am frustrated, disbelieving in myself, am I making this up? Can't get out of bed now, I am so pooped. Pain when I woke but in with the drugs and I felt a lot better. Thanks for asking.

I hope you get to feeling better soon. Physical pain just seems to magnify emotional pain when it doesn't seem to be going away.

Hey Wendy, I think I am burned out and need a Hazel or maybe an alice from Brady Bunch. Can you please arrange? Also, please make my house clean and organized like that too okay? Thanks for the well wishes. OOPs, didn't mention my pool! need one of those too.

I think we all could use a Tabatha (from Bewitched).....a twitch of the nose & everything is finished.....or the jeannie (from I Dream of Jeannie).....a wink & nod of the head & everything is done just the way we want it......I know dream on......we deserve it don't we?

The only major pain I have ever had was my migraines which were 24/7 for about 4+ years. The pain was over a 10 on the pain scale & would only go down to a 4 when I would get a demoral shot (200mg). After my neck fusion surgery (which they thought would fix the problem), they found that the fentynal patch was a good start for the pain, but only part. I couldn't even explain what happened as break through pain because it was always there anyway until they doubled the level of fentynal I was being given. Been on that for over 2 years & wow.....not a migraine since. That was when I realized how wonderful you can feel when you aren't in pain. I hope you can get your back pain fixed soon or at least get the inflamation to go down so you can get some relief.

A pool would be great yes.....the best way to exercise a sore back....maybe you could get a prescription for one from your DR????lol

Hope you are feeling better soon,
Debbie

Haven't been able to drive. I swim daily usually.

Wow I'm surprised you were trying to drive with having taken skelaxin...and glad nothing worse happened! Feel better, k?

Well Sky I figured that if I am supposed to take it 4 times a day then if I was an hour late taking it I should be okay driving. Now, no one died and the joke about the van was that I was trying to get the little ole geo and the van to mate but the van wasn't receptive.

Okay, so today, no drugs at all. Just spacey me. I am going to pick up friend's son and realize that I was taking the route to the dump and that I hadn't turned to go to his house. So, I try to do a uturn and fail, try to back up out of the dicth quickly without rolling foreward, it's a standard, end up stuck with my car's butt in the road and the front in a ditch. Well, being the crative soul I am, and being that the geo is old and owes us nothing, it's reliable cheap wheels and I can go over 300 miles on 3/4 of a tank of gas. Well, all that being said, I decided to drive down into the ditch and drove a hundred feet and tried climbing up, too steep, drove another 100 feet and up it went slick as not. So I pick up my friend's kid and he is a little frightened driving with me, too bad, he lost his license. He told me I almost pegged off a bicyclist before a stop sign. Ha ha I say, no points for almost!!!! It's an ugly story of a woman losing her mind but it must be told, it just must.

So the kid cleaned house for me and even did the fridge which I had said would not be as bad as the microwave. I lied. So much dead food now we can put real food in there if we had any. He told me he had to have a chat with my daughter about the microwave splatters and the use of plastic rap. hmm, seems I am the last one here to open fridge or microwave so what do I know?

Rest assured Sky, no more driving today. The adventures in drug hangover land were big and broad. Can''t take too much excitement in one day.