Sick of it all

Tomjones · Oct 15, 2011, 06:57 PM

Feel free to move this to somewhere more appropriate, but I seriously need help now.

Basically I've grown to hate EVERYTHING. Really I have no pleasure in anything and all I've been doing for the past F-knows-how-long is being bored stupid while waiting for the day to end so I can do it all again tomorrow. I can't cope with this anymore and I'm more lonely now than I was last time this flared up (I'm actually isolated now so I have no choice in being lonely)

Ygrec23 · Oct 15, 2011, 08:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Tomjones

Feel free to move this to somewhere more appropriate, but I seriously need help now. Basically I've grown to hate EVERYTHING. Really I have no pleasure in anything and all I've been doing for the past F-knows-how-long is being bored stupid while waiting for the day to end so I can do it all again tomorrow. I can't cope with this anymore and I'm more lonely now than I was last time this flared up (I'm actually isolated now so I have no choice in being lonely)

Hey, Tomjones. Doesn't sound good. In fact, it sounds pretty poor. Hating EVERYTHING? Everything at all? Really? Bored by everything without exception? Are you seeing a therapist? Taking meds? Have you done so in the past? In school, out of school? Teenager? Adult? In a relationship? Not?

Just from what you say, it doesn't sound good. Is it possible for you to see a therapist? Us here on PC are just other sufferers like you, not medics. I don't know for sure whether you'd get anything better here than a simple strong suggestion to see a therapist as soon as you can.

Most people, even injured and sick people, have some connection of desire with life. Like to do something, even just one thing. Addictive things in some cases, drugs, alcohol, whatever. Others, maybe food or shopping or whatever. Very few are totally off on everything at all.

There are literally tens of thousands of people here on PC who will respond to calls for help, such as yours. Many of them will, I'm sure, feel more connected with your description of your own problem than I do. So don't give up now. You do have to keep posting until you connect with people who you feel are essentially your coequals in this group. I'm only one of hundreds who will offer some kind of help. Some of those people will be closer, some further, from your way of feeling. Hold on until you find the right one.

And take care of yourself. None of us want anything bad to happen to you.

Tomjones · Oct 15, 2011, 08:25 PM

Yep, no enjoyment of anything. You name it I've either never seen it or I'm sick of the sight of it. Pretty much all I do is waste my time until tomorrow comes so I can do it all again.

Yeah bored by everything, if it doesn't respond within seconds I'm angry and this has got to the point where I don't have the patience to let my son dress himself (he's 3) so we can get out so we can get back so he can go to bed so I can sit bored until I go to bed (that's my good day!)

I've asked for help from my doctor and I've been given a number to call but I was told to leave it for a week. To be honest I doubt I'm going to get anywhere because I've been through this before where I'm left for days on end to just cope without any help until I snap, and then that's my fault for not getting help... I don't know what else I can do really, I mean if my leg was broken I'd be getting help for that last week when I went in about it

gma45 · Oct 16, 2011, 02:38 AM

Tomjones, Hope you had a better day today! I understand the getting help thing. I was having extreme anxiety attacks and was told I would have to wait 3 weeks before I could see someone and that was just a general practice doctor. That is when I found this site am people here got me though it. I am so grateful for this site. You would think there would be more options out there but I guess not. Sorry I am not real helpful but I do understand you are not alone.

Tomjones · Oct 16, 2011, 01:14 PM

Nope, still just as bad.

Caretaker Leo · Oct 16, 2011, 01:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Tomjones

Yep, no enjoyment of anything. You name it I've either never seen it or I'm sick of the sight of it. Pretty much all I do is waste my time until tomorrow comes so I can do it all again.

Yeah bored by everything, if it doesn't respond within seconds I'm angry and this has got to the point where I don't have the patience to let my son dress himself (he's 3) so we can get out so we can get back so he can go to bed so I can sit bored until I go to bed (that's my good day!)

I've asked for help from my doctor and I've been given a number to call but I was told to leave it for a week. To be honest I doubt I'm going to get anywhere because I've been through this before where I'm left for days on end to just cope without any help until I snap, and then that's my fault for not getting help... I don't know what else I can do really, I mean if my leg was broken I'd be getting help for that last week when I went in about it

Been in your shoes many times and understand your frustration. It is easier to see a doc for a head cold than to see one for MH issues.

Please hang in there. Try some deep-breathing to try to relax if you can.

Do you live in an area that has a "First Call for Help". (United Way). If so, dial it up now.

Tomjones · Oct 16, 2011, 02:12 PM

It would appear I don't, all I could find was first aid and an alzeimers site...

alliwantislove · Oct 16, 2011, 03:35 PM

at times i got thru what u do. i have a 2 year old and i sometimes take out my frustration out on her. afterwards i feel so horrible because its not her fault. i feel like a shity mother at times because of it. dont take it out on ur son be patient with him and remember he wasnt asked to b brought into the world. its hard to deal with the feeling but it will surpass sooner or later b patient be calm

Tomjones · Nov 02, 2011, 09:07 PM

Quick update for everyone. NOTHING has happened. I'm still in the exact same position I was and it's getting worse (how I don't know but it is)

Nov 03, 2011, 10:54 AM

Did you ever call the number that was given you? Did you get a response?

Tomjones · Nov 04, 2011, 10:53 AM

Yes, and no it just rings and rings...

alwaysrejoice · Nov 04, 2011, 11:08 AM

Try to find a number on this site:

http://www.befrienders.org/

Tomjones · Nov 04, 2011, 11:17 AM

I shall give them a try thanks

Nov 04, 2011, 01:33 PM

Please let us know how it goes. You have friends here

Chancellor · Nov 04, 2011, 05:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Tomjones

Feel free to move this to somewhere more appropriate, but I seriously need help now.

Basically I've grown to hate EVERYTHING. Really I have no pleasure in anything and all I've been doing for the past F-knows-how-long is being bored stupid while waiting for the day to end so I can do it all again tomorrow. I can't cope with this anymore and I'm more lonely now than I was last time this flared up (I'm actually isolated now so I have no choice in being lonely)

Tom, there are times when I wish I could understand this kind of stuff but, frankly, I don't get it. I don't know what it's like to feel bored or lonely (in fact, I enjoy my alone time a bit too much). Pleasure? That one seems pretty subjective; and since I don't tend to experience a wide range of emotions, I'm a bit out of my element on that one.

I guess the first question to ask in response to your post is "Why?" Why do you not have pleasure in "anything" and why are you "bored stupid"? As for "isolated," you say that as if it's a bad thing.

As for "being lonely," I really don't have a clue about that one.

Caretaker Leo · Nov 04, 2011, 05:49 PM

Tomjones - so glad to hear that you aren't giving up and are trying to find connections to help you! Keep us updated and we will keep trying to help you find resources.

Tomjones · Nov 10, 2011, 01:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Chancellor

Tom, there are times when I wish I could understand this kind of stuff but, frankly, I don't get it. I don't know what it's like to feel bored or lonely (in fact, I enjoy my alone time a bit too much). Pleasure? That one seems pretty subjective; and since I don't tend to experience a wide range of emotions, I'm a bit out of my element on that one.

I guess the first question to ask in response to your post is "Why?" Why do you not have pleasure in "anything" and why are you "bored stupid"? As for "isolated," you say that as if it's a bad thing.

As for "being lonely," I really don't have a clue about that one.

I used to enjoy alone time, but that's now all the time, and not through choice. Out of any given 24 hour day I'll be on my own (as in couldn't talk to a person if I wanted to) for 20 of them. Over the years this really takes a toll...

To be honest I am at the point of giving up, at least when I snap and start strangling people there's a record that I've been asking for help

kindachaotic · Nov 10, 2011, 03:58 AM

(((((Tomjones))))) Really sorry you are struggling. My only advice is don't give up!

If you have ins keep calling, try your primary care dr & see what they can do to get you an appt, if you have county assistance, same with them, keep calling. Don't let yourself fall thru the cracks of the system!

As hard as it is to keep motivated, you just have to keep trying. Making 1-2 phone calls probably won't get you any help. Keep bugging anybody & everybody until you get an appt with a T & pdoc. You also have to keep the welfare of your child in mind. It doesn't sound like a very happy enviroment for either of you. As for me, been there & done that...

Hope this helped, take care.

PS. you can PM me anytime.

Nov 10, 2011, 04:33 PM

Hi again - At the top of most PsychCentral pages, in the brown menu bar, there's a button called Find Help. This brings up a search thingie that allows you to search for therapists. On the excellent site for Psychology Today there's a button called Find a Therapist.
http://www.psychologytoday.com/

I agree with kindachaotic that your primary care physician is a good way to find help. My physician recommended my current therapist to me, so I knew right away he was going to be a good one.

Good luck! And keep us posted.

Tomjones · Nov 18, 2011, 05:01 AM

Lol absolutely nothing on this entire half of the country...
Well I went back to the doctor yesterday and told them what was going on, he gave me the same number to call... Next time I think I'll be totally honest and see how quick help is forthcoming then

kindachaotic · Nov 18, 2011, 06:35 PM

(((Tomjones))) Really sorry you are still struggling to get some help.

Like I said in an earlier post, don't give up, just keep calling, calling...

Don't know which country you live in but try & stay motivated if this is apparently your only resource.

Was on state assistance & if needed anything, (and phone was only way of communicating with them), had to call repeatedly, busy signal, then was on hold aroung 40 min then often sent to 3-4 people before my issue was addressed. I did not give up. I appealed decisions & won, ect. It can be done.

Do you have a case worker or social worker? If not, ask for one. Don't be intimated by the system, don't let yourself fall thru the cracks.

Now, I know this is easier said than done! If you have any kind of support system, friend or family, ask them to help.
I have a friend whose husband can NOT use/talk on phone. Wife calls & he gives them permission for her to handle whatever it is.

Hope you get some results soon, hang in there!

Tomjones · Dec 02, 2011, 11:53 AM

Here's the real kicker. All this trying to get help is the first step.

Dec 02, 2011, 01:42 PM

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Originally Posted by Tomjones

Here's the real kicker. All this trying to get help is the first step.

Yes, that's a bummer. At least when you DO get help, you'll have someone on your side. Sorry you're having to do all this alone. Therapy may turn out to be a piece of cake after all you've had to go through to get INTO therapy!

Keeping my fingers crossed you find someone soon

choocha · Dec 03, 2011, 06:20 AM

Hey. Ditto. Same here. I've put my "plan" on hold while I make one last ditch effort at some state of recovery, or feeling better. In the past I've been inconsistent with my treatment. This time I'm being diligent with meds, appointments, and I've even been going to various mental health centres & participating in activities. The first few weeks of my new meds, I thought I was noticing improvement, but it was just my anti-depressant triggering a manic episode. Now I've developed tolerance, I'm way down again. I only hold out from what I really want because I have pets who I love & care for. I worry about what would happen to them if I went. I think it is nearly possible to die from loneliness, feels that way anyway. Feel free to contact me for a chat. We could both probably do with the company. Keep me posted.

Ygrec23 · Dec 07, 2011, 06:02 PM

Good LU_U_U_U_U_U_U_U_CKKKKK!!!!!!

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