[PlanningtoLive]

I have been on edge for awhile now. I cut my dose of Geodon in half (without doctor's okay) because the tremors were getting bad.

Today my h and I went and bought a new router for our computers because they were not running at the speed they were supposed to (we have 3 going thru one router). Anyway, we went to Best Buy, and they wanted $50 to have the Geek Squad come out and hook it up. We said no.

We got home and hooked everything up according to the directions and we couldn't connect to the internet. We called the 800 customer support line and with the first rep we couldn't understand him. So we got a supervisor, who wasn't much better. It was like talking to a brick wall, he just couldn't help us. I got so frustrated and so intensely angry that it scared me. Then the rep started telling me to calm down - that made it worse.

I used to lose my temper like that before I started on meds. I scared myself back then, and tonight was just like that. Normally it's my h who loses his cool and I can talk calmly. But not lately.

Is this because of the med decrease? I am still so upset and angry that it worries me. What can I do to calm down?

Thanks.

Mary Alice

[jbug]

Mary....I was watching a show the other day about anger and one of the things they said to try when you get angry is get a bag like a walmart bag and fill it with old bottles and take outside and bang the heck out of it with a hammer and pretend that the bottles are whatever you are angry at. Yell, scream, curse whatever you want while you are breaking the glass bottles and when you are done. Throw them away. But if you are an SI'er I'd not advise this if you think that you could use the glass. But if you think that you could do this and be safe try it.

Or take a pillow and scream into it or hit the pillow.

Jbug

[ozzie]

Hi there. I'm betting that writing about your anger in this forum helped. I find that talking to someone about my anger helps too.....however, talking to the person I'm angry at rarely helps because they always get defensive and can't hear how I feel.

I have the same problem understanding people on the phone when I have to call Avon for my business. They have folks from India answering their phone calls and most of them have a very heavy accent. It is frustrating to say the least.

[seeker1950]

Hi, Planning,
I rarely get angry...have trouble expressing anger, and usually don't feel it, except toward myself, berating myself internally, though not often. I do teach middle schoolers, and maybe lose my temper with them once or twice during the school year, which takes a lot out of me, leaving me exhausted.
I have to admit, that nothing frustrates me more than computer problems, hooking up things that don't work and then no help from the help lines.
The most recent time I got frighteningly angry was when I had quit smokng. Something about a speeding ticket and expired registtration at the court house. I went out to my car and had a fit! Scared me! I went back to smoking...sigh! But I still plan to quit again.
Love and peaceful thoughts,
Patty

[Mouse_]

I'd call that situational anger...dealing with the internet and online staff would drive a saint to rage!

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I think you know the answer to that one, Hon. Take your full dose of meds.

There IS a lot of incompetence out there, for sure! There are times I just wind up hanging up on people because the infuriate me so bad! But if you're feeling the same way you felt before the Geodone, then, by golly, it's time to up that dose to what it's supposed to be.

[PlanningtoLive]

Jbug, I used to be able to imagine a room filled with glass objects and then systematically breaking everything in it. It helped before, but conjuring up the image doesn't help anymore. I like your idea though.

I am a former SI'er though, but fortunately haven't started back up again.

Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

Hi Ozzie, it's good to see you. It's the first time I've posted while I've been that angry, and yes it did help somewhat.

It took me a long time to get some sleep last night because of the feelings.

Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{Patty}}}}}}}}} I'm usually the same, I keep it bottled up and let it go eventually. Just not last night, even today it still ticks me off. My h put the old router back in place so we could get online again. He's calling around to see about getting a different one.

I'm sorry you're still smoking, I used to also.



Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

I think the intensity of the anger is what scared me. Haven't been like that in quite some time.

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{{Tomi}}}}}}}}}}}} The tremors were getting so bad though, that I had to do something. I see my new T on Monday and will ask to be put on some other med.

I've tried so many meds and had so many bad reactions. I will just have to watch myself until Monday.



Mary Alice

[eskielover]

Oh anger.....oh incompetent people......oh yes.......there isn't enough meds in the world to make that go away or to even deal with the level of incompetent people that are in the world today. I was dealing with getting my prescription filled....my normal prescription....nothing special...only had a problem the previous month & needed the Dr to override it again just to get my normal prescription...& it was the day I had to have my med filled as without it, withdrawal.....bad things happen....not good.....& there is no way I'm going to be calm with all the stupid hoops they were making everyone go through just so I could get my normal months medications through the patient assistant program for the med.....& they know the med......they shouldn't put people on that med through things like that & then they tell me to calm down.....I tell them if they were looking at the same situation they would be blowing their cool also & would be worse than I am being. I finally got on the phone & just told them to make it happen NOW!!!!!! and the guy did....it wasn't the 24 hours they said it could possibly be.....especially when I got the prescription in several days ahead to that problems could be avoided.......

With my anger, I got involved up to management level & made sure some changes happened......so sometimes because then realized how serious the problem was......so sometimes anger has it's place because they wouldn't realize how serious the problem is without it.

As for getting back on your full dose of meds....I wouldn't go that way either with the side effects....maybe find something else, or another way of calming down the anger......

Hope all goes better soon,
Debbie

[SeptemberMorn]

I have tremors, too, from my meds. It gets frustrating and embarrasing at times. Sounds like it's worse for you. I'm sorry!

Good thing you're seeing your T this soon. Be careful, Sweety, and try to not get into situations that could possibly trigger that anger. Easier said that done, I know, but I've got faith in you. You've come SO FAR!

(((((((((((((PlanningtoSurvive )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
thinking about you and hoping things get better
know i care and you matter
you really do ((ty))
muffy

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{Debbie}}}}}}}}}}} That sounds like me. I just got so angry I blew up, and that used to be rare.

I've tried so many meds though, I think I am running out of ones to go on. But Monday is coming and something needs to be done. I almost walked off my new job tonight.

Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

Oh Tomi, thank you for saying I've come far. It doesn't seem like it at all since I was just in the hospital in March. I'm not coping well with working and everything.

I'm still waiting on my disability claim as well. I'm hoping I get approved.



Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{muffy}}}}}}}}} Have I told you lately how much I enjoy your posts and all? I think you are a very special sheep and thank you for caring.



Mary Alice